is this what I was searching for?
Where is the end

I just feel like I'm suffocating
I can't breathe
maybe I'll make my own end

so my dear
if you are reading this
it means
that I am already dead.

I am slowly
Quietening down
The day does not
Shine as lively
And the nights
Are thickening
As if squeezed
Or boiled
For hours on end
I am

Thinning

Thwack !
The wiper swiped
The rain off.

Rhyming rues
and woes
Sorrows
laden with
reincarnated regrets

Wounds of my age
irremediable

Taking in everything life has to offer
Sometimes we can be crazy
Don’t let yourself be lazy
Life is like a rollercoaster
It has ups and downs
Life can be amazing
Love like never before
Try and do more
Life can be amazing
Don’t let anyone make you crazy
Take time to look around
Make a vision
Wake  up each morning
Take in everything life offers
Life can be amazing