what am going to o when all i do is ponder. this world filled with silence danger. how to hid when all we are just batteling all of our own fear. im not afraid to speak my mind even if it takes my own soul. nothing is my life only head on fear that never ends alone.

i know i can hide from societys games so i rather fun threw hell to flip up this world of lies
no changes could be made when i just have long empty pondering thoughts how. can i let my words out when i have nothing to say my every mistake has reflected on me to run threw hel and back

My heart feels every thing all around me. All eyes that look straight down a pond me will tie a ribbin marking the way home.


All my nerves feel nothing less of the atmospheric pressure making all my deepest thoughts turn all the tricks into magic that would of saved me.


Laying stuck in a daze losing reality all on me.

People all around will change the rules of how thought will one day bring the brightness alive with breathes and emotions that turn the tables up side down.





My thoughts and me wake the sky cry with all my tears I could never cry.


Cause in reality all my eyes see is a manche in we are we run on gasoline.




I lay stuck in my head just thinking why the human society can be so malevolent and evil with not emotion.



Darkness will set as we all turn our anger .




For my mind I only can do is face all reality  walk the darkness feeling the cold rhythm of all the machines that run society.



My heart runs faster than my breath making every thing twist




I'm not a machine I can feel all pain all your pain I have a heart that can fill with sadness joy love hope light or dark I can escape the danger of your stupidity .



I have thoughts that will change society . I have a heart that will change all the rules  of what humanity will show.

I have emotions that can make the sky cry
I have emotions that can destroy the Beauty of a lier.


I feel all your pain misery teats I can feel the rhythmic beat of your soul knowing what has destroyed your hopes and dreams.



Imy not a machine I am flesh and blood with a sense of deeply caring and respect that can under stand things no one knows




My heart is hope and my mind is reality that will change society's miss leading.



I feel all your pain I can read your mind taking what destroyed you giving you my heart to run with open minds


Than we aren't machines but we are just thoughts that can set all of our dreams to become what we really need

This world i have grown up in my own battles that only leave my anger behind burning down my destruction of ashes. my mind is always is searching for new things and many answer's that i wont to finish the quest. i don't follow society's rules when i am stronger that this world that i face every day. my eyes only see what hell is even left in flames. i'm to crazy to care enough to understand your ways. i feel like a relations ships are nothing to me. I don't thing i could breath every time i make my hellish ways to be tricked into dating or wasting my mind on day dreams that will never become real i truly believe. The good looks  you try to show make my mind relapse of trap'd mixed minds just like this world filled with nothing except your own pain you will have to endure on the next  ride when you take my hand. Life is short but i'm still alive. i'm my own crazy psychotic self all over my time every one. every rose i have picked all the blood that *****'s my hands bleeding all over just like when you stab'd me in the back at night with your own white rose making it match with my  ****** red rose that screams out its ****** covered beauty. in the lake house with the sun roofs i see the pretty crimson red i remember seeing you that day i lost you to suicide. my own hellish ways make me me i refuse to follow the crowd but i rather revert and make my ground dis all the rules society has played to me like my own ways i will never let go my ways expect when you have the power or the guts to stop me down my road of of ripping out this world leaving every thing in a pile of glass and ashes.

I will no regret my hellish ways that's my nature even being Russian i'm just me a really insane mental cray person ill never change who i really am.

Not now not ever

every day my mind went lose spilling every thing leaving me behind.  i haven't slept cause my brain is in a fog of creative writing. the clock is ticking away when i sit at my desk with my pen and paper to write. but my mind went lose an my brain is in a fogy storm trying to even pick letters.  i cant even catch my mind but my brain can find its way back. almost 12 am still have nothing.  the lights go out and my eyes light up like the cats eyes reflecting back. how long do i have to run till my creative side is going to work. the clock ticks away but i put music on to play drowning this ******* out.
i know writers block ***** but what can be the trigger object to let my writing flow threw me. its almost 1 am and i haven't even left to sleep but the only thing of words is what i can describe what i feel. vary vary ******. but i still have nothing expt this word in me

**** THIS WORLD **** THIS **** DON'T GIVE A ****

i can paint every color if i dont like it i know if i dont like it.

i can spray the pain over the imperfections that.
what would i do i this world can be my canvious.
i might be be stupide but i am running free. all the paint i have spprayed over you has covered up on our voice you lied

I lay in rain feeling the cold fill my lungs with every mistake I make knowing that death is a grip around my neck slowly feeling like death has his buring lies.



