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146 · Dec 2019
My Heart Get in the way
Sometimes my heart
Get in my way
How many disappointments
I had.
My heart stills beats
It’s actually fine another
To be so alive.
My heart still wants
To give love.
Maybe I need to just
Stop.
Opening myself and my heart.
You can’t love someone
That’s don’t love you the way
You love them.
I never tell anybody
What’s my plans are
Sometimes when I get enough
My plan
I don’t actually follow them
I just get up
And do it right there.
Why wait
If you could change your life
For the better.
That’s what exactly
I did
145 · Apr 2021
Let Go the past
There are so many bs
In my life
But one thing I
Learned
Is to let go.
So I chose to let go of my past
And stay with my
New life
Is a new beginning
I wrote a poem. It was the kind of poem that rhymes and has a certain rhythm to the words and phrases. After several revisions, and through the process of reading the poem aloud to myself, I thought: “This could be a song.”
So I added music to the poem. Then I felt it needed more of a “hook,” so I wrote a chorus that would be repeated a couple of times. After several hours work, voilà: I had written a song. And it wasn’t half bad, I must say, at least by my modest standards.
145 · Oct 2018
Love Is Beautiful
Love is precious in many ways.
Love is embrace passion.
Love is eternal happiness.
Love is heart felt emotions.
Love is the understanding of one another.
Love is that special someone.
Love is the joy you feel with someone.
Love is flying without wings.
Love is that who touches your heart.
Love is what makes your heart beat.
Love is the healing power of your heart and soul.
Love is that beauty within.
Love is what makes dreams come true.
Love is the fuel of the heart and soul.
Love is the foundation of life.
Love is the meaning of life.
145 · Jan 2019
Im royal woman
I'm be a woman with so much secrets
But I know my boundaries.
I don't give no other man time to stop
Just to talk to
I'm not very friendly to others
Peoples
I don't open my legs for no one
You cannot buy me nor my love
Because I'm not for sell
I'm a woman only love one man

I surely don't dress cute
I don't like attention
But I give myself to one man
That's the only one
No, body else matters
145 · Aug 2020
Un amigo mas verdadero
Necesito saber si eres mi verdadero amigo
¿Estarás a mi lado hasta el final?
¿Puedo contarte mis secretos profundos?
y confía en ellos en tu corazón que mantendrás?

No somos ninguno de los dos sin nuestros defectos
¿Puedes aceptar el mío como yo aceptaré el tuyo?
Seré un hombro para llorar cuando estés triste
¿Estarás ahí para mí cuando te necesite?

No importa lo ocupado que esté, haré tiempo para ti
si estás ocupado, ¿me harás tiempo para mí también?
Tomaré tu mano y consolaré tus lágrimas
¿Me abrazarás y calmarás mis miedos?

Te daré alegría y muchas sonrisas cálidas,
¿Podemos compartir eso incluso a través de muchas millas?
No olvidaré lo que es importante para ti
¿recordarás lo que es importante para mí también?

Contigo mis cosas favoritas compartiré
Si tan solo supiera, ¿realmente te importa?
Si puedes aceptarme como yo te hago
entonces sabré que eres un amigo de verdad.
145 · Nov 2018
Subject
Head in the entire congregation swung the double door. I’ll flung open,
Vision was fuzzy, no doubt from two fifty Emilio I’d try to drown out the fact that she was marrying someone else today.

Idelfonso and khaila could never be together.
But that didn’t mean I was going to watch khaila Smith marry someone else and not say a god- ****** words.

You *******. How could you?”
Khaila was dressed in a white, like the perfect bridge, asides from militants look into her face.

Might have miscalculated in my drunken haze.
Can’t marry him. Pretty sure my words slurred, but I didn’t care.

“ I don’t know why you think you get to have an opinion, get the hell out of here. “

“I can buy and sell him. “ More slurring.
Khaila’s eyes burned with her anger. “ Don’t. Care. Cuz you can’t buy me. “

Two set of arms grabbed me from the behind and dragged me back toward the door.

You ever look at my sister
again, Definitely I will ******* **** you myself.
Don’t care how much ******* money your family has.”
Khaila ‘s brother loomed overall of me, and I didn’t doubted his promise, especially while he was wearing his army dress uniform and green berets.
Next to him it was the grooms. Man who’d sold khaila the biggest crock of ****. I’d heard in my life. I’d told myself there was no way she’d ever go through. Way her brother would let her.

