Always the lover
Never the loved

Always the listener
Never the heard

Always the giver
Never the receiver

Always the healer
Never the healed

Always the helper
Never the helped

Always the hugger
Never the hugged

Never forgetting
Always forgotten

Hey
where are we?
It’s confusing.
It’s been this way
for a while now.
You feel better,
you let it out.
Me— wrung out.
Emotional tsunami
no clarity for me.
Was that healthy?
Or extremely un-so.
You want time with me.
Ah the irony.
You want quality time?
Ah the angry.
The angry.

When I apologized to you...

What I really meant was that I have spent every moment since that day wishing I could go back and undo the damage I did...

What I really meant was that I spend my days dissociating and chasing distractions just to forget how much I hurt you...

What I really meant was I sometimes wish I never existed so you wouldn't have been hurt by me...

What I really meant was that I isolate myself so I never hurt anyone like I did to you...

What I really meant was...

I still love you...

I'm a coward by nature
And I feel no shame
I treat others as greaters
They say I'm not sane
I do what you tell me
And I take all the blame
I will give you my all
Even if I am lame
You can take all I have
And I'll love you the same
I will give you my heart
While you give it pain

You use has an impact on your speech,
The gentler the better.
4/3/2024

I’ve been to counseling.
Uni-life can be stressful, it's a 'judgy' environment.
We're under constant evaluation.
So there’s free counseling.

Have you ever been to counseling, dear reader?
What I love about counseling is that someone has to sit and listen to MY issues..

Wait, doesn’t that sound a lot like poetry!?