I always loved blue–
the blue sky
the blue ocean
my little blue pen.
I painted oceans on canvas
in various shades of blue.

But today, I am blue with
every bitter memory I have
of you.

I never understood life.

Well, who cares –

Life never understood me either.

I love you enough
to give you my life –

but not enough
to surrender my freedom.

Loving you

was not my fault –

telling you was.

You gave me
all your light
so that I may
shine bright.

Now that
your light
is fading
it is my time
to give,
to reflect back
all your light
so that you
may shine again

For you
For me
and
For all who
seek your light.

You left,

but love stayed,

and so did pain.

The more it hurts

The more you realize

The depth of your own love.