you betrayed me
I'm supposed to leave
but when I look at you
I cant find the words
to say
"I don't need you anymore."
but instead I say
"I'm sorry"
and give you my all again
even though
I'm betrayed
and all I have left is my love
and now you've taken that as well

2 yrs
I was adopted after abuse with bio parents
Carla was my mom
Wayne my dad
they hated me due to my diagnoses
13 yrs
taken out of Carla's and Wayne's  house
due to abuse
hit
beat
scratched
hair pulled
dragged
threatened
13-15 yrs
put through foster system
in and out
never felt safe or felt I had a home
put in hospitals
put in placement
no where to go
16 yrs
I'm finally in a loving home
I'm getting adopted
I'm finally free.

I see the pain in your eyes
darling,
it will be ok
I'm here darling
I see my reflection in you
I have gone through it to
I'd rather lose somebody
than use you
I promise.
I love you darling
remember that
you. are. loved.

tic
toc
says the clock
tic
toc
tears dripping off the clock
tic
toc
when will it stop
tic
toc
time runs dry
tic
toc
your life
will end
when the clock
says
tic
toc

all I see is
red
when I think about
you

I love you
but you hated that I love you
so I hated
that you hated that I love you
until you broke me
and I hated all of you
but you wanted me to love you now
but back then you hated my love
so I wont give it
I hate you
but you hated that I hate you
but its your fault

pretty girls shouldn't
cry
pretty girls cant
cry
pretty girls have to
smile
pretty girls have to be
perfect
at all times.
don't
cry
or it will destroy
everything
that you have built
I have to be perfect
I Have To Be
because I'm a
pretty
girl.