Amidst the chatter
of news that doesn’t matter
I listen halfway,
catching loose parts
while my fragmented mind
lags behind.

Wish the catch-up would stop.
If only the stopped clock
could truly halt time,
so I could breathe
in the stillness of each tick—
instead of fixing pieces
that refuse to move,
while the hours slip through my hands.

While others starve to protest — here I am,
starving for meaning.

With the job I chose,
the cases I’ve closed —
I'm still reaching for a dream:
to change what refuses to bend,
to cradle a life not yet mine,
to believe in something
bigger than the hollow I carry —
a goal that shifts like smoke:
close enough to taunt,
too vague to hold.

Then the guilt weighs in, interrogating —
Are you dying?
Are you broke?
Count your blessings.

You have a job that serves,
that brings food home,
that keeps you afloat —
even if your soul feels hollow.

With shame, I sip my tea,
check off the list,
move to the next,
give up the thought —
like the smoke of dreams.

Conversations replay —
the jokes I meant to share,
the sorries I meant to say,
now only ads
looping in my mind.

Your reminders linger,
like Post-its
I never peeled away.

So now I stop:
pulling on the socks you gave,
watching the reels you shared,
returning to the places we went.

Each one a reminder
that we’re no longer friends.

Still, some Post-its stay —
their corners curling,
but I can’t throw them away.