I don't fear death but with his cold dead lying eyes I can't beat that his truth knowing all my thoughts feed his energy .

Feeling his hand touch my back make u see ****** rain threw the eyes of pain  my eyes now see deaths pain for every life he has to take

sleepless night with all i have is the tears that drown me. NEVER take the words of the wrong group that only leads to your own problems! every day new scares become deeper and deeper when you have trust issues that just takes your own life flipping it up side down.  ** can you trust when every one you meet is in the wrong group. WOULD you be the follower or the LEADER of the group. just sitting threw the long classes during the day having the fear every one is coldly looking at you. making a mistake  u can take back makes the dark thoughts grow stronger as you walk like your dead. being home alone has the temp of falling apart ** when u get home from high school your only true friend is the scares they put on. when your reflection starts to tell you that your not WORTH IT what friends do u have. that final  day comes. every night you lock your self away every night laying in deeps thoughts for how to deal. EVERY NEW BLADE paints new picture of what grows{SCARES} is the chapter that tells your entire life storie

HAVE you felt that magical feeling deep down. (LOVE) is a dangerous thing to play with. just like fire! whats the point of love when (LOVE) is nothing but a word that lies. having that feeling you will have the chance to find the one. even tho u will end getting burned for that mistake u made! (LOVE) has no meaning when this world we live in is nothing but corrupt ******* that stab you in the back with no regret!  don't let (LOVE) take your freedom to (HATE)! revenge shows your week side come out. blood shot eyes looking at you from your dark side. (LOVE) is a mistake that puts putrid taste rotting anger. in this corrupt world you cant trust any one who has burnt you in the past![ANGER] solves nothing but your self image and who u really are! dont be the mistake that ends up burning you in the end.every steady day keep moving.  and show this ****** up world that you wont let any of this mother ******* **** ruin your life. be who u want to be kept saying to your self you are the important one even tho anger has burned you ahead of time! never leave or lose your self. (FIGHT) to keep u safe roses will be placed on the ones who were hurt!

I am your soul and your mind no evil will rise In your heart of love I will never let darkness destroy your beauty when I'm the your conscious who will make the fight to survive.societies games. You wounds will heal with loving care but your aggression will test you if you move away into a dark smile. Pure evill will trap every tear I have held back.


I am your thoughts
I am your safety
I am your emotions
I am the thing that will change you from drowning inside away fromthe light.


I'll be the one who will keep you. Above so no pain will **** you <3

My heart has shattered from the relation **** u and me are in. We fight all night but deep down in me I try and try to hold back the teats I never knew I had. Looking up in the sky just want to know if I'm just a dream I couldn't escape. My emotions feel unreal when all I show is your lies that break me tear me apart.


Shattered from your hope destroying my life

no trust just lies that burn holes in my mind why should i say i actually want to be apart of society. i don't want to be held down the weight of what they say will make me want to strangle all of those who ****** me off. i don't agree to follow social media. theirs nothing healthy of society just you will end up screaming your lungs out like being trap'ed in a box or room wheres theirs no place to get out or any air to breath.
what do you breath is society's lies that will make you want to **** every one of them.

i rebel i don't agree with society i don't want to be forced to live in the land of **** face people who i don't give to ****'es about.


society is nothing but madness and sadness i ******* hate. suffer in silence they say! but isn't that what we all do every day in this world. no forgiveness just broken traders who have no point to try. **** filled rooms you end up having to learn in.

people in your way only leave you angry cause they can't even ******* walk.

i don't agree what society is suppose to give. but what it makes you have is a bad taste in your mouth you have to put up with this **** .

yes no OK yeah promise yeah right society is nothing but air you choke on when i stair right down at you. all your ****** mistakes make you a better person hell no you only suffocat on the ******* that you wait for to make time go faster.

i am venting apon what i have to do all day **** this this theirs only words i can't even wait to say

i'm done listening to the problems that are the same as every one elses.


say something new that's worth listening to

i never knew what the meaning of ill see u some day again. but we are all really colse friends. we joked around grew up to gather . we both hung out even ditched class. one day u left a note on my dash board. saying they picked u to join the army. we wrote every day when we can. i  read his last note to me i wrote back. its been 4 years you have been gone. the last vary last letter came saying he loved me and ill be home for christmass but you never showed on the week your get to come home.  being with my gf in our apartment th bell rang right on christmass. 2 millitary dressed in all black holding his helmet his boots his flag. i droped to the floor cant breath!

