i need help but it feels impossible to ask

i mess everything up
i can’t stop crying
i don’t know how to make things right
i’m not supposed to be a person that hurts others
i only hurt myself
i care

Silent board awaits,
Knight leaps over pawns' defence,
Moonlight whispers check.

Pieces poised for war,
Queen glides with regal purpose,
Victory's sweet breath.

Bishop's path is clear,
Diagonal whispers move,
Endgame's silent thrill.

Rook stands tall and firm,
Castle walls protect the king,
Strategy unfolds.

Checkmate declared,
King's last stand in silent fall,
Triumph's quiet joy.

Red is for your lips; shiny, glossy, perfect
Orange is for your laptop; you always carry it around
Yellow is for your highlights; as blonde as the sand dunes in the desert
Green is for your eyes, which sparkle in the moonlight
Blue is for your emotions; broken and fixed at the same time
Violet is for your hair; the most beautiful shade of plum

                        I love you, Luna <3