She was in love with the thought of him
She thinks her future with him
She barely thinks she's indeed in love with him
But things turns out differently.

He's in love with *her

Her thoughts keep on running inside her head. She don't really know what to do but keep on having those thoughts.

I know I’m not a good daughter. Little mistake I made, scolded. But it’s just not me who’s bad in here. I obey everything what they say. Yeah I sometimes disobey. I’m hurt unexpectedly and unconsciously. It feels like they don’t love me. They hate me every time I did wrong. Like I did a big mistake. I don’t lie. I say what I know, when someone asks. I know I lie, but I my lies are just little and plain. No one will hurt when I lie, I assure that always. Cause I don’t want to hurt someone. I am guilty of being guilty.

I know I’m evil, I’m mean, I’m rude and that makes me a bad person. I know I make mistakes, sometimes I’m being sarcastic, I often cuss. My mouth is uncontrollable. I just realize how bad I am. I can’t be a perfect person, a perfect girl, a perfect child and a perfect friend to the people around me.