I've made a home in this darkness
I didn't want to be heard
but I am
I walked alone in the cold
I walked in the rain of time
I had no one to hold
to keep me warm
I stand alone
but I stand bold
to the one that keeps my heart on a cold
who cuts at my mind most of the time
I have seen many places
many faces
I always hear the screams
I feel the pains
on those cold winter days
the hollow night
that makes me cry
I  would always see a pale moon
hanging down in gloom
Far, far away in late June
Valleys and Lilly's
look so pretty to me
but when the cold winter air
comes along like a sad song
all the beautiful leaves the land
and fear takes another stand
I know Dark Angel is near
his eyes are always on me
he loves to watch me sleep
just to give me bad dreams.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Oh, I do remember every little word,
Every pain you ever gave,
I do remember, but do you?
Do you remember all those marks?
I had given you back?
If not look all over your body again,
I stud up to my evil beast,
and that beast is you,
I call you out from the dark,
Just to show you I’m no longer scared,
Oh, how the light shines in your night
When I give, you back some fright,
Do you remember the pains I gave you?
Oh, please don’t be confused,
I’m just getting started on you,
Come let’s take that long walk in the dark,
While I pierce away at your heart,
Remember my darken king,
I am the queen of all darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I dwell in loneliness as my heart feels its pains of brokenness,
a place for forgiveness, so the light can shine bright in my life where I no longer get lost in the dark. my heart has been bleeding for a very long time, this really has messed with my mind. where old paranoia plays its games - night and day in this living nightmare leaving me in fear because I can still feel him standing near. In this word of my brokenness as these pains left me in a world of ash gray whereas heavy clouds keep hovering over me bring down thunderstorms.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, crying autumn

here I am in the night

on the ground for the found

cut deep with no sleep

my body is cold like the dead

on colored autumn leaves while

I bleed like the old red sea.


- Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh how hard it is to turn one's steps around
I sat and I pray for this loss and pain to go away
As I see many walking astray,
Oh how this pain cuts me like a knife,
No one shall come and another one must go
This is a place I don't belong,
Like any other, I must go on the break of dawn to
Save another soul from doing what is wrong
I must teach and lead another in to know Jehovah’s
Ways to walk,
But in my heart, I cry out for the lost sheep to find
Their way back home, and for them to know they
Are not walking alone if they just Call on his name
And Jehovah will make way,-
You can hear the lost cry out for love but they will
Never find, the whole night through no love will
Dwell and they are all cried out,-
If they can survive this long winter and let Jehovah
God delivers what needs to be taken place in their lives ;
One day they will get the see ''Parricide '',
The pain will go away and they will never have to see
Another sad lonely day if they would only walk in Jehovah’s way.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The moon is lit and the stars are glinting
the Wed of the night is singing,
Shatters scatter of hopes and dreams.
The Queen of fatal beauty sings to the moon
dancing around to the lite midnight sky
singing on high.
Love holds my thoughts
wishes are to be made, on this summers night
stars dancing around for wishes to be found.
Dispels the light of the sleepy eyes
darkness is where the dreams to be made
morning is a new page, of the breaking of the day.

-Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The door is open in heaven just waiting  for you to come home
to the land of anew just for you.

Judy Emery © 2020
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

No darkness is never enough
to extinguish out the Light
God's Love is a gift
even in a dark Life like this.

"The light shines in the darkness,
and the darkness has not overcome it."

               JOHN 1:5

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Dark Angel is feeling his own flames of ecstasy
on a cold September night, I started having very bad dreams
that were something I haven't had before so I get up and made
me some tea, but I felt someone watching me through my bedroom window. so I get up from my bed to see if anyone was outside my bedroom window I looked around I didn't see anything unusual on the land near, my home so I just started to get back into bed and started to read and sip on my tea but then I felt the breath of autumn woods. Within the winter silences, I could hear that the old sound of darkening wind cry in deep pain like death like mourning. I felt so cold and lost deep within my soul and that is when Dark Angel had started playing games with my mind so when I would sleep I would be afraid of what was waiting for me.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

This love I hold deep within my soul
will never grow old or get cold
This love has known limits to what it knows
this love is something of long ago
that keeps me on my toes
this love I hold deep within
shines light in my darken days
the old pains I have endured will pass
with a blast that will never come back
This love has no end
this trust I hold deep within gives hope
to the poor and to the lost souls
that the door will be open to them if they ask
and change their ways to better days
this Love will outlast anything
even from a darkened past
Love will always stand strong
even when everything else has fallen.

