One could not be so kind to self,
One cannot be so merciful to self,

It can not be painless to me
Yet horrendous to you,
For it may take me moments,
Hours perhaps,
And it will take you a lifetime

To end my pain,
I begin your suffering.

For my love,
I can never make it easy.
I must set ablaze
Every cell must scream your name.

To extinguish the fire within,
I must start a fire without,

I must scream in agony,
Of my betrayal,
To your love.
To your rights.
Oh! Mother!

For I have been selfish.
My very last punishment
Must never be easy.
For it will not be easy on you.

It all fell apart,
To fall in place

Perhaps,
Our journey together,
Is to help each other
Nurse our wounds
And not fall in love

Knowing you,
Loving you,
Leaving you,
Hating you,
Regretting you,
Missing you,
Losing you,
Forgiving you,
The ordeal is
I cannot seem to forget you

He hears the weeping,
But I cry in silence
Maybe
That is why he never heard my cried

He never lets your tears hit the ground
I wipe mine on my cheek
Maybe,
He never got the opportunity to wipe them

I weep for the last time
Weep looking at him for last
He's never held my hand
I'll let the wind hold me