There I go again
I was dragged in
Inside that chamber
On the 6th floor
Heart thumping
Wild, about to burst out
This worst feeling
Seeping into my guts
I'm about to throw up
What butterflies?
These are dragons inside my stomach
Devouring me from inside out
Then it started
As I expected
I was handcuffed
chained all over, down and up
It echoes, the incoming footsteps
I shivered as I froze
'Cause I know what will happen
Then, the doors were locked and closed
There it is, The Ghost
"Why me?"
"Because it is you I chose,
and I know you chose me."
It pierces my chest with its hands
It dug my heart out
Torture, this is torture
Nothing can compare to the hurt
I am screaming in pain, crying
But I cannot let out a sound
Under its rules, I am bounded
To express, I am not allowed
If I let out even a soft sob
I will receive a million jab
Because to express is a taboo
And probably to be human too
But who is it to blame?
On the 6th floor, it is me who came
I came knocking, searching
The Ghost only accepted my pleadings
Because this is what I wanted
I'll have to heart-fully accept
That I'll repeatedly succumb to the torment
On the 6th floor chamber
Because The Ghost is right
From the start, the decision was mine
I know I cannot go back
*Because I chose to love
Pain is part of love.