Lungs burning from the simple act of breathing
Less and less oxygen is reaching my brain
My mind dims and the anxiety begins
Anxiety leads to panic
Panic to terror
Soon there's no breath at all
Blood ox dropping into the 80's
And trending down
And now the anxiety spreads to the people around me
Fighting for every bit of air
Dying by degrees
Slipping away with every smaller spasm of breath
Terror leads to acceptance
And now I'm in real serious trouble
All the medicated oxygen in the world
Can't save me if I accept the thought of dying
I try to clear my mind
And not hear the crying
Slow the cadence of my breath
And wring every bit of oxygen out of every breath
Blood ox starts to rise slowly
Hour after anxious day
The ICU is a cold place of the sickest of the sick
But I am one of the lucky few this time
Unfortunately I know only too well
I'll be back again
And who knows which way things will go
This thing will win one day
Sooner than I want
So I'll say goodbye now
While I still can
Life has been a real adventure
But the ending really *****
See you on the other side of tomorrow

Head full of battling thoughts
A heart filled with terrible hate
It's impossible to see the better side
Of people who have hurt you once, and twice
And once again
You've reached the point
Of no return
And that heart demands revenge
It's a bitter, ****** pill to swallow
That your revenge makes you
A worse man
Than the tormentors
The battling thoughts
Fight their way to a decision
And disappoint the hatred of the vengeful heart
There will be no vengeance today
But in your dreams
Your ****** nightmares
They die at your hands
Again and again

It's hard to contain
It squeezes out through the smallest crack
Can't keep it bottled up inside
It always finds a way out

The monster in me
And maybe you too
It always gets me in trouble
Trying to get free

The monster inside of me
Wants to party tonight and dance til dawn
Meet a new woman and **** all night long
Throw off all my responsibilities

The monster inside of me
Wants to laugh and fight and jump for joy
Take crazy chances as if life were a toy
It seethes at the binds tied by me

It's hard to keep inside
It longs to be free
It wants to get out
It's the monster in me

It should have been okay
It really should have been alright
There was just no foreseeing
How bad it would be that night

The sky didn't fall
And the lights stayed on
But the damage was done just the same
And she was gone, gone, gone

It started out small
As these things often do
But it grew larger every time I spoke
And then we were through

Oh sad day for me
I should have stayed in bed
Oh sad circumstance
It makes you wish you were dead

Oh sad day for me
I simply spoke without thought
Oh man what sad circumstance
Look at the trouble I've bought

I guess I lost my mind after that
And didn't talk to anyone at all
I was way down low and deep down blue
A stupid word and all it cost me was you

It should have been alright
It should have been okay
I should have bitten my tongue
And you would have stayed

Oh sad day

Here I am
In the valley of money
The buildings so high
That you cannot see their tops
Made of glass, steel and power
Opaque and mysterious
The powerful look out from behind smokey windows
At the money grubbers and the poor
Just looking for their next meals
And wondering what it must feel like to be so rich
To never go to bed hungry
To have weeks ahead with no money left
To just be poor and disabled
I'm pretty sure that we are invisible to them
As they are invisible to us
A difference too wide to see across
The chasm of money
The classes so easy to differentiate
When you look from the outside