Here I am, struggling through the battle of life,
Fighting the monsters that live inside me.
I’m tired — I want to give up, I want to run.
But their ****** laughter still echoes in my head.
Every wound they gave still bleeds, the pain still fresh.
Something inside whispers, “Let go,” but now I see—
It was never me. It was their curse that clung to me.

Here I am, waging wars I was never meant to fight,
Bleeding from wounds I should never have carried.
The pain still knocks me down, again and again.
I escaped their grip the first time I spread my wings—
But why did I have to flee?
When my angels left, I had no one left to turn to.
My cries for help were drowned by the devil’s laughter.
I watched my angels bow to the dark — and hope abandoned me.

Here I am, looking back at the wreckage of my path,
Their voices still echo, loud in my mind.
All the pain, all the memories fuel this rage—
My heart, twisted, filled with hate.
My broken mind hates the one I love,
And loves the ones I wish I didn’t.
So I built a fortress around my heart,
Forged in hate, it shields me from life.

Now I’m alone—surrounded, but alone.
I want to break free.
But now I realize…
I have become my own captor.
And escape feels impossible.

But still, I’ll try.
I’ll keep going.
Because I can’t give up now.

I was surrounded by darkness.
I closed my eyes, hoping for a saviour—my knight in shining armour.
There you were, showering me with love and care.
There I was, blinded by my own glimpse of imagination.

When times were tough, I closed my eyes and ran into your arms.
You held me close and wiped my tears; I felt so safe in your embrace.
I didn’t want to let go, even when I knew you weren’t real.

I gave you a name, added yours to mine.
I gave you a family, added me to yours.
I gave you a job, and associated with you.
I gave you a dream, and helped you follow.
I made you a hero—and me, your heroine.

You were so perfect, so charming.
You had all the answers to my problems.
The voices around me told me to wake—but I couldn’t, wouldn’t.
Because some part of me knew I’d lose you the moment I did…..