Immense
Overwhelming
Killing
Pain.
Pain pierce through my heart like a sharp spear.
I can do nothing about it.
I guess I'm numb from everything else.

You used to be my best friend.
You used to be the person I trusted.
Now.
We are back to just how we were.
Strangers.
You told my secrets.
You rip my life apart
You rain destruction on what I protect the most.
Is this what you wanted all these while
I sacrificed so much for you.
Endured all the pain
Stood by your side when everyone deserted you.
I'm shattered.  
I'm giving up.
Because I only exist when you need me.

Do you want to know why I use a knife? Guns are too quick. You can’t savor all the… little emotions. In… you see, in their last moments, people show you who they really are. So in a way, I know your friends better than you ever did. Would you like to know which of them were cowards?

Always wondered how it will feel
When the blade touches the very first surface of my skin
The sense of confusion whether to cut or not to cut
But now, I guess it was a tool of relieve of all this pain around me  
All the fake words and people
All the False promises that were made
It gave a sense of numbness towards all of it.
What now?

Memories is one of the most cruel things in this world.