MuseumofMax

MuseumofMax Sep 2024

Looking into your eyes
I feel at home

You make me feel whole
When I lose myself

You give me a smile
Even on bad days

Thank you for being
My hide-away

#couple #love #home

MuseumofMax Sep 2024

Becoming Human

I noticed I stopped being so judgmental

Maybe because I have become more human

                         and in doing so

          I have understood what being human is.

   I am flawed

                                               I make mistakes

      And

                                     I learn


                       I improve

        I love

                                                              I hurt

                      And


                                  I try again.

#flaws #mistakes #learning #loving

MuseumofMax Aug 2024

Rue

My mind is in anguish
as I process my past

They carved scars into my skin
With their sharpened knives

Then gave me claws that I couldn’t seem to trim

First I hurt myself
Scratching my skin until it was raw

Salty tears didn’t heal my wounds

Now I’ve scarred your flesh
Because I didn’t file my nails

It bleeds as I stare in horror

I never thought I’d recreate the pain
That I had felt so deeply before

Although I now carefully remove each talon
Inspecting their purpose

Your scars will remain, just as mine

I wish I was never given those weapons
That I didn’t want

I wish hadn’t used them

Forever now I live in reflection
As I wonder if your cuts will heal

As I wonder if we can move forward

My wounds revealed

For you

MuseumofMax Jun 2024

Listen

With you I share my faults

I whisper stories of who I once was.

I close my eyes while I reveal my weaknesses, hoping you don’t leave.

I speak the thoughts that have gathered dust in my head.

Each word that falls from my lips
more anxious than the last.

Your arms pull me close so I know I’m safe

You listen.

An old poem that I liked.

#listening #relationships

MuseumofMax May 2024

Untitled

I am learning how to find joy in myself

Not from drugs or wine or the ones I love

But through my soul, knowing deeply who I am

I’ve heard it’s possible to find joy in one’s self

And I’m trying to find it.

#joy

MuseumofMax Mar 2024

Ghosts

Every so often

I am haunted

My mind betrays my eyes
And once again I’m looking out of a window
trapped inside a brick house

The ghosts that follow me
Remind me of each moment
That I wish I could forget

Those around me never see
How my eyes go dim
and my smile fades

my ghosts surround me
threatening to suffocate
They appear in my dreams

no escape.

#past #memories #trauma

MuseumofMax Feb 2024

Freedom?

What does it mean to be truly free?

I am not sure.

I know that I am not free, that I may never be.

But I am more free than others

Why does the government decide my freedom for me?

Why can’t I help those dying across the sea?

Why do they decide who I can be?

I’m not sure I’ll ever know true freedom
while living under this system

But I’m not sure how to escape, how to truly be me

#freedom #government #gaza