I was so wrong. He’d let her marry anyone but idelfonso.
Groom smirked but said nothing, they both turned and marched up the steps.
I weren’t so ******* wasted,
I’d go back in and try again.
Might be marrying her
today, but I wasn’t done with khaila
Novel
If someone can’t understand
How truly I feel
They only see or read
What they wanna read.
I’m not sharing anymore my
Feeling.
Unless I tried
But I felt
They don’t understand
Me at all
144 · Oct 2019
What May I See
I learned to just leave it alone
I think more
Before I go do
Something.
Before it’s was hard
To ignore stuff
People say and do.
I guess the more
Older you get
You just look at it.
And say, I’m to old
For all of this.
I don’t care no more.
142 · Apr 2021
Night Is Young
Hold me tight in your arms
Let us explore the young night
Let us see through the ****** night
We could feel each other's warm
Take my soul to your longing heart.


We can break each other's ribs
With the undying love which we
Peep through its eyes at the back of affection
The sensational theme of the movement
In our body could take us to the other phase of life.


Hold me in your hands into the night
Let's walk to the isle of love
The night is still young and thirsty
Of experience that could savor its longing eyes;
We could penetrate through its ****** and break its pride.

Us against the world, you and me against them all
Our minds are still young and promising
Our hearts are still waiting to explore into the depth
Of the craving night,
Spell bound my soul and make me groan into the night.


Kiss me here, touch me and take me into
The darkest part of the night,
Hold me tight and make love to me;
For I found love in your eyes
When men see the dark con of a man in you.
142 · Oct 2018
I will wear mask
In times of trouble and insanity
I carry mask to disguise
the pain I carry
secure behind my eyes

I can never let out again
the misery I hide
to hell with my dignity
to hell with my pride

From this day forward
and for ever more
I will mouth this mask
that will be my lore

No reaching out when I am weak
no solace will I seek

When you look for answers
When you say your prayers
all you will see is masks
and no pain that I bare
Doesn’t mean your blessed
Because you done
Something good for yourself
God haven’t forgotten
What you have done
Like I said in the past
Like will give you a
Tasty of life.
Just right you want to be.
But that’s all
141 · Mar 2021
Enjoy Life
Life's too short to be wasted.
It passes just once, so make the most out of it.
Live life the way you want it to be.
Live it to the fullest, feel free!

Live as the sun shines in the sky.
Live as high as the birds can fly.
Live as the colors of a rainbow.
Live as far as the clouds can go.

Never waste it with worthless doubts and fears,
With insecurities and useless tears.
Remember that what couldn't tear you makes you strong.
Put away frustrations, sing your own song!

Believe in what you can do.
The world is round; it's all up to you.
Think fast, act now!
Time is gold; it couldn't be renewed.

Value experiences, learn from mistakes.
Improve for the better, live for others.
Do what is right and what is best.
Always be yourself, unique from the rest.

Laugh as if there's no tomorrow.
Dance as though you'll never get through.
Love with all your heart and soul.
Sing like you're on the top of the world.

Forget the money, the root of all evil.
Treasure your loved ones; you're lucky they're still there.
Strengthen your faith, live with God.
The best things in life are for free, so why not?!
139 · Nov 2018
Present day
Ten years for now. That’s how long it’s been since I last saw the Welcome To Ellis sign as I drove away as a newlywed in the back of a limo filled with regrets.
Since I can’t say how many times I’ve thought about making my return. Hundreds? A thousand? Somewhere in between, most likely. I’ve pictured myself in a fancy sports car with my hair down into a scarf like I was Grace Jenavia, or maybe in a chauffeur-driven SUV.

Once in those ten years did I think I’d be coming back to town on a Greyhound bus.
A woman next to me snores so loudly, she wakes herself up. Her head jerks from side to side as she wipes drool from the corner of her mustache.

Nothing,” reply as I pull my baseball cap over my eyes and read- just my sunglasses to hopefully cover my black eyes where the makeup is wearing off.

Hoping my iffy luck will hold until I’m off this bus, and she won’t have a clue who she say next to on this long ride from L.A.

What’d I miss?” Leans over me to look out the window as we approach the bus station. He’s six feet under, and I’m the famous one because I’m the black widow who killed him.

