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 Mar 2014 Jared Eli
Dayana Young
I'm ever so incapable
of holding a grudge

When I look at a person
I see how miserable they are
how pathetic they are
how they struggle for survival in this emotionally and psychically exhausting place we call our city, our state, our country, our world

I know that they think about putting a noose around their neck, just as often as I do, as anyone

so I apologize with no apology in return and go on about my day

and I guess
that's just how it is

-d.y.
 Mar 2014 Jared Eli
Dayana Young
dads a "functioning drunk"
moms miserable because she's not where she wants to be in life
sisters is an unmotivated narcissistic *******

dads yelling about the dishes
moms lying in bed
sister won't share the remote

dad drinks more
mom sleeps more
sister is never home

dads yelling about how he's tired of it all
moms crying because she's tired of it all
sister isn't home because she's tired of it all

I'm angry and afraid because I'm  tired of it all

we're all
just tired.
wrote this on the toilet  the other day
 Mar 2014 Jared Eli
Ivy Rose
Or
 Mar 2014 Jared Eli
Ivy Rose
Or
I do not like this phase of a heart break.

When you purposely avoid love songs,
Or sometimes you play them just to make yourself feel like your hearts still pounding.

When the person you loved and hid from every waking soul is brought into a conversation.
Or when he isn't.

When you see other lovers who have made it years without the cruel hand of fate ripping their love from them.
Or when you see they haven't.

When you notice him writing you smaller, casual messages when they use to be breathtaking and beautiful.
Or when he doesn't write at all.

When I ask you if I am pushing you away and you say no.

"Alright, happy birthday! Text me later tonight?"

"Will do"


When every hidden goodbye ends with those two words. And my broken, belittled heart.

(i. r.)
Please don't do this.
I. Can't. Lose. You.
 Mar 2014 Jared Eli
Tallulah
Gravity
 Mar 2014 Jared Eli
Tallulah
Wake up to me wrapped
around you like wool.
Keep me trapped
in the gravity of your pull.

I want you to want me
like the waves long for shore.
I need you to need me
down to the lava of your core

There's a distance
in the closeness of our embrace.
When you lean in to kiss me
all I feel is the space.

I want to want you
like the waves long for shore.
I need to still need you
down to the lava of my core.
 Mar 2014 Jared Eli
R
Queen
 Mar 2014 Jared Eli
R
He said to "Play the Game"
but what happens when
two hearts collide?
When two players know
the rules and that it's not
just about falling in
love anymore?

This game of Love
would seem to be
so easy: just something
everyone could do.

He said to "Light another cigarette and
let everything go."
If everyone would play and
just let the whole world go,
wouldn't things be easier?

Love is pumping through me.
Everywhere inside of me,
in the cracks and lines
and veins and the sweet smile
I keep planted on my face.

"Don't play hard to get, it's a free world.
All you have to do is fall in love."
Oh Queen, isn't it harder
than that though?
Play the Game//Queen
go have a listen
 Mar 2014 Jared Eli
Azimah Azmi
Undateable
You can come closer, but never near enough to hear my heartbeat

Undateable
You can see me smile, but never see anyone (not even you), in it

Undateable
You can hear me laugh, but never hear anyone's (not even yours) voice in it

Undateable
You can hold my hand, but never find my fingerprints in yours

Undateable
You can give me warm embraces, but never understand why my body's so cold

Undateable
You can shower me with all your love, but never enough for me to do the same

--


I'm sorry

Some time ago
Heart leaking with sorrow I left puddles of my own blood wherever I went

When predators smell blood they hunt

They hunt and they want to conquer
They want the empty vessel to build a home inside it for themselves
They call it falling in love

I took only the good things they have given me and filled up the empty spaces, and then I drift away like the seeds of dandelions dancing in the wind

Selfish maybe but I'm not stupid
I only want to be free
I know what they want
But that is for me for now, and no one else

Because men are so beautiful
But this heart
Is so fragile

*AA
Sometimes, through thy mockery,
you become, perhaps in absolute value,
just as distasteful as thy muse.

A joke is a joke,
but it sometimes
reflects a Mind
that is,
shall we say,
disedified.
All of the Patterns
I constantly encounter within my own Self
with some of which I must struggle, and seek to overcome,
and some of which I must incorporate and nourish,
lead me to an eerily feasible nightmare;

"What if it is that others experience this,
but simply fail
to overcome the negative
and incorporate the positive?"

It seems so obvious
when it's on Paper;
but the trick is to heed it
when such Paper
is nowhere to be found.
Breathing in the toxins
Of the cigarette
She streers left right left
Taking me higher than
I thought possible

Black roads fade into
Gravel as we start towards the
Edges of the dust bowl
In which we reside somewhere down below
In the congregate of city lights

With a sky as black as ink
We parked and stepped out into
The raging wind
And I throw my hands to the heavens
To feel free

She smiles cause she knows
With her closed mouth grin
And we sit on the roof of the car
In the most cheesy romantic way
I feel apart of her life

Kissing her pops into my head

And I nearly cry
Not out of sadness
But because of the happiness
Of almost being in love
And the fear of not almost being loved back

So fear chokes me and holds me back
It's fear that leaves us sitting there
For what seems like forever
Cause I know she can't fathom
How much I almost love her

Climbing back down I feel regret
But I am too happy to care
She drives us back home
And now the hills and the myriad
Of stars are a memory

I don't care if she almost loves me
I almost love her
As long as I can be next to her
Everything is good
And I can cry happy tears

So she keeps breathing in the toxins
Of the cigarette
While I keep a heart full of regret
And the stars will keep their beauty
And the wind will continue to rage on
I think I love her. I almost love her.
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