I tried
to live on my own
cause I thought
I didn't need anybody,
on my own I could manage
I thought I didn't need grace
as well as mercy,
believing they are things of the ancient times
Incriminating myself at this moment,
self sufficient, no success
Till I went as I am before the creater and said,
any moment as desired,
as a vessel, use me
as an offering, myself, I offer,
as you desire, I am here
I'll avail myself as your sacrifice,
because in you I found a hiding place
Candidate of your mercy,
is who I am
Beneficiary of your grace,
is what I got awarded with

When I take a glance at thyself,
surely God has put an extra essence for such beauty
The flawless radiance of thy skin,
that even flies cannot dare to touch,
in surrender of thy beauty,
is exquisite
Even if she can choose a thing to vow on her beauty,
not even a human being words,
can be of a sentimental vaue,
only the heart can define such
She is beautiful,
even the book of song of songs were written,
in the fascination of her beauty

In this rainy day,
where everything is uncertain,
and storms keep shutting the open doors,
tell me I'll be alright
I've been soaked,
in the ocean of this tears that refuse to stop,
in these dark holes that keep shutting down on me,
tell me I'll be alright

I have hope,
that I can see the rise of a rainbow,
the sunset in the direction of the east,
if only you can tell me I'll be alright

Dear our Father who art in heaven
during this pandemic,
where our eyes don't dry of tears,
where fear eat at the palm of our hands,
and there is grinding of teeth,
Believe me when I say,
I wish I can long for money,
but at this moment I don't
Believe me also when I say,
I wish I can long for materialistic things,
but they all don't matter but life do
Rich, poor, you name it,
we are only after two things,
which is life and peace of mind,
The preservation of our lives,
as well as of our family and friends,
is all we long for Dear God

There I was,
lying next to him,
as he lied underneath my head
feeling all kind of warmth of his chest,
vulnerable on each others arms,
feeling the softness of both our skin,
I took a blink,
because all to me was like a dream,
a dream that I don't ever wanna wake up,
Slow like the movement of a tortoise,
I open my eyes to check if I'm not dreaming
And there I was,
not dreaming but brimming with love

Heartache can fade,
Dreams can fade,
Hope can be lost,
so as faith
But the love of ink,
in the piece of a paper,
can never fade away
My diary and my pen got my back

Birthed me,
nursed me,
trained me,
And most of all you loved me

to the womb that became my home for 9 months,
to the arms that never grew weary for years,
to the chest that turned my pillow for decade,
to the back that forever bended for me to find a comfort place of sleep,
and to the lap I'll never outgrow for,
I raise my fist up there in the sky to say,
Thank you