These thoughts run through a mind
And ❤️ that's filled with pain all the escape tools seems to keep him stuck inside the same rut wanting to get out of the cage but he's the one holding the 🔑 to get out fighting himself wondering why he doesn't just sit this one out fighting himself and the pain he once felt feeling like the trap better than the joy he once felt it's ❄️ and lonely but that's what's felt like 🏡

He chases after feelings to hide what goes on in his mind it seems like a broken ⏰ is right twice maybe that's the same way he views life, like an endless cycle of broken dreams being chased to escape the trap that leads to an early ⚰️ it seems brave to assume he will make it out when his ❤️ feels like it's been torn apart by the people he truly ❤️ it's hard not to see the beast that lives inside like a roaring 🦁 looking to **** anything it sees in sight but alas the pain in his souls leaves the 🦁 feeling empty and ❄️.

Trying to find love inside all these fake connections
It seems the closer he gets to them
The further away he finds himself
Feeling disconnected inside a world filled with lies
He wonders if will there ever be an end
Asking when will he find something real
Whilst pretending these fake friends and people will
Bring him joy when all they want is to feel relief
From the pain that runs deep inside

These constant 🧱 of comparison
He finds himself in  
Stuck inside his mind again seems
Like he can't escape I guess
That's what happens when
You're hated and the only ❤️ you
Get is when they see success but
At the end of the day it causes
Pain inside the ❤️ and mind
That just seems to be racing trying
To find ☮️ but it seems so muddled up
In wanting to be the best at whatever
He does cause it feels like it's never good
Enough when he performs well and gets
All the accomplishments that they wanted
Guess that's the curse of being the
Number 1 kid out a family of toxic people

Just a little kid growing up in a cold 🌍
Dad's an alcoholic while his mum stays at 🏡, seems like a picture perfect family but there's trouble at home now he sits all alone cause he's always felt so broken. His mum cares concern her whilst he sits in a room feel broken ❤️ he wonders why dad's never really home asking questions with no answer feel stuck in a 🕳️ as he wonders when he will ever feel ❤️ it's like there's ☮️ within the violence and it's better he stay silent about the pain inflicted on his body and how his parents won't take his hobbies the way they treat their work now he feels trapped like suicide is best yet for protection there's no one there.

Stuck between ☹️ and 😊 he 🤔
Why he can't seem to find ☮️
When all he has ever know is pain
His 🧠 lies telling him everything would
Be fine when he can't 😴 and the 👿
Is trying to play tricks with his mind
An escape from this 🌎 doesn't help
So he 🍾 it all up 🤔 that will help
But the 🤬 and pain keep pilling up
Inside and he wonders when it will
All be said and done now he hopes
That God will help him heal and cope
With all this deep emotions 🏃‍♀️ wild
Inside of him.

Tourted artists by the thoughts that lay deep inside
He wonders why he can't die and leave the world
Behind cause he feels so empty and cold
In a world that stabbed him in the back and left him bruised
And wondering what was it all for nothing he does
Helps him find relief and escape as he tries to stay alive
In a house filled with abuse, neglect, lies, and deceit
He looks for the courage to take the easy way out but
Escape he can't as joy may lay on the other side of pain

Doubt creeping up on me
Feel like I'm worthless
Can't do it like I used to feeling
Stuck in this thought loop
Wondering when I will get but
That's what I thought
That maybe on the other side
There would be happiness
But I feel like I'm stuck in my mind
Why do I keep torturing myself
With all these thoughts of wanting to
Do everything it feels so hard to have
Peace of mind when these thoughts keep
Racing in my mind feel like I'm stuck in
Quicksand but I've got the ripe
That will pull me out of this ditch
I find myself in

Can't stay living in the past tense
Cause that's where my mind seems
To wonder to feeling like the memories
Will swallow me but I can't 🙈 and it's all
Because I feel trapped in these walls like Alcatraz, feeling like nobody can help me
But that's a lie cause I feel more free with these thoughts kept inside but it makes my
❤ Still race like I'm in the same space and can't wait for ⌚ to pass me by, there's light but I'm too scared to step through the tunnel cause I ❤ the pain and hate the healing feel like I'm free inside the cage of my mind.