but i know the meaning that is he is gone. all i got is his flag and the friend who raised me when i ran away. holding his gear with my body turning ghost white. broken to the point where all you do is now is change your identy and start a new life with out tears he is gone im alone in this world that is scary and horrifying .

every day i have woken up to the sound of violence. no time to pick up my **** you just have to run threw hell. blinded mind has no thought of how to survive when life spins out of control with no point to jump to escape. danger comes threw the eyes of blood thirsty people who don't like me or you. you cant find your way in the dark but if you forget you will be blind minded. no sence of whats in your sights. decisions that need to be made to save your life. being blinded minded hits you when your heart tell you to be carfule what is next in your path.

who can you really trust. i dont trust any one and i will find my way to follow a exit

I feel like I am a evil demon I walked the path and I never got to the other side when truth has hit me harder that killing. Life fame not me I live in he'll watching the world collapsed. I know I'm completely insane but I don't have a stories my only thing I am is a force of nature that will end your pathetic Lillie game.

You told my life to expose the truth well I'm insane and a force of your worst nightmares

There is just a steep ledge that hangs threw the eyes of thrill seeking death. Deathes hand play's like knives cutting the pictures of every mistake you have made. Looking threw the blue eyes of the insanity of what you never wanted to see. She looks at me but deep down i'm never going to be set free of what I have done. Psychotically insane only the rain that falls that falls catches my skin leaving burn's. Only scares become clear when nights you just lay awake for nights watching the ceiling fan spin around. This earth you will suround the enemies you have made. I see no reason to make a sound. The cliff you jump in the water of regrets will take away the weight you suffocate in.

what have i done i k new that i have trusted you but maybe to day i hate what i have become cause every dream i have hate what has been wo did i **** in my own silence. i have the feeling when i remembered something and one day t was to late to say sorry for something i didnt even knew what has happpened
i miss have you as my best friend
i hate how we have gone our own ways
i hated why i needd you the most
i wish i couldent stop my tear
i wish our lives coldnt be this way
i hated how me and you fought over what secrets have been said


my ******* day has became the fear on me getting forced to speak on the stage with fear that im choking up already

i remeber all the gifts and love we are all to gathere but my last day ended threw the sun turning blue

the day is turning in to a misty blue shadow that only begain to folow around me since im not strong enought to follow my lungs fill with fear as my lungs deflate

i hate we could both break the scilence to be to gather

if our self cant what ever

this small place scares me. suffocating me along the way. i don't know if i can even escape with out feeling my paranoia grows stronger feeling like the walls are caving in on me. will i even make it out alive with no tourn wounds.  is this just a joke?  is this funny to you when i start to shut down! i thought i could of trusted you as a friend but you thought it was funny to lock me away where it was small and scared. my biggest fear is if any one will free me from this prisonment that makes me feel like its getting smaller with no breath to even take. my anxiety starts to play in to action! when it keeps getting heaver i feel like i'm a scared cornered  animal that i'm willing to slash you face up to protect me.



there's  no place to escape. accepted suffocated when the small place starts to get smaller that makes me want to go insane.

the small it gets is the scared'r i start to feel suffocated with no place to go.

i still have the letters and flowers you have sent but at the end of every day you just leave me with with empty promises. no point to keep on hoping the day you will appear when my heart has no more room for hope the love you gave me was just lies. the tears i have will fall leaving a river of every thing you said to me all your hugs all your kisses were just fake. your love has broke me down growing me from under neath the river i leave behind. your love is al i need but you can show me the truth you keep playing me like its just a game. i have saved everything you give me all the pictures you sent just doesn't feel real any more. the lies you hide from me the things you hide only turn to scars all over my body. but i think the day our wedding comes the truth will show you the light bring us nothing but the joy and happiness. my love you are my dreams the wings of a thousand angels will carry me and you to the heavens above leaving nothing but memories that will tell our stories for what we leave behind the pain you left with me was never saying goodbye when you dissapeard every day i have searched for you me and you were meant to be to gather we are supost to be together forever i every day i drown everyday you get further and further away love sinks and hope floats

what is it even worth to have friends when its like a scale that is a weight on both hands.
it seems like you have to have the morals of pure ideas that make your every choice.
when u get ****** into a life where all you have lost. when u chose to go out with your friends you have thrown away your family losing conections that throw away the love you never wanted to throw away.  

the choices i have fallen victim to has changed me down deep in side.
there are so many regrets i wish i could take back.

friends have made life fun but it takes away tho heart of love.

have you just wanted to just disconect and erase your identity and just start over.

my life is so insane that i am so worn out that i dont know how i can keep going or i should quit trying and drift with the crowd to see where i end up.

the friends that are good leave behind a positive impact but the ones who **** up your time your life leave the negitivity that spinns out of control like a vinal record that skips endlessly.


can you escape or drown and lose your self in all the ******* ******* of self hate.


its a weight that spinns out of control when u lose your grip and end up some where u cant escape like a closet that  just leaves the huanted image of who you really became when u gave into a new group of friends.

