I threw myself into your eyes,
I fell into the existential void.

I fell into the depths,
the deepest part of your heart.

I let myself fall,
without knowing what I would find.

I fell into the distant,
into the mundane, into the pagan.

I fell into true love,
without idealism,
without expectations.

Only in being,
true being.

I want calm,
I long for calm.

I want it so much,
that I don't have it.

I work all day,
so that in the future I'll have calm.

I don't fight with anyone,
so that I'll have calm.

I'm in such a hurry to have calm,
that I don't have calm.

I want calm so much,
that it makes me anxious,
and I can't find it.