All is quiet now at last
In the house of the dead
A trail of tears I follow behind
Remembering loved ones
And times before loss
Joyful remembrances
And sorrowful costs
Remember their strength and undying luster for life
And all the things you did together
And all the things done right
Take them home with you
And just leave the body
Take care and grasp hope
In possibilities endless
Believe in yourself to make them proud
With more moments worth remembering

have you ever not wanted to remember
[wanted to forget]
keep memories hidden
[pushed/stored away, call it "repressed"]
so you wouldn't have to feel
(so you don't have 'regret').

but locked not so tight enough in your head,
    thoughts, feelings and dreams
         all flood in 'till your brain is bled. ..
                            'till your brain is lead ..
down a dark road of hurt and deceit
of abuse and lies,    explosions that leave..
                                 people who are ready for death alive,
                                and boys too young in life just,  
                                                                ­                         .... die


well then my friend, there's your answer in its simplest form
                                                            ­           ("what's P.T.S.D?")

since you've been gone,
I measure every other girl to you..
It's not something I can help,
it's just something I seem to do.

Alone in the park / 8:33
the morning's still young / birds are chirping
squirrels chase each other around trees
It's a good start to today / at 8:33

There’s a quiet place in my mind
One that I keep trying to find
Where it’s never trouble
And I always know just what to write

Lying down with head in the grass
These nice, warm, sunny days never last
Watch the smoke rise like clouds
Catching a train, she’s on her way out

With guitar I’m left, hanging here
Still a boy, with poems of “no fear”
Too early to bed down
Simmer the swimming thoughts in my head

I’ll go now…
To that place that I said,
So that I don’t run around here screaming
All the words I left unsaid

running 'round in my head ,
racing and chasing
they're thoughts i can't put to bed
now i write words
that are better left unsaid
only thing worth reading
are just words re-read
the voices, these things
screaming in my head
they tell me, they tell me
i'm better off dead
once again medication, you've turned a corner
science and technology, a brand new order
you've taken my heart and censored it entirely
pieces of me that have been lost along the way
god hopes that i don't forget, and remember this day
this night , this moment that you've shown your face
the last piece you took,
was all there was to take away