I have nothing to feel or love I'm as dead as a door nail the peirced my lungs away. I lay dead with no sound or breath? You told me love will cure a broken heart stomping me till all my guts spilling out. Dead as he'll no breath or heart beat.  I have no voice just the quiet summer night. Layin my head on your lap looking at you knowing you will keep me safe you are my star you are my girl I have  fallen on the battle field not making it to you.  Dead as a door nail quiet as canbe love bites down when I run to you

your words has just went around saying your life away.  just say nothing cause when the ******* have taken every thing? all that left was my trust of your. your life is nothing but worthless lies that only make my anger stair right threw you.
your lies are just shatter'd lies

your voice is sollum by your voice says nothing but your own truth you dig your own grave.


i have been told lies have only took lives to there own death.


my friend you have tryed to guid me well but the ******* lies when you leave this town.


i thought you could trust but i have vanished into the deepest part of the shadows.


your words have only hurt me but my voice says i have healed and i dont have to care.

I have no reason to run or fight. The girl of my dreams saved my life from a path of misery and lost of hope. She made my cold broken heart beat with explosive energetic life. She is saved me from the path of dark abuse of energy drinks.

She saved my life making my heart beat and bring me back to life my baby is my light and explosive energetic life

fall has come witch means all the leaves fall.
every thing dies for the winter. all the open trees bring new sounds to me that i never heard before.
summer has gone but the beauty still rides along the herizon threw the trees.
every thing has changes even my emotions.
i walk a trail going threw the woods.
every thing has lost its color but not my heart.
all the animals have started to bed down.
so its only windy that sound brings to me.
the colored birds fly around fighting echother for what they collect for there nests.
every thing is so pretty if you look at it from and angel.
winter is creeping around the corner with its freezing hands.

i have that feeling when i feel scarred but i go where i want to but what do i even stand for. what the day dose to you is just hollows you out with that worried sad scared for the person sitting next to you. i d'ont know but i feel like i just want to run. when it starts to rain i feel like i'm free and being washed away from all the weight and regrets for every disions you have made durring the day.. all the scares rips tears that linger all over your body. you can keep your games up but ill never stop feeling worried about you that's the truth i have to say to you. but all your games tourching me making my los my mind. when we fight i dont mean it but when we are finally setteled down i feel  that hollow feeling in side me. what all the words i said makes me want toknow if your okay and not any where in danger.

i just sit by the window thinking thoughts of what i could be doing than taking test. i day dream when i black out and sleep threw the lectures that come from  stupidity mistakes i made in the past. i day dream of what life would be like if i was the only one with thoughts that can save minds. i just sit with deep thoughts. i dream of how long do i have to put up with peoples problems. i day dream of what this world will look like with out warfare and blood shed. i day dream that we could only have trained personel to cary high powered weapons. every class my day dream grows bigger with new ideas for me to ponder on what i could do to pass the time. my dreams become ideas when i listen to music that flowes threw my blood.  
my day dream can come true when i think of the idea that is possiable

My love i want to lay you down to rest in my web of your paralizing venom making it painless
Night i cant tell if im awake or in a intoxicating coma dreams begain to form in to terror like buring in your own hell you meddicat my brain but your love takes away everything making your intoxicating aroma **** me jnto your arms i drift into your mind hoping to find you sitting with me. You keep me happy you keep me alive with your voice baby do you know what its like to feel so hollow deep inside your love leaves me breathless your touch changes my mind

Night and day im alive half awake or lost buried in your arms


You take all my pain away you put out my wild fire you blow away the darknezz i seen every day


Your intoxicating aroma as you hold me you lay me down to rest in your arms never leting go

i speak my poetry with no regrets all my words that deep down is the spoken truth of what i think of you. i lay awake all night with no thoughts. you cross my mind but this world isnt strong enought to keep us to gather even if its tommarow. i feel my mind racing with my heart raccing to gather. i could run but what would that do. i dont want to hide i want peace or if not we will bring the riot to **** all of you. the powerfull needs to be taken out. the ones who need to speak are the oneswho you prisioned in the shadows. the un heard voices will come out and flood the stage. we wont back down all the voices now will be heard with force and not pain or misery you shut off..

