You were a lot like the game that day
Sun shining bright almost matches that blonde perfection
Perfectly green cut grass made your eyes look ablaze in emerald
Puffy white clouds and pearly smiles
There's nothing I would've changed
Most days in baseball and a pretty girl
Just seem to be good for the heart

They say God rested on the seventh day
I find that hard to accept
For we are supposedly created
In a semblance of his image
And upon my own volitions
I seem to revel too far in my creations
For written on me in invisible ink
Are the plethora of words
Depicting my faults
Maybe it isn’t the creation that’s feverish
Perhaps it’s the destruction in its awe
Worn away by the subtle kisses of time

Working with my demon
I swear I have good intentions
Promise it’s all based in decency
But, am I good person when I need to be?
Always putting myself above you
To feel important
I’ll always need your love to feel supported
When we die I hope they bury us in a forest
That’s if any are left, this life’s torment
If I get stuck in purgatory
I’ll consider it lucky
To spend more time with you

There's an invisible line
Where the waves conspire
To come rushing back again
And perhaps we shall meet again someday
A long long time from now
A little older
And a little less selfish

I got use to you
I got really use to you
You wasted all my time
Trying anything to keep you off my mind
I loss myself tonight

I thought I had it all figured out
You would never fall for me now
Wonder if you wonder why I'm never around
You can hear the pain in my sound

To not know who I am, but still know that I'm still good for somebody
Just want a love that I can say I found impossibly
Cause you know I have my many convictions and they're stronger than any addiction
I'm really hoping this won't keep me awake
Cause, I honestly feel like a sunset just about to fade
The greatest violence that I've seen is our recent silence
Reading my mind just as if we were naked
Painted in one another such beautiful art permanently imprinted forever on my heart
Always trying to find my way back to the start
Because it seems to be every time I try and fall in love it falls apart

It seems to be, that time is just not on our side
How ironic should that be to be carried away by the low tide
Maybe that's our life's long lost purpose to realize we don't have an eternity
That in our great being of mortality
We find our immortality
So, bring me your love tonight
These storms will undeniably grow so much fierce
In a hurricane of love that I have for you
Let's get lost at sea

Blue eyes and a smile to die for
You make it so hard to say no
In a dark room in cold sheets
I lost myself in your face, your medicine is in my head
oh, the habits of my heart
It's ripping me apart
You get so close
It's so hard to let you go
She told him "You're confident, I'll give you that, but if you love yourself you can **** yourself."
At times I think I'd rather be alone, but then I see your name pop up on my phone
I tell myself I like that
When I have my hands tied behind my back
It's a game just for us, and you're not the losing kind

Cried out to you alone
Begging Life to just throw me a bone

Oh Life, how do you ever decide?
Oh Life, how long must we wait?

How do we fly to the sky?
My love, all we have to do is try

Oh Life, what do you know.

-The year is 2050 and we're on route to the year 2017.
-Time travel has been invented for around 12 years.
-Captain Elsen Decker of the USS Apathy is our commanding officer.
He's a man of 57 and decently handsome, a scar through his right eyebrow and a smirk you'll never forget, his most notable feature although is his stark hazel eyes. Always gleaming and curious through any event we encounter, he's a hard man and almost seems heartless at times, as if some great divide has clouded his heart, seeing  him at times you could even say there's regret.

-I'm not sure our mission objective, although considering we are using time travel I assume it's of some importance. Capt. Decker was chosen specifically for this objective as he is considered to be one of the only people who can change the outcome of the scenarios that unfolded that day.

-We have arrived in the year 2017.

-Capt. Decker stands alone with a young man of the age of 24, he doesn't release any information to us of the man.

-He pulled a stool up to the man alone at the bar and proceeds to whisper softly into the mans ear, gently squeezes his shoulder and leaves.

-We have arrived back in the year 2050, and after our initial screening to see if we have altered the present time, it seems we're in the clear, except Capt. Decker his eyes are gleaming more than before and as we go to depart from such a short non-invasive mission I'm struck with curiosity.

-The year is 2051, a year has gone by and I'm still not sure our objective of that mission, and it haunts me. So, I've found Captain Decker and pleaded with him to tell me everything.

-Captain Decker at the age of 24 could be found in a bar alone, confused and heartbroken. The woman he thought he loved was no longer his to love he recalls, and anger and chaos had consumed his every being. Until one day a man approached whispered sweet nothings into his ears and said "Fear not, for there are a many great loves in life, and she will forever remain one of them, but have faith in love for it is real, and it has taken me till now to believe it."

The mind is a fickle thing
Attracted to pretty lies
And prettier faces
Ugly souls and broken hearts
Green paper and shiny cars
I just need the winter pines
And the soft breezy wind
A long shot cause
And my run away brain
Tell me that you love me
Even if it's fake

Always try and trust
what's deep inside
You beautiful girl

New fame in darkness
Moving on was a promise
Lessons the heart learned from all of this

Lost my soul in the city of angels
Diamond chains from which my heart dangles
Toxic love which always seems strangle

Just being honest
I'm moving on I promise

Oh, I swear I've been here before
The moons shining on the bed and floor
Our body tingles never bore
This kiss will even the score
Pinch me till I'm sore
A beggar's rich and I've never been poor
A love like you, who could ask for more?