Know the truth, but no one else cares about anything so mundane as that. Fall from wife of a rock god to the most hated woman in America has been a rocky one, and to be honest, I’m lucky I made it out of L.A. alive.
Greyhounds brakes squeal as it slows to a stop. Changing the direction of my thoughts. Stop thinking about what I’m running from and put it behind me.

I just never thought I’d be running toward Smith, the place I spent so many years desperate to leave. I want is a simple, quiet life. Something normal. Aways from the paparazzi and accusations. Even away from doing guilty that I fear.

I glance out the window, expecting the old wooden train depot, but we’re on the wrong side of town for that.

Smith. That’s one major reason I don’t know if I’ll ever find peace here.
Soon as we hit the city limits a few minutes ago, my heart is like stone.

Force my breathing to slow and try to look at the name without feeling anything.
Instead, I glare at it, like that’s going to help me find some inner strength.
I would match everything else in this town em blazoned with the Smith name.

Hospital that’s probably only a mile from here. Court-house that takes up one side of the town square. Smith bank and trust two blocks over, near the Rodriguez Art Gallery.

The only thing that doesn’t have their name is the town itself. Pretty sure my ancestors are still smiling in their graves about snaring that honor right before they jumped the Rodriguez’s gold claim and started a feud that’s lasted over 180 years.

I did my part too, and I’m not proud of it.
Wait my turn, specifically for the woman beside me to move, I can haul my *** off the bus. The bus rumbles to life again, and I watch as it rolls away. Left surrounded by the sum total remains of my former life, in the form of ridiculously overpriced Savellia Vuitton luggage, while I wait for my chronically-late-from-birth cousin to come get me.

Cricket begins me to come back to California, I probably would have stayed on the bus all the way to New York. Well I heard they’re friendly up there........ unless they’re Idelfonso Rodriguez fans.

Ohhh, baby! Look at that **** thing just waiting on a ride. You wanna come on up with me, girl?”
Catcalls had come from a man, I would tensed and prepared to bolt, but no. A voice I’d recognize even if it had been eighty years since I’d been home in stead of ten.

First time in months, a genuine smile stretches my lips. I know I don’t get into a strangers van unless someone offers me candy first. “
As well, get up here, little girl.
I’ve got sugar for you. Cricket puts the van in park and hops out, running around the front of the faint Econoline. *** Jesus Christ, you look just like a real beauty celebrity-who forgot to tell her chauffeur where to pick her up.”
So, I rush to meet him. We collide ina hug. “ I thought you were my chauffeur. But is to early too. I wasn’t prepared to wait an hour for cricket Time.”

Cuz my cousin smells exactly the same as the last time I saw her- like *** smoke, coconut, vanilla and sunshine.
“ Lord , I miss you, girl. It’s been way too ******* long.”
Pull back. Your tawny eyes dance, and her dark brown hair is braided around the crown of her head like she’s a perfect flower child.
But she’s alright.

Her heart squeezes at her smiling face. I’ve miss her so dear to much. I shouldn’t have stayed away so long. “ I know. I’m so sorry__
That’s your king
He makes sure everything is well-taking care of
The king protect
His castle
And the queen of the house
The king makes sure
His loves one
Are safe.
The king will do anything
For his Queen
And kids.
139 · Mar 2019
Chapter 8
Chapter 8