for every voice every word will create a river of what the strong and the fearless the fear will rain terrior on your grave we stand to gather in the rain and tell the world our storie bring colors in to the dead society

society is a huge scary place. but we have the choices to follow or creat your own path?i know that stress sufficates our own minds. the whole world is made of mistery and questions. have you just felt like you can make that step to finally come out from the shadows. your never going to be alone? cause if you take that step you can tell me your able to make the right disision. society is a big scarey place to be

BUT WHEN YOU BREAK THE FEAR YOU CAN UNLEASH YOUR INNER DEMONS!!!  YOU CAN TAKE YO*UR OWN PATH !

YOU CAN BE FREE TO FIGHT EXPRESS YOUR MIND?

have ever just wanted to become the new society with out all (THIS ******* THAT SUFFICATS US)

WHAT DO U WANT TO CHANG::::::::::::::::::::))))))))))))))

i take my time to ask all my insane questions. walking threw the cemetery in winter brings the most beauty out with the glistening of the tomb stones. whit snow turning red from the roses i break turning blood staining.  my foot prints left in the snow turn me into a ghost that never left a real true mark on those who have slipped tripping over there mistakes. you might call me crazy but i lay the final day. have you compared the natural beauty that lays silent making it more clear to under stand. i have found a cemetery that has miss guided truth. when night falls my eyes glow pure blue like the wolfs i have been taken till i lost it.  i love to find new cemeteries  to explore where these nothing that can hurt you. only if it was true that the living dead was a real thing. no fear only the blind beauty makes the forgotten Gothic graves  pretty. this world more pretty when it kinda dark but with light with the snow with a black rose with a red ribbon left on my savior who has protected me from every thing that i couldn't fight. now its my Friday nights to finish this stories we haven't finished. now its my time to finish the book so this world can move on to follow in my  writings.

On this earth I walk alone hoping to escape this burning hell that has taken every thing from me. You an take every thing from me even my loved ones but you cant break me I wont go let my grip go. This life is filled with fear and blood shed but you can take my hopes and **** them with all your forces that brings **** joys as well, but every time I try new ways I have to move threw the obstacles that I have to move threw.
I have ideas that hopes for life to change, but this is only the start of your hellish ways. there is nothing I have left to say, but I know my next move. I'll flip the script and open a door way to hell and push you deep into the endless ******* life brings. i'm  tired of being silenced all you have done was trap me down in a prism of suffocation. your words have scared like boiling water the scolded the skin.  i could a empty soul witch has been true. i might be dead inside but i still have a heart beat. i might swear when i escape your power that you have taken over the world will end with your voice be silenced when i take the chance to make a present that will take down your over turn of this world opening up the doors letting the souls free.
this war now will be come just down to me and you. i have nothing left to fear i am not afraid to die when i have already have died. i have nothing left to lose hen your war has taken it all ready. i don't have any smile to show when you have drained my life away with all my life including my pure soul. you have left my life shattered in burning piles of dread. you can take away every thing but i wont let this go on any longer. you only bring death and destruction leaving nothing left. but i wont be trap'd for ever when i end this path of stubborn childish ****. only one shot it takes to end this game . i have a plane to end the book of hell when u only gain your power by demonic hate.
i have the power to end this even if it mean ending your life so there wont be any screaming souls left to be heard.

nothing left to hold me down my time to rise up and fight threw all your childish games. no more suffocating no more pain or hate i had enough listening i'm going to spread infection that will end the (rain of terror)

i cant be silence once you let go of your grip.  until then i hope you like a pool of your own drain mind i hope you like the feeling of burning pain.

you didn't just taped me you have no idea i have groups of malicious that have the power to set this world a blaze.

i can't take seeing your power take lives that tried changing to save this world of corrupt ******* like your own kind. just wait till you know what your death will end like like Lego's falling down when you kick them down. this world inst big enough for me or you but suffocating silence wont stand any more no more i have saved this life.

i see you ******* sloly walk pretending to text or talk
every picture you have taken of me. will be the last mistake you will ever bee
my faces has sever scares from burns. every photo u have took of me i hope you rote i n hell. every flash or photo you have taken. i hope you know your going to pay the price you cant aford to be. i dont take selfies or any thing of me i live a life with out showing my face. cause people cant stop looking at my scared running down my face!!!!!

i want you to look streright in my eyes. and slowly sufficat with tears.


every photo taken of me will be the most biggist mistake you will be the rest of your life

i dont take picture of me i dont let family of any kind or friends take photos

every flash or silent click of me will make me vary angey.


you can torment me bea the crap out of me tear my life apart.

but dont ever take picture of me with out consent or ill se you in hell or court


dont take a flash or a silent click ill be waiting in hell for your mistake



dont ever take pictures of me i just want to get threw life with out being the center of attention.

