You play your part when your on show
As if nothing is out of place
Always with a lovely smile on your face
Behaving normal to all who don’t know
But deep in your heart there is always a tear
That no one can ever see,
Wishing all the time
That the show was the real deal.

Head on my pillow
Cant get to sleep
Staring at the ceiling
Feeling my eyes weep
Tears of loneliness, tears of fear
Wandering what the future holds
Love left me , feeling alone
Yearning for company to keep me warm
I cant wait forever , but i have no choice
Love has to find me , fed up of listening to my own voice .

Two x’s  on their own
To some don’t mean a lot
But i have always used them
Since a time i cannot forget .
I’m careful who receives  them
They have to be special to me
You will always receive them
Because your friendship means so much to me .

I cannot let her go
I cannot let her down
When i needed someone
She stepped up to the line
Cared for me when i needed company
Loved me when I felt alone
Meets me when convenient
Hold’s me close when i need a hug
Now it’s one day at a time
Careful steps along the way
Now i stand with her ,as she did me
I cannot let her go

Why do i feel penned in
When there is no cage
No bars to stop me
No one to watch over me
I need to be free , breath the air
Not sure what to do
But my heart will show me
Maybe to somewhere where skies are blue
No dark clouds to follow me
With no emotional doors to hinder me
To a place where i can feel loved
Somewhere i can  feel free .

Do not retreat into the shadows
Stay out in the bright sunlight
Bask in the light of new friendships
Eventually all will turn out alright.
Time will be a factor , time always is.
I know your heart at the moment is saddened
Believe me warmth will re-enter your heart.
One day someone will enter your life
Who you cannot get out of your mind
One who will care and love you ,
And will be thoughtful and absolutely kind .

I need to keep you positive
In these troubling times
Life has to take its course.
All i can do at the moment
Is to be your loyal friend.
Someone who understands what you are going through.
Keep faith in the ones you trust
Don't keep them in the void of silence
Don’t keep them out of the loop.
Because when this chapter of your life is over ,
And a new one about to start
You will lean on their friendship and love
To help you find your path.