“As I walked through the casino, my mind went back to the mark on Lotus’s neck.
Was she one of my sisters?
It seemed almost inconceivable that I’d run into any one of them on the night I’d learned of their existence. But, then again, it was possible that we’d been brought together by supernatural forces. For all I knew, Lilith’s spirit had her hand in this. She might still be looking out for me, even in death”.
“I headed toward the hotel’s front doorway; several people stared at me in horror, which reminded me of the blood and cuts on my face. Obviously, I needed to clean myself up. Cursing Brandon under my breath, I turned around and made a bee-line toward the restrooms. When I stepped into the women’s room and saw my reflection in the mirror, I groaned in frustration. It had been dark in the elevator and I hadn’t realized how bad I actually looked. Now, in this light, I looked like someone had attacked me with a cheese grater.”
“A noise in one of the bathroom stalls caught my attention. I turned off the water just as someone made a loud snorting noise.
Can you make it any more obvious?
The woman flushed the toilet and a few seconds later, she walked out of the stall, her nose red from whatever blow she’d been snorting.”
“Hi,” I said, recognizing the ******* dressed blonde. She was one of the local hookers and we’d bumped into each other a lot during the past few months. Her name was Twyla and she believed that we shared the same profession. I never corrected her on it either.
Our eyes met and Twyla gasped. “Jesus, are you okay?”
I smiled grimly. “I’m fine.”
“A Ronald do that to you?”
“Something like that.”
“I remember.”
She stared at me in the mirror. “That’s gotta hurt.”
“My face?”
She nodded.
“Only when I smile,” I replied. “Fortunately, there isn’t much to smile about tonight.”
Twyla stepped closer to me. “Honey, if you’re interested, I’ve got something that will make you feel better,” she whispered, as if someone else was in the bathroom with us.
“I’d appreciate it.” Little did she know we were talking about two separate things.”
“Twyla stepped closer to me. “Honey, if you’re interested, I’ve got something that will make you feel better,” she whispered, as if someone else was in the bathroom with us.

“I’d appreciate it.” Little did she know we were talking about two separate things.
Twyla pulled out a small vial of powder from her purse. “There’s enough in there for one good line.”
“*******?”
She nodded and held it out. “I think you need this more than I do. Especially if you want to get through the rest of the night.”
I glanced toward the doorway. “To be honest, I’ve never done this before,” I whispered. “Maybe we should go into the stall and you can show me how to use it? I don’t want anyone walking in on us.”
“Yeah. No problem. Let’s go,” said Twyla, heading toward the large stall at the end. I followed quickly and locked”
“the door.
“So, you’ve never tried it before, huh?”
I shook my head.
“Then maybe I’ll just give you a little,” she said, holding the vial up again.
“Great. A little is all I need,” I replied, snaking my arm out to grab her wrist.
“What the hell you doing, *****?” she snapped, as the vial fell to the ground, powder spilling everywhere.
I looked into her eyes. “Calm down.”
Her pupils dilated and her face relaxed.
“Like I said, I only need a little.” I raised her wrist to my lips, and sank my teeth into her skin, loathing the fact that I had to resort to this. Drinking blood, in a bathroom stall, from a coked-up ****** was definitely not my finest hour.
Twyla gasped”.
“She suddenly looked frightened. “Leave Tony?”
“Yes. You don’t need that *******. He’s nothing but a leech and you are not his property to sell.”
A spark of anger filled Twyla’s eyes. “Tony’s a leech.”
“Yes. Are you living with him?”
“No.”
Good. “Do you have children?”
“No.”
Even better. “Do you have family, out of Vegas?”
“I have a sister in Hawaii.
“Is she a *******?”
“No.”
“Tell me about her.”
“She works in a diner and is married to a truck driver. They’ve got a kid. Danny. He’s my nephew.”
“Are you close?”
“We used to be.”
“Okay. Consider packing your stuff and going to her. Anything you have to do to get away from Robert and this life you’re living. You have any money saved?” I asked, touching my face. It now felt smooth.”
The rent was cheap
So, I live in an apartment
For over 12-years.
One day
I woke up smell
The coffee.
It’s time to move on
And makes something better.
I did
Imagine that
I when from small apartment
To a bigger
House.
Not all my life.
I’m going to stay in a apartment.
Almost pay same amount
A
House is
Better.
It's not right, to be treated bad
It's not right, for your love one
To be rude to you
It's not right for someone to accuse you

If you don't like to be treated bad. Don't do it to someone else.
137 · Jul 2019
Alcoholic person
Some people drink with there’s friends
Just to hang out and have fun
Some people drink
Because it’s a long day of work.
You got people who drink
In the morning and lunch
Dinner.
That’s what your alcoholic people.
Addicted to alcohol
Their body is caving for it.
And they cannot live without the taste of
Alcohol.
I know a man
Who drink before he goes to work.
On his break time another alcohol.
When he gets off work
Another alcohol.
I don’t know if he actually eats real food.
137 · Apr 2021
Little two
I never saw your twinkling eyes
Or touched your precious feet.
I never shared a tiny yawn
Or rocked you fast asleep.

I never kissed your tiny hands
Or saw your little smile.
I never held you in my arms,
But I carried you for a while.

