I really can't sit still,
Falling over the simplest hellos.
Wondering if the phone will ever ring.
I need a new start,
A way out of this mess that I started.
Hoping I will wake up and see what's really in front of me.
This isn't who we are meant to be with.
It's a stranger disguising as our lover.
I really can't understand why I fall over the simplest hellos.

They said it was a simple mistake.
Hiding the Scaring words behind a steel door.
Wishing one day the secrets will be let free.
Hoping they see the damage that was left behind by their broken love.

Love me,
Hi, it's me again just checking in.
Wondering if you ever think of me or wish it ended differently.
Maybe it was never love but a fantasy that played in my head.
Did you ever think that we would end up together?
I thought the person in my mind was the one for me.
Missing all the red flags to stay with you.
When you made me feel unwanted I told myself you were just busy.
Oh, how wrong I was in the end.

This is my final goodbye
Keep all the messed up memories and the fake I love yous.
The pretending to know me only to leave me days later.
My heart had a lock on it that only opened for you.
Now it's locked up once more.
I thought I was too much,
I thought it was my fault.
I learned true love doesn't end like this.

Hiiiiii💜💜💜💜
(Read one hour ago)
How are you doing I miss you!!
(Read two hours ago)
I love you!!!!! I hope you having fun at work💚
(Read a day ago)
Hi
(Read 40 minutes ago)
Ok im over it
(Sent)
I have been here waiting for you.
I gave you more than I was prepared for but I never complained.
I waited and waited for you to treat me the same.
You never tried to make it work.
When I sent the last text I didn't hear for you for dayssss.
I know you saw my text because it told me you did.
Why don't you care for me?
Why don't you try and save this because I'm done.
I can't put all this effort in and get nothing back.
I'm dying over here trying to make this work.
I don't even now what this is anymore.
I'm not going to give you the easy way out,
But im done trying to make this work.
Text me when you are ready to fight for me.
Im worth a **** good fight.
(Read 10:00pm)

I thought I was finally happy until I opened my eyes and realized I was only In a daydream.

My life feels like a game,
Right now, I'm losing.
Wondering how many more tries I have.
Will this be my legacy?
The words all spilling out,
With no eyes to see it.
My life feels like a losing game
No matter how hard I try,
I can't leave this behind.
How do I get out of this alive?