Slit my wrists
Let the sin fall down

Throw me in a pit
Where I'll never be found

Forget about me
Everyone in this town

Walk away
You'll be happy without me 'round

It's not a command
Simply a suggestion of how to deal with

Someone as
Incredibly terrible as me

For all I do
Is hurt everyone I see

Please break my heart
So I don't have to break yours
I'd rather feel all that pain
Than be the one to make you endure

Please break my heart
So I can leave yours intact
I'd rather be haunted
Than have to hear you react

Please break my heart
So I can live with my decision
I'd rather lose all my tears
Than have tears disrupt your vision

Please break my heart
So I'm not the one serving time
Id rather feel completely caged
Than be the one to commit this crime

Please break my heart
So I can make sure you're OK
I'd rather lose my voice
Than listen to all you might say

This request might seem odd
I ask for you to do the downing
But if we're both stuck in this storm together
I'd rather be the one drowning

Pulled happiness towards myself
                                       Held tight
                                       Grips loosen
                                       It sways away

Pushed sadness back
                             Beyond reach
                             Kept pushing
                             It recoiled

       Emotion is best left
           As an untouched pendulum
           Moving freely within my experience

You said it's not ok
That I wouldn't be fine
If you went and left me behind

Like everyone else, you walked away
Leaving me with memories of when you were mine
And now here I shall sit fighting the monsters in my broken mind

I guess it's just the price that I pay
I forgot I was supposed to toe the line
I still hope that... ten years from now, you still find

You remember the good parts
That had always come
With being
Mine

Spiraling

I'm spiraling

Can't eat

Can't sleep

Can't breathe

Imagining things

What do I do with your rings...?

Weep.... sink... hallucinate... repeat..

Take a break.. fall apart.

I gave you all of me, but you tore me apart

I tried too hard; you left me with a broken heart

I almost relapsed the night you walked away

Kinda shocked I'm still here today

I still see you at school

Thought you meant it when you said forever

Guess I was a fool

..I miss when talking to you was a matter of when...

Not whether