Although I never saw your face
Or heard your precious laughter,
You're still my child whom I love
And will always
Love
137 · Nov 2018
Rodriguez
When I opened my eyes a few hours
Later, empty bed was. Shot straight up and looked around.
She was gone.
******* imagine last night.
I hear boards creak out in the living room.
****, she’s sneaking out.
Not only I was not letting her leave without getting her name, but she had no way to get home.
I bolted out of bed, bothering with my jeans, reached the living room. “ Hey—-“
Whipped around from where she was standing, fully dressed, by the front door. There she was staring at pictures below a trophy mount and an antique rifle.
My father picture and my grandfather.
Instead of that sated smile, her face was the picture of horror.
“ Are you okay?”
Hey she won’t backed away, edging toward the door, and tripped over one of her boots as she reached for the handle.
You may................. You’re..............Rodriguez
Smith. Aren’t you?” Expression was echoed by the horrified tone of her voice.

Normally they found out my name, they were on me faster than I could fend off.

Chin up. So, ****.” Reached down and grabbed her boots before ripping the door open.
Already partway down the drive before I hit the front porch.
“ Wait!”
Well she gave me a backwards glance and stumbled, dropping one of her boots. I didn’t even stop to pick it up. She just bolted.
****.
136 · Apr 2019
I only want the truth.
Look for answers to your question today, Gemini. The good news is that the answers are now out there and easily accessible. Seek the truth and you will find it. Make sure you probe more deeply than you might think to do. Instead of just asking for the answer, seek to find the full mechanics behind the problem. In this way, you're much more likely to find ultimate success.
136 · Sep 2020
A Good Woman
One you should treasure, but not as a possession,
Who needs to be loved, not treated with aggression.
Her value is more than all the world's treasures,
Not just the sum of scale's unit measures.
She should always be built up, not torn down,
By all the words you speak, when she is around.
She needs to be hugged and not pushed away,
Especially when you are both having a really bad day.
Words spoken to her in haste and anger
Can place her fragile heart in danger.
She should be admired for her boundless love,
And looked upon as a true gift from Above.
Not used as a target for all your frustration,
But held close and kissed with loving admiration.
You should always appreciate her commitment to you,
And not take for granted what she's given up for you!
Kiss her and love her all that you possibly can,
And don't be embarrassed to be seen holding her hand.
Treasure each day as if it were the last,
And at the end of your life you won't be regretting your past.
136 · Mar 2021
Why Do People Lies
Why do people lie, ?
They are pretending
Misunderstanding
? I wish that people wouldn’t feel the need ?to lie to me so often.
Lies hurt more than the truth.
Now, because of your bitterness lies, ?I am backing off.
Especially if your in a relationship
It’s okay to step back
Just let everything happen
If your force on things
To happen
We might not like
What we get.
Doesn’t mean we
Don’t care or love.
Move to fast in the relationship
Things fall in the wrong way.
Think before you make decisions.
135 · Jan 2021
An Awesome Love
My love is like a cavern
Its so wide and deep
My love is like a flower
its beauty you want to keep.

My love is like an ocean
That will never end
My love is like a letter
With a beautiful message in the end.

My love is like a song
with lyrics so sweet
Like a piece of chocolate
and you are my favorite treat.
135 · Apr 2021
Remembering
I remember something
Is not I don’t
Want to come home to you
It’s my experience
I had with you
What if ****
Happened
You going to put out my
Clothes
And kick me out
Remember you already did it
That’s why I hesitate on
Staying in your place
Last nite I had a dream
This one where you were
All up inside and I was loving it
Than there was rain and thunder
With your sweaty and dirt hands
Why am I going to argue with him?
134 · Aug 2020
I’ll Do Anything For You
I would do anything my dear love to make you happy,
I would go to the ends of the earth if you needed
to find and get you anything that you need.
I would give it my all even risking life
and limb to make you happy and see you smiling.

I would do anything to protect you if a dangerous moment
or situation arose and threatned you in any way.
I would give up my life if needs be to protect my only one,
I will be your hero and knight in shining armor,
I will always protect you from anything there may be
that could frighten, threaten, or harm you.
I would do anything in defense of my lady.

I would and I will do everything in this life to
give you all that you need and deserve,
I will always do for my sweet Angel what is right.
I will do everything for her to be happy,
healthy, safe, full of peace and strength.
I would do anything it takes to let you know that
you matter and you're never alone.
I will do anything to prove that I'm never leaving,
and dedicated staying right by your side for eternity.

