You never know
The deafening crush
Of silence until it's right in front of you
Unblinking and unmoving
Gathering your soul and
Scattering it like dust on the
Dirt covered ground
Laughing at your misery
Jeering with hollow lips
Pitted eyes seeming to
Peer into your deepest crevice
The silence is crushing
Eardrums are shattering
Erie chills creep up your
Spine at a deathly pace
The noxious air slipping
Into your lungs at
Suffocating speeds
Marching over your heart
Like soldiers in the regime
Until it becomes a part of you
Never being able to differentiate
Between what is you and
What is it
Corporeal and incorporeal
Bodies twine as one the two combine
In a sickly manner
The relationship that of parasitism
Taking years to remove the parasite called
Silence
Medication helping the bonds to break
Shatter and loosen
The death grip it can have
Don't underestimate the power and effect
Silence will have

The moment you forget.
Mind wanders with regret.
Eyes blurred, lose focus.
“What’s my current purpose?”

Is spontaneous enough?
Chasing a dream, tough.
As a child we rushed,
what was all the fuss?

The lost moment finds.
The lost moment unwinds.
The lost moment reminds.
Messes with our minds.

In that moment there is clarity.
We connect with our reality.
Understand humanity.
Endless possibilities.
Test our comfortability.

A chance to breathe.
Rebirth and see.
Are we where
we want to be?

Take that lost moment,
to reset your focus.
To find yourself and
your new found purpose.

Looking at myself now,
I am not sure that I recognize
any piece of who
I used to be.

Our cells are constantly
replenishing and replacing,
and technically speaking,
I am not at all
the person I once was.

I understand that I
am a collection of my experiences
and that everything I have
done has led me to this moment.
I do not know what has come of
the choices I
made opposing this.

The patches of my skin
that only said yes
when they meant it have
peeled away and are
replaced by the fresh
tissue of compliance.

If I am
the sum of my experiences
then why are there no
scars on my thighs from
the times I smiled?
If I am
the sum of all of my experiences
then why is there
a fracture in my arm from
anger but not from love?

If I am really
the sum of all of my
experiences then
why does my body
only show my regrets?

Soon the world will end
Because humans always break
What you are given.
Soon everything will go dark,
And you still don’t believe me when I tell you
How much you mean to me.
As time slowly wastes away
I find myself melting into you
But I see now
You’re just trying to scoop me out.
How much time have I spent saying these words?
How much time do we have left?
I gave you my heart
And humans always break
What they are given.

Your eyes,
Deception lies?

Too good to be true?

Scared,
So scared you actually exist.

Me,
Young naive?

Scared to believe,
Still skittish and broken.

Wonderful,
Oh how i feel in the morning knowing you thought of me,
Jealousy,
In the pitt of my stomach,
That i hope its only me so bad i could puke type feeling,
Desire,
To hold you close and show you what i can do,
To want you and everything that comes along with you,
Baggage and all
Pleasure,
Warm breath,
No sight,
One place to the next id kiss,
A cool breezy yet warm surprise,
Give you all i know in hopes to blow your mind,
Remember,
I want to be the woman you remember,
On your mind when you have a thought,
Resounding in your head type remember,
Going crazy in your bed type remember,
The caraze to hear my voice again,
The sensation to feel me next to you,
Unbearable,
An addiction,
To need me,
Involve me,

Control me?
In my thoughts i can hear you,
In my dreams they have become so vivid i can feel you,
Fantasy,
To picture your mouth move as you speak,
To wonder just how warm your breath feels,
To wonder how your body feels with mine,

You ask whats on my mind and this all becomes a flash,
And every time all i say is,
You.