I lay in the most of my thoughts with the feeling of regret for my past forced into a young teen straight into a soldier with anger spilling out . The most of this is the flashback to the trama that broken me leeaven my body broken wounded.


I have nothing left to lose when the evil side comes out .


Seeing death watching as the world turn I to a ****** mess .

I have been broke. And tricked into fighting the broken and the last fear.

Nothingscares me anymore there's nothing left in my path fromthedistruction left by the demons them selves

holding in theses words of anger holding the words of false hope. i ponder what could be said if i were to talk. but i just sit back and watch all your ******* lies dig you deeper. when my silence is strong is the promises you broke. you told me every thing will be okay when it will all be over. look at your self you dig your ditcch deeper like a grave for every ******* lie you said. some time i just want to grab you by the throught screaming down you lungs. words that come out leave the ones stunned. you  stole from me and broke the trust that only end ur last storie.

some times my silence is violent ******* you all off from what you have said.

my silence will grow heavyer as your ******* lies destroy your pathetic life

some times my silence is explosive so watch what ******* ****** up words you say!!!!!!!!
my silence only makes you mader for every ****** up thing you ******* over on

my silence is violenct when i have nothing to tell you you ******* my silence is my defence key to protect my mind from you hurting me.  


silence is the best card to play cause its better to let a time to go ap **** on them

Her love is so intoxicating she paralyzes with her venom. The toxins are kicking in. She medicates my brain leaving the emotions painless. Agin and again i feel like half awake or in acoma where im not alone. She is my angel my god my vissions i see in my head and my dreams. She spins a web where we lay where she lays me down to rest.  Alone i stand in this life a wisper and a scream. This can be real im going to go insain blowing my mind away. What is left only dilusions of the girl i love. The pain come crashing in with the knife you stabed me twisting till the blood stains your blade. I stand in the rain gettting wet. The tears start to bleed crimison red like when you put crimson red lipstick you kiss me all over with. These games the dreams the vissions you left me with give me the strenght to keep walking threw hell i am traped threw. 3 am you are sitting on the couch you drinking red wine or have you finally trapped your next victim and ****** all his blood out of his vains to show you are my true love. Your love is so strong my night mars never seem to exist when you have me tighlt in your arms. Everyday i see buring firery hell i see people suffer for all there sins they have left scares all over. I will walk threw the vall of death just to be with my wife with her intoxicating aroma she suduces me with. Temtation will only bring me missery. My prince i love you i will catch all the threats in my web making sure your safe. No harm will come when you follow me threw the heavens and hells. She has bit me showing me a life with painless begainaings and endings. My life has been nothing but full of darkness pain and endless battles. My wife is like a black widdow her venom sinks in to my vains like needles setting all my pain go away she sets my fear and endless terros away. She promised me i will not die one breath at a time. She picked me up off the floor when i was to weak to keep going. Everyday my dreams change all i see is her right in front of me her venom gave be the visions of a millions dreams. The thunder storme breakes my silence when the fear is to much to bear. I drift in to my own grave awake or asleep. Feeling like im floating motionless in the ocean where the wakes ******* me down to a wattery grave. Before i get taken she grabes my wrist and pulles me to safty where i will not be dead. I feel like the rain sends my soul away dancing in the rain. Playing with fire is what i like to do she is my little widle fire i love to play with. Her long blond hair leaves me speechless. Everything seems to go crazy into my endless fight i face every day. Every battle i face she always stand by my side and fights all of the darkeast demons that torment me every night and day. Leaving my mind a damgerious thing to play with. My night mar becomes real when i start seeing the demons who have been chasing me threw this endless hell i shall rise to the heavens. I will cast my own shadow to play a psychotic game i like to do when your heart burst with all your emotions at once till your hollow inside.  In the middle of the night i sit up with fear and tears screaming my wifes name even tho she is right next to me. Its 4am nights i see with no sleep upp all night thinking all my thoughts. What is real what is true what is fake. Its time to embrace all the pain you feel and anger you go into. My soul is yours to take her fangs i feel it under my skin feeling like im being burned alive. Her love is all i need to to stay alive her love is what makes my life painless. But she suduces me then gives me her venom leaving me paralyzed into her love and powers of love lust and suductions its our own 50shades of grey with our love we have every day night .

