Mentally, it's painful

What if
What if one day
You forget me
You forget all the memories
We shared

What if
What if one day
I change my mind
I don't want to be
This person I've become
Anymore?

What if one day
Were no longer friends
No longer talk
No longer spend the days together

What if one day
You forget what we have
You forget my touch
My voice

What if one day
I lose my memory
And forget all of this
All of you
All of my best friend
All of your smile
Oh how I hope I don't

What if....

You see what we show others
The outside
Not the inside
We don't show you what we feel
For each other
We keep that special for just me and him
You say you don't seem interested
In him
He doesn't seem interested in you
You don't even know
You don't know the messages
The touches
The looks
The smiles and the kind eyes
The beauty of it all
You have no idea
You don't even know
The half of it
**** out
You know nothing
You have no idea the emotions
Built up over time
You don't know how I feel
Because your not me
How would you know
Anything about it
It's different
You don't even know
You just see the outside

My leg hurts :P
I still need physio
Ugh

The whole time
Last night
You were on my mind
Thinking
I wish he was here
The whole time
Something bad happened
I wished you were there
So I could run into your arms
And feel safe again
I miss you so fucken much
That it physically hurts
Please be okay
Please still love me
I miss you so much
And these feelings won't go away

So so so done
Pushed me away enough
Is that really what you want
I've tried and tried
But I can't do this any longer
I'm so so done










Sorry

Why does it hurt to love someone