I will do everything to honor you treating you as
the precious Queen of my heart that you are,
I will always give you my best treating you with dignity and respect,
give you everything you deserve to heal your heart
and prove to you that you're the best my Angel Queen.
I would and I will do everything that you want and need
because you're my lady and I love you so very deeply.
133 · Jan 2019
You ever feels
Annoyed by people
Enough you don't wanna talk to no one
Annoyed because they don't until you
Enough you just wanna have peace of mind
Annoyed at yourself
No. Matter what you do
They still don't believe you
Annoyed, because you was in a good mood
Because they are not , so you worry about them.
Annoyed because you have to prove yourself
That you already did
By putting them first, for the very first
Annoyed so much
Because when you called
They ignoring your calls
But yet
If they called
They mad.
I'm annoyed
Can see my love
That's annoying
Can spend a day
That's annoying
In my heart
I have a lot of
Hate
I need to heal
And find me again
Because if I give in
Let my heart make that
Decision for me
I’ll fall apart.
My heart needs a pure
Heart
Not everyone is pure
Not everyone could do
What I could do
Not everyone as giving person
Not everyone does everything
Out of there heart.
I’m not ready
To give me
I’m not fighting for someone
Will just play with my heart
131 · Apr 2021
Love is not perfect
Love isn't always perfect. It isn't a fairytale or a storybook. And it doesn't always come easy. Love is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting to be together, holding on & never letting go. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, & impossible to live without. Love is work, but most of all, Love is realizing that every hour, every minute, & every second was worth it because you did it together.
131 · Apr 2021
All obstacles in my life
I finally raised up
And achieve my goals
I told myself
No matter how many people
Tried to use me
And hurt me.
I will walk taller
And be better for me
And my family.
Does people
I pray
Hope they put god first
Before anything else
131 · Oct 2018
Hear me out
I have gone through many ups and downs with my husband since I talk to him. Enjoying the Army. Our relationship was good until I noticed he is a compulsive liar.
I found out he has been messaging another women with nasty messages and pictures.
This isn't the first time he has done this. Women we both knows in the pass. Came up to me. Some reason he don't remember,  what he'll suppose have done.
I am tired of being lied to, but I can't seem to stop helping him. Even though he say no. Maybe I'm different than him. No, matter what you say to me.
Because we have kids together. I still look at it as if its okay.
I maded few mistakes in my life.
Am I going to hide it.
Am I going to lie about it.
No, I'm not going to hide it
Nor lie about it.
I am a true person.
Ask me, I'll tell you.
My morsel tells me
Lieing about something
Not only you lieing to yourself
Your lieing to God
I rather be free with my sin
Than live with a guilty conscious
For the raise of my life.
A person becomes 10 times more attractive not by their looks but by their acts of kindness, respect, honesty & by the loyalty they show.

A beautiful face will fade with time, but a beautiful heart and soul will last a life time.
In many instances, these values invite, more often rejection unless the 'Ground is Common."

These are the values I grew up with. When I moved away my father said “people may be unfair and unkind but remember they can not take away your character or integrity, those you have to give away.  These words do not make life easy but are truly words worth living by.
Your too focused
To what you want
And the people around
As for me
Not I only focus on myself
I focus on the people
I love.
There’s no way
I ever put myself first
All the people
Who knows me
They know I always focus
To the people I
Love.
130 · Apr 2019
Before, I didnt love myself
Because I had some difficult
In my life.
I'm always putting them first
Before myself.

That time came
I was able to relax
With my inner self

I learn to love myself before anybody
I learn to take care my health.
Most important
I let God in my heart.
130 · Nov 2019
Never Say Never
Don’t say you never
Date black woman
Don’t say you never
Date white woman
In your life.
Look at yourself now.
You dated white woman
You with a black woman.
Did you know
You just swallowed
Everything you said
130 · Oct 2018
People
Some people are truly
great manipulators. They
can lie, cheat, treat you
badly and somehow
manage to make it all
seem like it’s your fault.

Don’t fall for it, that is just
   what they do.
130 · Jul 2019
Abusive
Abusive is a guy who abuses people for his own amusement. A true weakling in every sense of a word. Especially when they do it to women. Abusive refers to anyone who beats on another physically, uses psychological and verbal abuse against someone or bullies another person.