With out her i will slowly drift into madness i will slowly go insain losing everything i hade slowly dying one breath at a time.

in my life im ling free with rebelian with twist. where i stand is away from society gripsthat just stab you in the back. i'm insane cause i live in a thrill seeking life. if i had to stand to gather in a picture all of you would just run. you cant hold me down cause i have a life to live getting messed up. i wont stand with people cause every day thats where i stand. so **** the rest of you i hav a life to live with no limits cause ideas are bullet proof. your society. but i dont agree with the sufficating lies they spread i cant be held down cause life isnt ready for my hell im about to unleash on you all.
u may take my soul and life but im standing my new ground so **** the rest of you. cause im disobaying your orders you take to me .

if we do ill see you in you own lies to your grave

what if the day growls long in the hot summer sun. what if that beauty leaves and never comes back. what if life turns dark and we grow cold from the solum sun that reflects warming us deep down. what if tomarrow dosnt come and we start dying off.

we follow all your rules. if we disobay our punishment grows stronger as we go.
every thing is slowly ****** up my the corrupt ******* at the end of the day.
we have secrets wispered threw code. every one is rebeling the system. wuith all there might and force.
the riots grow but the death toll stays lower.
i am the one who you should follow to find all the peaces that the bastareds ripped to shreds. i stand my ground with life in my mind and ****** ******* hate flowing threw my vains.

i hade enough of your foolish games i dont want this world to suffer like i want to make you cry for your own life as my small army grows and grows till you get the point. we don't kindly take over powering jack ***** who over throw society.
we don't stand for killing the week and powerless.

so ill show you a riot that will make you turn in to hell.

no more pain. we stand to gather our ground to show the point we will make all around this world that corupts

I sleep at night with fear my dreams will be come real. I have endless ideas but no leads to run.


I feel alone lost in a place of know to be dark and freaky.


My friend I have is a puppy who is sort and warm.


Walking this abounded  world survived chemical warfare  and nucluer fall out.


Scary sights long night's hidden and lost and forgotten.


Abandoned is the new road I am making to pay words to change the dead who were wiped out.



Alone but not my voice my little friend is alaways loveing to hear my pondering thoughts

until the end i will play my way to show you that if we all parish or survivers we dont have to worry. cause untile the end i wont let harm take away my life and people i can about. i see no fear when the time strikes and we either can riot or just survive hidden deep in the shadows just watching people **** echother.
theres nothing to harm otheres only to defend what ground you stand on.
i might be crazy but im not going to dye by riots i want to use my mind to creat big ideas that scare poeple in its path way

i never could hate
that word is terrifying to me
i can never hurt or leave you behind
i only love
i will never be mean
ill always forgive you even if it was a huge mistake
im the kinda guy who never hates or hurts i couldent be harsh
i will always forgive
i will be ******* you if you be come a threat to me
but ill never be mean hate hurt you
i will always listen to you

i cant be mean cause where dose that get you

the path is dark my light is gone the shadows jump start the way to the water.

my lost shining star has been out like a burt out light bulb.
the path is steep and sketchy but my confides is strong .
i have no voice but a hig heart and strong mind to follow my dreams.
my lost shining star was the light to fin the way out if the internal heavy mist that creeps threw the cracks of time.

you have been gone for to long and my shining stare was my good luck to find my safe haven to escape from the grips of society that brain washes your life with drama and stupide lies

last nights date was fullof colors the red wine staining every snoby watreses white shirt
funny how it only takes our little prank to laugh all rest off the night with our sperits high and our thoughts open. we didnt even get in the door till around 2:00 god knows what. we tryed to be quiet but our laughs can quiet last nights date idk what really happened when i just woke up next to my date half way hung over my mind drew a blank. what did happen cause our room is a mess. my hair is mess and my clothes smell like a horrifying. idk where i was last night just the message i read. we went out on a date witch turned in to hellish pranks that waitor i triped making him get covered in food and the horrable thing that makes you laught so hard you cry

what the hell happened on last nights date

My mind is full of endless possibilities ideas that shin bright like the stars and bright like the son. Why dose it all see like day by day i see the same people but they difrent faces. Where am i going. I cant tell you bc idk where i am heading. Stop have bon fire watch the night sky dance away with emptyness and a heart filled with curiosity. Weathers its love *** or pasion or romance at the end the everyday i am always lost. All my thoughts stop i feel cometly empty play a song it gets stuck in my head and i have to play it on repeat forevery bc i cant listen to another song or it will makethings get worse.


