If it's not mine, I won't claim it.
Yet, I possess the right to adore it—
No matter how naive or fragile it may be.
One must dig deeper to uncover true beauty.
They say, "Love is blind,"
But I believe one must stand in love, not fall.
My words may appear disorganized; so are my thoughts.
At times, I lose myself in a fantasy world,
Seeking the love I truly desire.
As I stand alone in a peaceful place,
I find myself trapped in a loop of thoughts.
All I can do is wonder:
Will I ever find a true lover
Who makes me feel like a diamond of the season?

In my solitude, I sit and think,
Gazing at nature, I pause and rethink.
So serene, so calm, so peaceful—
All I desire is a life that's blissful.
Once, in my solitude, I dreamed a dream:
To be an actress, bold and supreme,
Expressive, fearless, lighting the screen.
I dreamed of being an artist, free,
Capturing beauty for all to see,
Preserving wonders in colors bright,
A canvas of joy, a pure delight.
I dreamed of being a business dame,
Earning wealth, making a name,
Independent, strong, and wise,
Reaching success, touching the skies.
I dreamed of being a writer, too,
Penning thoughts both old and new,
Poetic verses, stories that ignite,
Inspiring hearts, shining light.
I dreamed of being a model, tall,
Walking with grace, enchanting all,
Confidence in every stride,
Illuminating the stage with pride.
Suddenly, a voice called out to me,
Awakening me from my reverie.
It was just a dream, I now see,
Yet I wonder, how can I be all of these?
How?

I followed God's call, said "yes" with joy,
Life was bright, nothing could destroy.
But one small mistake, just a tiny slip,
Now all my hard work starts to dip.
They say I must prove myself again,
But how much effort? How much pain?
These thoughts come back, again and again,
Bringing doubt, like falling rain.
This year feels heavy, not made for me,
Full of sorrow, wishing to be free.
Will my worries ever end one day?
Will peace and answers come my way?
It's not about love or work alone,
But something deeper, in my bones.
Is it wise to carry this weight,
While others chase a lighter fate?
"Live in the now," they always say,
But who maps out tomorrow's way?
Past, present, future all connect,
A tangled thread I can't neglect.
All I want is a life that's clear,
Happy, calm, and free from fear.
Is it too much to dream of rest—
A quiet soul, a heart that's blessed?

It stops one from moving ahead;
Makes them overthink and do nothing instead

Sleepless nights and terrible thoughts
All one can do is listen to sad songs.

Why does it follow us everywhere?
Keeps us depressed and in despair?

Fear is the greatest weakness
Let it go or it'll turn into sickness;

There is a way
Face it and say it's okay;
It's just a bad feeling which will eventually vanish away.