The balloon was floating in the air
Wondering through the city
Looking for a place of accession
Until it met a tree and got stuck
A little boy saw this ballon and
If he could get it but ended up
Stuck in the same tree cause
He was scared to come down
He cried for help till a fireman came
And got the boy and the balloon out of the tree

Fake friends surround me as I down another 🍾 to the head
Thoughts circling 🤔 why I'm still here
In this pit where we drink to get lifted
Yet I'm feeling so empty deep inside
🕳️ In my chest but my ❤️ can't seem to
Say no to the thought of another glass
Another 🍾 to relax yet I'm stuck here
Sitting wondering why these friends
I keep seem to be why I feel so weak
It's like I ❤️ the buzz hate the company

He just wants to end it all
Call it quits he tried and fought
A long battle but his 🧠 telling him
It's ⌚ quit while your ahead
In his 🧠 it's over but his ❤️
Just wants to keep going
Maybe the 🌞 shines when
All the ☁️ clear it's hard to see
But the hope he once felt
Seems so distant like a runner
Without his 👟 or a singer without
Her 🎤 he seem to want to die
And it's hard sometimes to feel alive
When the end draws near and the
Rope seems like the only option
Cause there's no hope in sight
He feels like he has got no more fight
Will he live or quit only ⌚ will tell

Drugged up feeling so high
Trying to escape the 🤬 and rage
I feel deep inside my ❤️
From the hate that often seems so small
But cuts deep like a 🔪 through the soul
Voices scream so loud and profound
Of a young 👦🏽 who didn't seem to matter
And all his pain was seen to be a joke
Nothing he could find would give him hope
Finding anything to help him cope made
Him consider using a rope to end it all
But he can't let them win
They say we're a family but
What's a family when members are missing.

He watches ******* 🎥
🤔 It will bring 😊 and ☮️
But all it did was bring pain
Inside his 🧠, he 🤥 thinking
Everything will be fine but
The 🌟 are great actors are great
And he hates how broken his ❤️
Feels that he can't experience this
Kind of ❤️ his 👀 filled by the lies
That *** brings ❤️ and that
❤️ Lies through loving 👀
Whilst in between her thighs

Feeling stuck in this cycle can't seem
To get out where I find myself lost
Inside this dark mind it's like ❤️ this
Pain hits so much of the 🧠 feeling lonely
But don't want no company wanting ❤️
But to afraid to open up what's inside
This ❄️ ❤️ wants to feel ❤️ but I feel stuck
Inside this long story that doesn't
Want to end why do I feel stuck inside
This 🌊 of emotions when I could get out
It seems though it feels so bad but can't seem to get out the mud it's so hard that my ❤️ and mind seems hard to get out.

Heart turned cold for what the world once
Known about an innocent man who loved his life
He had family, wife and two kids and a dog in which
He loved so dear then one day it all went grey when he
Found his wife with another man  it broken him
So much that he started to cry cause he had been living a lie

My heart skips a beat when I'm around you
Baby you bring such a smile on me
I just have fun when I'm around want to just
wrap my arms when I see you
Cause you make me happy everyday you are so
**** kind and it's just so sad to see you with
Someone else but my heart just wants to be around yours
And show you love everyday cause I love to see you

Surrounded by 🥃 he 🤔 where
😃 Is found at the end of the 🍾
He gets wasted to escape the pain
And wastes ⌚trying to find ☮️ of 🧠
It seems the more drunk he gets
The more his ❤️ breaks as he can't
Keep 🏃‍♀️from the emotions that run deep
His friend says hey just crack another
🍾 It will all go away while he is on his
7th cup wishing he stayed.
Home where he could find some ☮️
From 🙏 to the Lord above for some
Help but he is now drunk having
Conversations that ain't no help
Now he asks himself why he escapes
The pain riddles his 🧠 but only finds
Himself drinking just to feel like himself.

Thoughts are jumbled up
Cant even vent like
I used to
Feel stuck with all these
Thoughts and all these bars
But the words wont flow
Onto this page the way I want to
It's like I'm stuck but feel wide open
looking for a way out of this
Hell of writers block through writting

The anger inside haunts the life of a broken child
Never felt love from his parents yet trying
To receive it from the world it's like death's calling his name
Because he remains in pain from a trauma relived
Destruction has run through a path seeking peace
No help and yet fake pictures of a happy family spread across
A house filled with abuse, infidelity, and lies covered with fake smiles
He seems broken from all the pain thinking a nose will
Help him feel relief from everything he will lose

Going down a dark road with different vices
He feels there's no escape from the empty feeling inside
He tries to hide it with a bottle straight to the head
But it only leaves him dead inside
He lies to himself thinking everything is fine
But the pain ran so deep he even thought about ending
His own life cause the memories run wild
Like Hulk Hogan so he sees the only escape to be
Anything he could find which led him to a destructive path
Now he is all alone and feels so broken and alone