The seasons shift and change,
Flowers wilt and die to bloom,
The stars burn- dim or bright but they do.
And I? I remain the same.

I keep running round in a glass cage,
They all see me but not the weight.
Trapped and tired and all in vain,
And yet when I trip and finally fall,
I ask myself- why can't I change?

I don't feel like myself
I don't know what's gotten into me.

No feelings, no thoughts
Only infrequent suffocating gasps
And the desire to sleep after each relapse
If I could,
I would scream till I lost my voice
or lost my head

Wanna slam my head against the wall
Rip my heart, take it out
So the numbness becomes perpetual
Already dead,
Why should my heart ache?

Don't build me a castle
Just to never look back
The day it starts falling apart.

Don't tell me these sweet things,
Shower me with kind words
Or oh god, worst of all, concern
Just to leave me with echoes of silence.

Don't make me laugh,
Make me believe I could be happy,
Forget about my pain
Just to slit up my past wounds.