Judy Emery © 1999
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

The bank's braes and streams all around
The castle of Dark Angel
Green by woods and fair flowers
There is a great depression
that will overtake your souls
Dark Angel and the Black Magic woman,
will cast the spell of darken dreams
your heart will scream
it will flood like the sea
crying out to thee
into every inch, you hold of your soul
it will never let go,
you will never find an honest soul
darkness id all they know
Dark Angel will give
wonders and worries
throughout your days
your life of hate
this is the life Dark Angel gave,
to the heart of pain
the flood of tears is everywhere
no souls to spare
the expressions on their face
has so much hate  
you will never see the light of faith
in them darken eyes,
Oh, pale, pale lips cry out to me
Dark Angel calls me
I assure myself everything is going
to be okay
But the who am I to say
any fool can see
Dark Angel has me,
I pleaded for Dark Angel to let me be,
I am crying with the sea
His rage came over me  
I'm afraid and very weak to even think
When I try to explain
what I was feeling
it didn't matter anyway,
Oh, pale lips come
Oh, pale of rosy lips
kiss me of death
to your King
Dark Angel walks over to me
I am hearing bad things
I hear things I must not speak,
I must stay strong and meek
But Dark Angel
has a battle of his own to keep?
I am in way too deep
I'm losing the fight for my own rights,
Then Dark Angel kissed me
I feel I could no longer breath
he is taken the life out of me
He has given me the pain of rain
that will never go away
September will always be remembered.


Copyright © Judy Emery 2000
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

It's good to feel you near me
why I dream so freely
Tonight feels so right even though
you are only in my dreams
I untangle my worries as if they were
twisted in a net
I hold you with a grip as the night slips
your heart sails through my dream
of a wish to come true
so many kisses from you
when I wake up all I find beside me
is my pillow with your name on it.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I would hear you say,
while you are scratching at my heart,
if you are lost you will find me,
I will be waiting when you fall,
I will catch every tear that drops,
I could see your eyes looking at me,
while wolves are standing all around,
everything I do or say,
they would have looked my way,
more tears fall like raindrops,
lying in my bed, hearing the old clock
going tick-tock down the hall,
while memories make it's way back to me,
I could see you walking up the stars,
Oh, how that had given me a scare,
I started feeling all that fear,
walking slowly in my mind,
your voice comes to me again,
taunting me all over again,
Oh, mountains and changes
With lost self-worth,
you are dragging me down through time,
where the hollow hall of us, keep coming back,
With time your face starts to fade,
darkness and lies eat away in my mind,
that turned my life in gray,
I looked out my bedroom window,
While old memories start coming my way,
Where secrets were once made,
Stolen thought drum deep within my mind,
while the pain started coming back inside
my broken heart, everywhere I go,
I feel you are near me. You fear me.
You are out to possess me,
While you walk around with wolves
on mossy grounds, that are forbidden in
the world of truth.

Judy Emery © 2003
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

You give me a world of darkness and so much pain, You discriminated my name put on the shame and the shame, you love to watch me burn scream bleed cry begging for it all to end, it was only a show for your hunger for your darkness that needs to feed.


- Judy Emery © 2013
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Dark Angel loves to drink on his whiskey
Most of the time when things don’t go his way,
he gets ***** and very needy,
He always asks me to hold him
when he gets like this,
Sometimes I wonder if he ever been in love,
He acts as if he had another life,
That had made him turn so bad,
he looks down into the sea
like he thought drifted to a place he once loved,
But I knew not to ask questions,
He gets very fussy and put his walls up
Higher than they are,
I could tell he didn't like what he saw
He became angry and walked away,
His anger started rising deep within him
he knows he is an ugly beast,
he walked back towards me
and I could see his eyes changed
while he started talking to me slowly
with his head looking down,
Moonlight what makes you not afraid of me?
I stayed silent because I didn’t want to lie,
Moonlight, please answer me,
I take in a breath and just let all out,
I won’t say I’m not afraid of you,
But at times I can understand you,
Your eyes tell me so much about you,
at times, you can be sweet when you want to,
But a part of me can see that something has
Happened to you to make you so evil,
Dark Angel takes my right hand into his,
Then he looks at me and asks me if I could
ever love someone as he,
Tears flooded my eyes with worries,
I had to look down as the tears have fallen to the
Flour of the ship, No I answer truthfully,
Then he said he understands while he let go
Of my hands,
So, he cast another spell
that would give me more hell,
then he said one day you will,
I can only remember falling into his arms
While he picked me up and taken me to my room,
He would whisper in my ears
while he plays around with my hair,
saying in a soft voice,
you will make many dreams with me
this you will see.


