Today again the weather is dismal
no rain, but clouds everywhere
Today again the city seems to be empty
roads are deserted
Today again I feel alone in the crowd
I feel the silence in the chaos
Today again my eyes are wet
and my heart is aching.
Today again you are not with me
and my life seems worthless

I don’t want to smile
I don’t want to laugh
Because you are no more with me and without you all smiles are lifeless

I don’t want to drive
I don’t want to listen to music
Because you are not with me and I scared that every song that I will listen to, will remind me of you

I don’t want to talk to people
I don’t want to make new friends
Because you are not with me and I am scared that they too will leave me like you..

I don’t want to travel
I don’t want to go places
Because you are not with me and I am scared of replacing your memories with new ones

I don’t want to drink coffee
I don’t want to make that cold brew anymore
Because without your company, no amount of caffeine can give me a kick

Not sure why, without you nothing seems to be right, nothing seems to be good.

When I say I like him means,
despite my fear of heights,
I will fall for him blindfolded from any height

When I say I like him means,
Though I hate goat cheese,
I would eat it just to spend my time with him at the dining

When I say I like him means,
Despite my fright of speed
I would sit in a race car with him

When I say I like him means,
Though I am scared of darkness
I would walk miles at night just to have a glimpse of him

When I say I like him means,
Despite my impatience
I would wait for days, for him to text back, Because I know how busy he is

When I say I like him means
If he says his favorite color is blue
My wardrobe will change till every color of my dress matches to his taste

When I say I like him means
I look at his pictures 1000 times
And search for that glimpse of his fondness

When I say I like him means
I would go over his text messages over and over
To picture his mood in my head,  when he sent me those messages and for that one word where he might have confessed that he likes me too

I will not let a tear roll..because I know you will never be mine
I will not show my feelings ever.. because I don’t want you to surrender

I will never call you.. because I don’t want to know that I am ignored
I will never text you.. because I don’t want you to feel obliged

I will never miss you.. because you were never forgotten