Everyday i see the same people but they all have difrent faces at the end of the day

every night i lay awake with no more energy to keep up with the demands. society is is just a joke. chapeters of lied that spread like wild fire killing every thing in its path of fire and death. i might lose it leaving what kind words i could possably care to even say. i am running low threw fumes of hell. im traped pinned down suffocating from all the **** that drowns me till all the air simmers. playing a game of hide in seek will end all of society away from society. lost in inturnal thoughts leaving a trail of horor with no way or **** to turn back to run threw the past of mine.

what is this i'm going to speak my mind. but this **** your society has done was just hold me down. i don't care any more i am going to show every one what i mean when i had enough. i have picked and chose but it all came down so close like a plane that breaks the speed of sound. when u just want to let lose your dark entitys letting lose hell imprisoning all the ones who have made your life snap like a branch that was full of life.this is my present to this world i run this game so just tell me if you can escape my tricks of all your wasted hate that sticks with out glue or tape. i will invade and show what unseen force that wait your fait. the last friend or person who led the group into the trap? well its my time to show you what i have in me to run the entire place in destruction. i don't care what you say i have listen and been hit by every wave you sent. but this time im going to walk threw and levae this town with no smile but turned into my dark orces of what you have done..



i have been held down  getting crushed by all the lies.

so here's my gift a path of destrution that will make every thing i had to the destruction of venting

i have take my time just to make u feel loved. but you have turned your back on me betraying all the information i have slipped beside both of us. i spent my time making sure no one would hurt you. but i don't think i'm emotionally strong enough to keep going. i have gave you my trust but all you have said is words of ******* that only leaves the gashes deep into my skin. i made your life free but i feel like i cant look at my self when my tears start to flow down my tormented mind set. this is what will be a choice that will erase you from my mind and my society that only makes the truth bleed when u stabbed me in the hand with a rose. my tears have never been seen but i think this time is and acceptation we all have to live with. but i'm about to lose my mind when i just need to start to run so i can escape your words that have just made life a game. this life is crazy but i will make my new identity that will make a master of despise. no one will ever know when i take my **** and just disappear on the run. no more tears no more fear of lies that will turn my personal life psychotically insane no one could escape your not even worth my time any more so good bye

i cant keep going when i end up broken minded when i let my open mind slip.
i don't know how far i can go but i don't have any thing exept silence.
i dont know what you want from me.
attention when you lose your mind.
how far can i go.
i just feel tired of being lied to.
from all your games.
i tire of every thing when it all changes to fast.
i cant keep holding on to false hope you give me every time we go out.
im tired of being lied to for your games that i just want to truth about whats your mind  ***** around.
i wish i could help but your lies make me want to just stop caring.
my mind is breaking cause i cant keep up with your mind.
i dont know how to say thing but my mind has been broken to from your lies that made my life confused .

im tired of people wasting my time.
im tired of getting my hopes up for no reseon.
im tired of this world fighing over greedy ****.
im tiredof every one thinking there are better than ******* themselfs

Baby tell me I'm yours tell me you love me as I lay her with my head on your chest listening to your heart beating tell me I'm loved kiss me take my breath away run your hands up and down my back make me get goosebumps with your soft kisses tell me you will never let anything hurt me baby I love you you are my life my everything your my angel from above

no were to escape only taking on bullets and heavy artillery that explodes killing every one in it's path. no one wants to feel scared but there is a truth to war no one escape only blood shed will stain the white cloth you try saving your best friend who was shot hit all over with fragments of metal making the truth more fear full. theirs nothing such of a war that won't leave bodies piling up. except the cold war that had a tactical scare but not blood shed.  the eye of the heart will say we all break our rules even if our identity's
break that we create to hide  our true self's making it harder and harder to be detected from your really self.. it is clever when the truth of war becomes the truth of your death that will rain on your planes.  i know the to things about war the casualties then your mind making you lose your self then going in a steep slow way threw your own crazy insanity. there's nothing good that you think war is all cool your death will drag you down till your lose it. i'm not scared or feel fear bullets will fly but i know the secret planes how to stay alive .