You gave me just enough to keep me hoping,
hoping that one day, all the allegations my mind has made about you wouldn't turn out to be true.
And so I waited,
I waited just enough to know that this is something I feel like I can't deal with anymore.
But I still stayed.
I stayed because no matter how many times I felt like my heart was broken into tiny pieces
I knew that you had the glue that would stick them back together.
And so I begged
I begged for the kind of love that should've come standard,
I begged for being someone's first choice
I begged..
just to feel loved.
But you held that glue in your hand high enough to make sure I could see it, but I couldn't reach it.
That hurt..
Because that's when I realized that maybe you didn't want me to have it
Maybe it was supposed to be a bait all along...
How you'd show me the slightest amount of love known to human kind and I would go head over heels for it,
How'd you'd make me believe that this time it's really a change, and this is actually getting better just for it to go back to how it was in less than a second..
I saw it all.. and I still decided it was enough to keep me hoping,
But now..?
Now I feel like I don't know what's morally right to do..
Like I have to choose between forgiving or just walking away
But instead, I'm sitting here questioning my inner self like I never wanted to hear an answer this badly before,
Do I keep hoping or do I choose myself and decide that what you showed me wasn't enough to make me stay..?

She ruined me,
Just like the light ruins the darkness of the night.
What she did was tore me apart,
Shattered just like broken glass.
A million tears, a million pieces
Remind me only of the way she kisses,
Or kissed..
God, what a love she had missed..
Maybe she just gave it all away..
I'm definitely not the one in power to say
If that's what she always wanted to have,
Or if she needed to leave because it was that bad.
I don't know...
But my energy is running low
I'm always tired, left with just no hope..
I choose to blame love for leaving people broke.

You broke me.
But you also left enough space just to keep me hoping
Yes, you broke me.
And I'll never forget the look on your face when I told you I can't keep coping

You ******* broke me.
And it keeps me awake at night
**** it man, it broke me.
Not being able to look in your eye

It broke me.
Always accepting all your excuses
Of course it broke me.
Since all your actions left me with bruises

Did you know the hurt never decreases
The love I gave with my whole heart now shattered into pieces.
And yes, I'm still breaking.
Because a broken heart will forever keep waiting.

It just so happens for me and you,
To live in the same universe I'm not sure we belong to.
Life's a blessing they all kept saying
In reality my heart kept praying.

The light in me is flickering,
While your presence's only triggering,
Confusion, fear, distress and anger,
Feelings two people in the same universe can't handle.

And I keep wanting to make a change
But it just so happens to make it all more strange,
Almost like a long lost curse
Spelled upon two people in the same universe.

Dancing in the spotlight
Was how I envisioned our love,
Forgetting the steps didn't feel right
So I put you above.

I let myself fall,
Just for you to have it all..
So I had to let myself think
Right step, left step,
Couldn't even get the time to blink
Let alone try to accept
That our dance was rhythmless.

Guess I could say that I got lost
Through all the steps that I was taught,
And all the promises you made
Left me wondering if our dance will slowly fade.

The trainer said "let's not give up"
But my mind would get disrupt,
And flood me all about this thinking
That our dance should just keep shrinking.

So now I come here, just to ask
Was this dance used like a mask?
Just to cover all the mess-
Should I have asked for something less ?
Would I be happier? Would it be better?
If we didn't do the dance together,
Cause I'm sitting here, and I don't know
If it's worth continuing the show..

Watch my heart burn
All the lies you've thrown at me
Watch my heart burn
All the madness I could never set free

You say you're sorry
But your actions show you're not
Guess I should've never fallen in that trap
But I did only to give you the key
That would open the doors for you to
Watch my heart burn

On second place, a second thought,
I was always stuck in that spot...
As if I ever mattered,
All I had in me has scattered, just for you to
Watch my heart burn..

Always with me, stuck in my life
Lays an aimless reminder in disguise,
My secrets,trauma, and all that hurt,
Hidden behind a camera I hold.

It takes me down, slow and slow,
Knowing I can't let people know,
Why is there a camera around my neck
Since I can't prepare them for what to expect.