Judy Emery© 2011
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Everlasting dreams
will always be apart of me
my spirit is weak
my light is always on dim
but the visions of time
will always shine
deep within my eyes
like a star that shines from far
eternity I do sleep
hopeless sorrow
with no tomorrow
cold reality haunts over me
hearts are broken
spirits are sunken
a life with no token
everything has been broken
holding on to no devotions
deep dark passions
are everlasting
pains, rains, shames of guilt
will always be with me
in everlasting dreams
that always makes me scream
will always be with me
upon the crying sea.

Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Oh, how hard it is to turn
one's steps around
I sat and I pray for this lost
and pain to go away
as I see many walking astray
Oh, how this pain cuts me deep
within my heart
It felt like I was being cut by a knife
No one shall come
and another one must go
this is a place I don't belong
like any other, I must go on
the break of dawn to
save another soul
from doing what is wrong
I must teach and lead another
in to know Jehovah's
Ways to walk in my heart I cry out
for the lost sheep to find
their way back home
for them to know they
Are not walking alone
if they just Call on his name
Jehovah will make way
You can hear the lost cry
out for love but they will
Never find the whole night
through no love will
dwell and they are all cried out
If they can survive this
long winter and let Jehovah
God delivers what needs
to be taken place in there
lives  one day they
will get to see ''Parricide '',
the pain will go away
they will never have to see
another sad lonely day
If they walk in Jehovah's way.

Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Each and every one of us has the ability to change and grow in our lives, we will have disagreements and hurt from this life we live in. Don't be afraid to encounter risks it is by taking chances in life is the key to a healthy goal I had learned how to be brave. Friends I have made along the way help me to stand on my two feet, the energy to do whatever you want is a gift of life so live it right day and night, and never shut love out of your life it is never impossible for love. No matter your age our time the journey to this life is something we all must face.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Dark Angels, rage is all over the place, I'm afraid and very weak and too afraid to think I try to explain what I was feeling it didn't matter to them anyway.
Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Sitting on a log
hoping and wishing
true love will find me

I live under a spell
that was cast on me
I live by the river.

wishing someone is
praying and crying
for a frog-like me.

I must wait to see
what the moon has
for me in my frog
dream of what life could
truly be for me.

I dream of a prince
to find me and kiss me
to break the spell
and love me forever.

When the change comes
I will be so happy
to get out of the doom
of sadness, I am in.

Oh moon you will always
be my true friend
right to the very end

I like to be very quiet
you see not too make
anyone angry at me

I want my true freedom
I don't want my life
to end in a frog madness

I hopped back on-
the lily pad that sat in
the river I call home.

- Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Look at  my poor heart is on the run where love could never find me,
What have I ever done for things like this to happen?

-Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I go up through the mowing field
while my poor heart reviles
it's old passions of long ago
the headless aftermath of the beating past
keeps hanging around like a necklace around my nick
the pain hovers over me like the clouds of gray
half closes is the garden path where you lay
I come to the garden ground
of sober birds sing
while my poor heartaches
I kneel down to pray
but my words were hard for me to say
Oh how much I love you
I do hope you known it
I do hope I gave my all to you
my tears I couldn't hold back
they came down like rain
On the ground the leaves
lingered with the breeze
sweeping them away softly  
I end not far from my going forth
to pick up the faded blue rose
of long ago I have given to you on Your grave
Oh, how my poor heartaches for you
I just hang on to your love I once knew
I walk away with no more words I could say
But to put another in the other one's place
With a word, I will always love you.

Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Oh, deadly black rose
you cut so deep
making so many weep
in Darken Dreams...
how could you be so mean?
You turn to dust
you cast your spell in the air
yet, you hold no care
you don't play fair...
Dark Angel loves you so very much
it is almost like lust
but you are only dust
he keeps you always so near
to bring on more fear
who is standing near
Oh, Black Rose,
You cut deep way too deep
to those who sleep
who fall into darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 1989
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I had fallen into the dark
it is a long fall of them all
down I go where no one knows
this is how the old story goes,

Dark Angel is always near
holding so much anger and fear
while he calls me his sweet darling
but you can see all his guilt and lies
deep within his eyes,

He keeps me broken
I am always hoping for peace
my door did linger
while my heart grew weaker
in sorrows and more pains
into darken dreams
it always rains for me.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

