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Ava Lennon Jan 2021
I don't know what to put on this paper
Perhaps I should really start later
For a person who may or may not care
I mean will my poem of my emotion go anywhere?
What if they read them and just have a blank stare
Poems awaken something inside of me
Something not even I can see
Forever I will write, we are one never separately
With my pen I write what's on my heart and mind
Maybe my poems will help someone find
To find what they are looking for
Maybe they are looking for something more
And if not I hope they find it
And if my poems are a bore... Well
They were all just my feeling I needed to tell
I don't want money, no need to sell
But if I could affect someone
A person, even just one
Yeah it would be enough for me
Knowing that I had helped...
Finding that love is true
Finding that you are loved through and through
But will my writing go anywhere?
What will I be able to share?
Will anybody even care?
Ava Lennon Jan 2021
Pain can be normal
But it still comes in shock
I have memorized its call
I can hear its hurtful mock
You can take place in someone's heart
Never really knew you, an unknown chart
You really tore me apart
You taught me to fear
You taught me to hate the girl in the mirror
You drove me to the cliff
You made me want to die
Yeah pain comes in shock
I can still hear its hurtful mock
But I picked myself up
No I don't wanna die anymore
Memories don't leave, they'll stay forevermore
May be better but I still hate the girl in the mirror
I am still afraid
You knew fear was control
I am still afraid
You knew it would hurt my soul
I am still afraid
Wish you had God but there's no loophole
I am still afraid
Your back and fear is taking its toll
I am still afraid
Ava Lennon Jan 2021
You're bringing me deeper
You are making me hope
Though the road is steeper
You are the one getting me up the *****
Through the lies, Through despise
Yeah you are making me hope
Ava Lennon Jan 2021
Love is patient Love is kind
It's hard when we are both stuck in our own minds
Even when I'm terribly imperfect
I wish you knew I was unrefined
Oh I fail to show, but I hope you know
I only want to love you, I do not mean to be oh so cold
My words may cut you to your bone
My hurting heart longs for you alone
I wish for love, I wish for life, I wish for time
Because I need to shine out of who I am
I want to love you... But then
I cannot seem to find the line
I lay myself aside cuz you still love her, I know
And of course I fail to show
I just want to love you
I don't know if I can make it on my own
Because my mind denies the love I know
But I cannot deny the love I have for you
I can't give enough of my, I wish you'd want it...
Cuz if you did I'd give it all
Yeah I'd give it all
Ava Lennon Jan 2021
When we are lost in the mess we made
And were out in the dead of night
Blindly swinging a blade
Thinking we are about to be in a fight
Ava Lennon Jan 2021
My heart can be a haunted house
No windows or doors
If you get in you will be lost in a tunnel like a mouse
Hearts as black as feathers on crows
Yeah, get my inspiration from the morgue
The pain of loneliness comes in large blows
Yet it is killing me softly
I don't mean to push you away
But in the end you didn't care anyways
My heart can be a haunted house
No windows
No doors
Once you're in you are trapped
But so am I...
Your done... Your future's mapped
You hurt me, I may or may not finish you
I may be harsh, very true
But you shaped it, you mad you lose
Yeah I'm the Queen of a broken heart
I'll love you if you find all the pieces
No windows, No doors, No windows, No doors
Ava Lennon Jan 2021
God do you hear me, do you hear me
The chains of my past are cutting deep
To be feared or to be love which his meant to be
Why do I feel like I need to hide?
Not you, it's Satan, he's out to get me...
To be enveloped by fire, to be drowned in the deep sea
Please just set me free
Do you hear me on the deadest night?
Do you hear me in the middle of a fight?
Do you hear me when I choose what's not right?
There's a secret side of me, you don't wanna see
God please set me free!
Make it end!
Yeah I'll never let you see
Can't keep it caged forever, God do you hear me!?!
I'm going down I'm going under
Lord I'm reaching to you, come save me
Fearing, searing, dying, crying
Revival, survival, a full out rival
God help me I'm trying, I'm fighting
Do you hear me?
There's a secret side of me you don't wanna see
God please save me!
Make it end!
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