I want what they have
Oh I want it so bad
If I have what they have
I will feel so glad
This is what I demand
Not walking on broken glass
But having what they have

And as they all looked back at me and exhaled
I want what she has
Oh I want it so bad
If I have what she has
I will feel so glad
This is what I demand
Not walking on broken glass
But having what she has

And at that I slowly rested my eyes and said
Maybe I don’t want what they have
Maybe I don’t feel so bad
The part of what makes me glad
Is right where I stand
And not having what they have

When your soul awakes
Your chest expands
Your breath slows down
And your hands relax

When your soul awakes
You feel a river flow
Inside your body
It starts to grow

When your soul awakes
You see things so bright
Even the faddist colors
In the darkest night

When your soul awakes
You drown in relief  
As the wind blows
Your heart beats

In my head
Right next to the moon
That’s where I keep you

A small whisper says give up
A smaller whisper says be tough
And there I am stuck
Which whisper should I trust

When the clouds turn crystal white
A whisper of silence comes to sight

By a cold wind sneaking through the trees
And a crystal flake kissing the leaves

As the pouring rain turns to a wonder
And the white streets become longer

A view that looks like a dream
It’s true, winter has come indeed

In your eyes,
I see the sky in gleaming blue

In your heart,
Never thought it would be true

In your walk and in your pace,
I don’t wanna go no other place

Without you.

When you smile,
My thoughts just flutter all around

When you talk,
Music spark so clear and loud

And when you laugh and when you dance,
I never thought I had a chance

Without you.

The sun beam strikes your face
As you squint at the light rays
Yet your eyes seem to have a star line
Very soft, gentle, and sweet
Yet stern, sharp, and deep
I cannot seem to leave your gaze
Maybe I should accept my faith
And make you wonder what’s on my mind

I took my first step, letting you down with what I did
pushed you far and then I watched you fall

But you took the key, never setting my heart free
You just stood up and left with it all

I know it’s too late
I know there is not a chance

I know it’s not faith
But you just don’t understand

I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

“Just take a sip, from the poison that you did”
Never felt so pathetically small

sent so many letters, hoping things will get better
Thought you would finally answer my call

I know it’s not much
I know there is not a chance

But I still have that rush
And you don’t seem to understand

I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

Even after all this time I know we both can
I still think of you I still feel you hand

Even though we’re far apart a thousand miles
I still care for you I still see your smile

Cause I am still holding on
I am still going strong

That you won’t be gone

What should I write next
After endless of hours thinking
And making a long list
I look at my paper sinking
I have already described it all
Every emotion
Every feeling
Every fall
I sit there wondering in my thought
Realizing the dark space in my head
There are words that I have fought
Words that will never be said
I feel embarrassed almost ashamed
Of writing these sentences on paper
I know I am no where to be blamed
For the heart circus maker
I am scared of being judged
By a sprit
By a friend
Or a person I loved
Yet I still want to let this burden out
You can say I want to be free of it
And **** every single doubt
But I surrender and at the end I quit
God please give me the patience
You don’t give someone something he can’t take
Everyday is full of emptiness and hesitation
Holding myself together so I don’t break
At the end of the day I know the words are true
I
Love
You

The depression is eating me alive
As Enormous pressure digs deep
I wonder if my soul can revive
For my soul is in desperate need
Wanting to be in a peaceful meadow
While the rays of sun strike my skin gently
Not drowning in a sea so deep below
Nor being judged intently
I want to walk with my head high
Destroying every low spirit talk
I don’t want to live in the fear to die
Or worst in the fear of mock
I don’t desire perfection or the finest thing
Nor I want people with poinsous fangs
I just want my life to be in sync
By the ancient concept of yin and yang

You are not patient
Oh if only you knew the pain I felt
You are not patient
Oh if only you knew the secrets I held
You are not patient
Oh if only you knew the heart I killed
You are not patient
Oh if only you saw what I have seen
You are not patient
Oh if only you saw what I dreamed
You are not patient
Oh if only you saw what I bleed
You are not patient
Oh if only you felt my rage
You are not patient
Oh if only you felt my cage
You are not patient
Oh if only you felt my ache
You are not patient
Oh if only you were aware
If only you just listened and cared
You will ask “ how do you bare?”

Your eyes took me beyond the oceans
There where the birds sway with the breeze
They are filled with red roses and colorful beam
A natural sense of innocence
A strong maturity and security
Your eyes took me beyond galaxies
There where a million stars rests in the sky
They are filled with fantasies you can’t defy
A musical sound of serenity
A powerful wisdom and integrity
beauty beyond beauty
Your eyes were an everlasting movie