Memorizing your face from last night
In those eyes I caught the light
And it's been way too long I know
But, baby I can hear our song on the radio

See your face it blows my mind
Just a young boy running through the summers as the heats hittin ninety-nine
Putting my Sunday best on like my mama taught me run and find my girl that's mine

Pull up a chair and take a seat when your ready to ride
Cruisin' down the coast tryin' to beat it to the hide tide
Driven' past the beach as you fell asleep right next to my side
I wouldn't want to spend it with anyone other than you
Couldn't decide which was a more beautiful view

It feels so impossible to let you go
Biochemically addicted to you
I hope he's something special for sure
That the day shines a little brighter when his name pops up in your phone
I'll undoubtedly sit myself down
Dissect everything there is about myself
Till I can find the piece that you saw that said I couldn't be it
I won't get rid of it no, I'll study it and I'll learn from it
I'll try as carefully as I can to piece myself back together afterwards
Maybe editing a few set points here and there
There always seems to be in every scenario that one person has to take a step back for another to go
I suppose I'm just taking a seat for now
Hopefully someday I'll get to where I want to be
Today though? Well, today it sort of feels the worlds crashing all around me

I began writing here at the age of twenty
Eight years later, some days and nights
I found those clouds I saw off in the distance
She had bright blue eyes
Pink lemonade lips
Those aren't what made me love her though
The way she looks at my son did
Her laugh and the hum of her breath helped
His giggle and hands showed me truth
Taught me things I didn't know I needed to learn
Lest I not forget the wonderful dead
Who showed me what I had
What I've earned
And what I still have to strive for
Yeah, I guess it's been eight years
I suppose I will continue to write
Continuing at the age of twenty-eight.

I was driving home
And saw a sole tree
Alone in a field
Apathetic learnings
So, deserving of all of this love
Ever disconnected to all of your lives
Is there even a single kindness
That we can plunge into the soil
Or shall we just fall on our axes
Lost behind fading lights
When hands begin to tremble
With heavy eyelids
And oncoming traffic

Honestly it truly hurts
To watch some of you artist
Give up on your dreams, when on the verge

You're all too scared to be something
People love to talk
Let your actions walk the walk

I'll just keep getting caught up staring at the city lights
Cause' you gotta have some ugly days
To have some pretty nights
Cut some people off
Some dreams take sacrifice
Sometimes that's just the price

Well you know what they say
It’s a stitch in your DNA
Must run in the family
It’s just hereditary
The apple doesn’t fall far from the tree
I wish to break the mold
A bend, a snap, a break in the fold
Raise my children to be better than me
Let them know there’s no limit to what they can be
Show them that there’s more than one doorway
That these things aren’t just hereditary
The seeds from the apple can float away

She had a tendency
To douse me in kerosene
And light me on fire
With a flicker of her eyes
And a match strike smile

The darkest corners of my mind are tight
I mean, out of sight out of mind, right?
It's getting hard to know if this is worth a fight
As when the sun shines it's just not that bright
I think I might be in love, my heart feels a flight
Bursting with wonderous color and it seems to be killing off my mind blight
A woman, who I can love even if I lost my sight

We'll break the mold and the scheme will fail
Endless midnight car rides and street lamp sunrises
Beautiful rays matching our body glows
As your heart creases and mine unfolds
Lost in each other's technicolor beats
Oh, my dear, if you only knew I have a love for you that even a blind man could see

Yeah, I've learned I'm making a fool of myself
Letting these feelings I've felt
Get to the core of me
Making me freeze, get caught with weak knees
I get the idea, you might just leave

You let me suffer
Will you find another
These are our days that we'll remember

You'll always be here right beside me
And if all we have is what's left today
Then with hearts so pure in this broken place
I won't need anymore searching
Cause I think I've found my saving grace

I’ve made my mistakes
There’s so much love that I’m blind too
And I laid them to rest right beside you
Never thought I’d lose my way
Looking for the right way
Where heavy hearts can’t decide
If they’ve had enough
I suppose we just got carried away
It’s almost prophetic like you said
“We’ll just learn from our mistakes.”
And I’ve seen miracle love
She’s a dark haired blue eyed angel
Performing love work with gentle hands

When I was a child
I use to hide away at the library
Surrounded by a plethora of words
I stumbled upon a little black book
With a red leather spine
It told me that monsters didn’t exist
And what will keep me awake at night
Are the things inside my head
Tempered words designed to melt hearts
I know it’s difficult, but crucial
Too be grateful not to miss
The anxiety and emptiness
That we all feel
And someday far away
On an ocean breeze
I’ll accept the love that I’ve always had

Western coast overcast
With the waves lapping at my toes
Truth is I think of writing all the time
Yet, I’m unable to fill blank pages
With salt filled air and words alike
For this over-freeze is affecting me
And I am just not feeling the wind
In the sway and flow of the trees
And my brain is diseased
And I’m feeling low
Oh, I’m feeling low