You don't get to choose how you're going to die
you just need to move one day at a time,
You can only decide how you're going to live Life.
Yes I know I have a strong silent Attitude
But that is just the way I am;
I am my own Queen in my own Dreams
This is the way I want my words to be,
So never judge me
I let God take that lead you to see
Because you are no better than me.
The size of my shoes are seven and I didn't say eleven
for God is in Heaven;
I do walk like a Queen with my own Attitude,
See You could never wear my shoes
nor would I ever have or want you to,
I express my own free will how I see it, so beat it.
You come around acting like some crazy clown
with a new Attitude...
You say you know my pains
you say it's all one Big game
Don't pretend you know what I feel,
Don't act as you have always been there by my side in Life
You say you don't like my ways;
Well good, because I never ask you in the first place
if you like me, or not so get off my back,
Over the years, time in my Life has given me Tears
But with Time I became the Queen of me;
Love and Hate is the power of choice
this is what the world handed down to me,
I am my own Queen of my own Attitude
I am Woman who is face adversity
I embrace my Life in my own way
God-given me a heart and I breathe the air of Life
So move on and let me Live.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I dwell in the loneliness of a broken heart of long ago
My home is where I live all by my self
This cold pain I hold keeps my day's so out of a place of gloom
I know somethings are just meant to be
That would be you vanished from me some summer's ago
You left your trace all over the place of my heart
You left no trace of love the cellar walls hold every word
You ever had to say to me
A cellar is where you left my heart in the dark
The daylight falls with dooms of you
Outside the fences, the grape-vines ruined all dyed up
The roses lost their colors
The woods come back to the mowing field
The big tree outside from my window had lost its beauty
Lost with time like a said little rhyme of you and me
Like a sad broken dream of a place we once had called home
I dwell with a strangely aching heart when you left me
You vanished and left me of your memory's of a forgotten road
Of how much you truly meant to me
Broken is what I am
This cold winter night without you by my side is taken
Another part of me.

Judy Emery © 2011
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I will keep saying I Love you if you want me to
But I just want to be free and no longer bleed
Why can you see?
My heart is not made from gold
I want you to please let me go,
you don't have to be so mean
given me, all these darken dreams,
I will say  to you if you want me to
that I love you but you know it isn't true.

Judy Emery © 2002
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Old  desires made the fire
every time I think about you
I feel the flame burning deep within me
I think about those blissful years
when there were no sad tears,

I had written to you in my heart
sometime ago
when loves curtain open
for the world to see our show of long ago
those old comforted memories
of you and I made me cry,

Now the curtain of our love closed
it burns the old fire out
all we have is the smoke from the flames
that brought on yesterday's pains
given so much rain
I feel so a shame
to let or love end this away,

Those old desires
made long-lasting memories
when your love was with me
I could almost feel your every touch
when the wind blows my way
it is almost like you are kissing at my lips
oh, how that burns deep within me,

Those old desires
kept that flame burning on high
with those fragile moments
where tears started to flow
and the curtain began to close
and that was the end of our show
of long ago smoke.


Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Oh. Look at you,
You are the true goddess of the sea,
You are loved by many;
Your beauty everyone craves,
Your love is a hunger and a need,
You are a cousin to set the slaves free,
You swim your spirit into the hearts
You shine light from your eyes
To another side; from another kind,
Your body is pure and white
You dance around like a candle flame,
You make other women look a shame,
But your heart has a love for all;
You walk on water in many dreams,
Your words cook with a sting,
Your blood is like silk,
Every word you say
is written in bloodstain ink;
everything you do is for the peace
for the true love of mankind;
everything is for the light that stands
in Gods eyes;
Oh, Goddess of the sea,
Dark Angel made you his queen,
But that will never change a thing,
Every beautiful rose that blooms is sweet,
It will always be a part of you, in everything you do,
Your eyes are like the moon;
it always changes in late June;
your eyes always look like you are looking
in the reflection of water crystal water,
the water starts to wave and rise deep into the night
like it is saying goodbye;
when you talk its always sweet,
but if you must be mean you bring rain,
the earth is the seed of love;
the sea is the beauty of a true goddess,
so, the sea is named after you;
Moonlight, of all seas in every dream,
You know the deepest essence of true love,
The water is your treasure of dreams,
Moonlight, you are a goddess and a queen,
Even in darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Come out of the rain
a voice called out to me
o let the storm move along
you don't need to be out among the cold
O but if that voice only is known
I had been in the storm way too long,
O my heart, my heart
I cried
O can you see me bleeding?
the rain is all my tears
I cried day and night for years,
Come, my child,
the voice called out to me
let you heart mend
come take my hands
that is when the pains began
to cut deeper within,
Who she ever Love me
can never come near me
this is how the story goes
O how I would love to take
your hand in true Loves dance,
But a spell has been cast upon me
and my heart has been lost
deep down into darken dreams
so, for now, I will always let my tears fall
I will always feel the coldness
until the spell is broken.

Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery