Take your time to come my way
So, I can see what I've been missing
I swear I can hear the doves and ravens say
Except I've always been really bad at listening
As the trees try to explain what I've been doing wrong

That I'm simply not human enough
I'll call the stars, and drive through the mountains, just to show
That I love your volcanic ash breeze
Just don't leave me dying

You're simply too human for me
Don't call the stars, and drive through the mountains, just to show
That you hate my ocean salt breeze
Just don't leave me living

Waking up in my own bed
It’s still been a while
Since I’ve felt like I’ve been home
Am I getting closer to knowing
Where we belong
For now
All I see is lonely people
In crowded rooms

And the saddest thing of all
Is what we’ll learn from today
Shall be the losses of yesterday
Thus we’ll begin again tomorrow
Knee deep in the black mass
As the waves sing us to sleep
Where the crashes of the ocean
Caress the folds of our desires
And the thunder lit sky
Tucks us into sleep

There’s days when I can hear the thunder
Far off and distant
The waves start to dance and sway
Where drowning doesn’t sound so awful
One breath and I’d be less tired
I’m only human and the sea calls for my soul
But, sadness is fleeting
For happiness drowns me in child giggles
And the warmth of her lips
My body aches
My mind races
Yet, I’ve never been so at peace

It's about that time
Let's gather round the fire and tell some ghost stories
There goes some spooky noise
Engulf the night in some horror smoke
To keep your mind at ease
Don't forget to breathe
Looking around to all our friends
Blacked out eyes calling to all dead ends
And when you get home
Don't forget you can't hold a ghost at night
It's alright, cause the dark is here just for your fright
When the strobe light starts to stutter
Causing your heart to flutter
And all your dead memories come out to play
Cause every day we're living in some ghost stories

The world called me Vinnie
You called me V
Ultimately I don't understand a thing
I try to do the best I can
I know you try to do the same
We're just so bound to make mistakes
You could call it a disposition
I apologize for all your tears
I wish I could be different
But I'm still growing up
Into the one you can call your love
I don't know if I'll ever be enough
I'm throwing in my chips
I guess I tend to push my luck
And ultimately I believe we'll be okay
It's so cliché to say these things, but repetition is a key
I think I'm better when I'm with you
But I worry when you're gone
I think I need to learn to love myself
I must learn to be strong
So for now we'll say goodbye
Although it pains me in my heart
Your words they come to me in memories
They sing to me like songs
It won't be long until I'm here
Soon I'll make my arrival
Under shady trees
A quiet street
The roads that I have traveled
Ultimately it's a beautiful thing
Like flowers blooming in a lonely field
The petals drift through crossing winds
They find their way to river streams
That scent the water beautifully, it takes me back to you
It takes me back to you

Never wrong
I thought I was never wrong
And better off just wanting less
But, I knew all of me
Wanted more

I came to a fork in the road
One to hell and the other heavenly
The devil standing to the left
Said they both lead to death, invitingly
So, I plan to cheat and took both shoes off
Threw one as far as I could to hell
And sprinted to heaven just to see
I can’t help, but love humanity
Lost in the search for identity
Along our journeys we found empathy
Dodging heartbreaks in war torn countries
We traded a life of riches and temporaries
To help the poor and ill
Cause if it’s not us nobody will
I don’t know where
Our path will lead
But, I beg we follow our feet

She asked what it would be like to grow old?
I guess I hadn't really thought about it
A little bittersweet
Like the green apples that matched your eyes
How exciting that the moments we shared
Would be all our own
Just you and I's
And we eat our apples different ways
You like yours peeled with a little bit of caramel
I like mine with a little crunch and straight to the core
I guess life's a little like that
It's whatever we chose for it to be right?
How terrifying that were stuck with what we have
I guess that's the most exciting part
Never knowing what we'll get to choose
I just hope it taste a lot like apples
Maybe a hint of you too

I know this might just sound a little crazy, but I been thinking about you a hell of a lot lately.

I use to crave a place
Where I could disappear to
Without any traces
Slip through all these chains
Trapped at the bottom with my thoughts
Always feeling heavy in my chest
Sending out countless SOS
How long till I catch my breath?
Will it be before my heart stops racing?
Or will we wait half an eternity
At the bottom of the sea
While these dreams seem fleeting
Peacefully sleeping, all along still beating
Neptune’s prisoner to be
Waiting for you to save me

It seems that I'm not the only one
Who's feeling what were all feeling
I find myself catching news
That we all need a little bit of healing
It seems that we're testing the waters of the deep end
Just reach out your hand to mine
For some hearts just need a little bit of solace

In these crazy...times.

It seemed even as God’s
We found ourselves in a phase
Of making love, where love was absent.

I have lovely days
When I’m with you
The way you move
Makes my mind stray
It’s everything you do
Like the way you say my name
I have lovely nights
When I’m with you
And when the morning comes
When we’re dancing free
I’ll have lovely days
If I’m with you

Remember the feel of the sand beneath us
And the smell of smoke between us
When we laughed like kids
Dancing in a burning room
Alight with bonfires burning in our chests
And flames flickering in our eyes
As summer was fading fast?

The shape of her naked curves
Casted against the wall
In the pure moonlight
Crashing waves whispering her to sleep
Sleep struggled murmurs
I'd rather be here than anywhere in the world
Even Everest and the deep black mass
For you are my Everest
My ocean of black
Further more
You are in essence
Life itself

Got me feeling like a kid
Feeling like this is it
And when the sun comes up
Will you be here in the morning?
My own angel from hell
And with a body like that it’s easy to tell
Cause last night
When I was gripping your neck
And I was slapping your face
Both hands pulling my hair
As I slide your ******* off of your waist
Cause I know you can’t wait
To drop down my lips
Waiting for me to know how you taste
Nothing makes sense to me lately
Except you seem to save me
And I’m a fiend for this has me shaky
Having you like a drug daily

It’s as if my feet have bled through
Yet, the motion never stops
The sound of the waves ease the stillness
Always searching for where my ever drifting heart may be
Coming across entire oceans
To lands undiscovered
Foreign and feral
To find that my love resides in a girl
Her love is infinite and mighty
The best part of the ocean currents
Warm and wispy
Making sure I’m guided home
To where I need to be

The crashing waves
Ripping tides
Ocean's begging for peace of mind
If this is paradise
Why am I burning
With the words you carve through mine
Am I a dead man walking
For I seem to be just talking to myself in the night
And when I'm feeling so low
The clouds won't seem to part like they're made of stone
For your emotions take precedence
Even when I'm bled dry, from being the bad guy

Tear me limb from limb
Due to dissonance
Make sure to salt these wounds
Bury me deep in the ground
Where I feel so home
Beneath the stars

Look at what you started
Here in the lonely hour
For the thrill of it
For we are bashful creatures
Honestly though
It’s just not that deep
Down we go
Our sins are waiting

Twenty-six
It’s funny
I use to find the most creative ways
To destroy myself
I use to be able to do it better
Oh, magnificently tearing down
Than anyone else
The smell of gasoline fumes
Surprised when I light myself on fire
Till you came a long
And grabbed my hand
Never looked right past me
Doused me in heavenly water
Nursed me back to health
Holding all I have over open flames
Two-stepping with Hades
As he beckons my broken parts
Oh, come on he says
I can not undo what I have done
But, it’s easier to accept with you
He can’t get to me with you

To the seas
Where you cast your love
Reel me in
Warm me next to the fire
Until the high tide
Drowns our worries tonight
And the lighthouse light
Let’s the late night world
Know we’re dancing
Waiting on the ocean’s songs

I don’t know the way home from here
But, I have a feeling it’s engraved on my bones
In the ocean swell of people
Different places and faces
My minds a little muddled
And my skin looks a tad more gold
As I breathe for a second
Attempting to recollect
Reconnect and double down
If there is one thing I know
Before we get old
We’ll find our way home

It just never occurred to me
That I was the one hurting me
Save solutions for rainy days
For now my skins on fire
And my eyes feel so tired
I’ve promised myself one day I’d be sane
Except these flames just won’t die easy
And everything seems to change
These old tricks don’t seem to work
It’s hard to extinguish everything
When nothing’s on fire

All of this just might be the same
Regardless this is quite the feeling
Of being insane
And when the day arrives
Where all my poems are dead
And I’ve decided to use words
To **** myself instead
Drowned out in black and white
Laced with colors brought about
By your imaginations
Where you can taste
What’s exactly inside my head
Both in hell and maybe even heaven
Where we’ve lost control
Of our not so holy souls

And I’ve heard
With every emphasis they’ve put
On every word
With every lesson that you’ve taught
But, never learned
With every debt that everyone had to pay
With sins that I have earned
Contemplating consequences all alone
Cutting corners and jumping fences
But, we seem to have grown
And, the things we think we have
That we don’t own
Gathered in our nest
Ready to head out west
Touch the sun on far off horizons
Melt under the stars of oppressions
Self induced
And self medicated
With sights and sounds

So, let's set the sea aflame
Scorch the coastline
Watch the tides turn charcoal black
Watching the world burn away
Hell on earth
It's how I feel
With the dope *** instrumental
Cascading us with background noise
As we eye each other from across the room
Searing one another with fevered looks
Unaware of all the others burning up

To the girls
With a heart that’s churning
To the one that’s heart is in a million pieces
To the one who’s torn on loving herself
Whatever ails you
Give it a year
You’ll have your glow back
I promise you
I’ve seen in it once and I’ll see it again