DJ: use women *** and money

RR: rude ***
This guy I thought I knew
I trust him.
I guess I was wrong
Don't matter, how long
You know a person
2 years or 3 years.
Not enough to get to know him.

This guy I knew
He lied in front my face
He use his charms
To lead woman in sweets
Talks.

This guy I knew
Take advantage of
Woman to buy him
Anything.

This guy I knew
If he don't get what he
Want.
He will trade you
For someone else.
129 · Dec 2019
LEARN WHERE YOU STAND AT AS
If you are just a friend
stay there as a friend
Stop, getting other woman way
Stop listening to others
*******.
Before, you wanna open
Your mountain
Fine out what others living is
like, pointing your fingers
someone else, you could get hurt
You don't know me
Get off my back
Stay out my business
Sweetie pie
I don't wanna be in yours
129 · Jul 2019
Coward (3)
noun

1. One who is not brave
2. One who fears many things
3. The most insulting word known to man

Synonyms:
1. scaredy-cat
2. loser
Antonyms:
1. non-coward
2. hero
3. valiant warrior
4. Adventurer
5. Voorhees 2nd Floor

Look at that man running from me, such a coward.

"I don't want to go in there, I'm scared" said the coward.
129 · Mar 2021
Before I.........
Before I became strong, I knew what it was like
To be weak,
How difficult it is to love yourself,
To find the wholeness that you seek.

Before I knew the light,
I have had my fair share of darkness, too,
Where my world fell into a hopelessness
And I didn't know how to get through.

For I have known the tears it takes,
The courage to stand up again,
When you are broken down and bruised
And you know nothing but the pain.

You forget to appreciate love,
If you haven't seen the hate,
Till you forget the meaning of smile and laughter,
And your heart is left abate.

I have known the strength and courage
It requires to get it right,
To face the things that hold you down
And hold your head up and fight.

Before I was who I am now,
I was someone I didn't want to be.
I was lost, battered, and defeated,
Before I knew how to be me!
When other people make decisions with bad outcomes, we tend to focus on the people behind the decision. We can’t seem to shake the belief that good people make good decisions and bad people make bad decisions. It’s easy to think that we would have made a better decision.
When our decisions have bad outcomes, we know the outcomes is not all there is to see. Our thoughts and intentions come into play. We can’t see the thoughts and intentions of others—we only see their actions through a biased lens. We can, however, see our thoughts and intentions. Our bad outcomes happen because we were unlucky.
128 · Dec 2020
Are Body Will Changes
Some of you have heard this comment before...
'You look good,
For your age! '

What does that really mean?
What is implied?
And how should the comment be taken?

I see some people react with a smile.
As if they have been complimented.
While others have a puzzled look on their faces.
As if to say...
'And how old should I look? '

And then there are those,
Who are so frightened to appear their ages...
They are the ones behind sunglasses.
And under toupees, weaves, wigs...
Moisturizes, nip, tucks and cosmetic masks!
Making the aging process a scary thought for anyone!

Me?
I care less about how I look.
Well...
Some days!
Just to set the record straight.

However...
For me,
It's the way I feel.
And some days I feel like I should be filmed for a documentary.
With bones cracking and other noises my body makes,
In the mornings when I rise to start my day.

I swear...
Birds I hear early in the morning chirping,
Stop when I get up.
They listen.
They make me aware,
My body is going through some changes!
Especially the ones who have the nerve to sit,
On my window sill and look in!
And they don't have to say anything,
For me to get the message.
I guess it is how this whole process is approached.
And how that is done...
That leaves a lasting impression!
128 · Feb 2021
Are Tongue
The tongue
Can utter sweet words
Of love and affection
Of praise and gratitude
To fill the mind.

The same tongue
Can become a sharp knife
Of cutting with words crude
Without drawing blood
To **** the mind.
128 · Nov 2018
Ten years later-Present day
“ Time to **** or get off the ***,
girl. Can’t keep her dangling after you forever. I’m getting any younger, and you need to get started on that next generation. China wall line must continue, I’m getting sick of waiting.”

Grandfather offers his unsolicited advice as my phone vibrates with a text. Having our regular morning meeting on his deck overlooking the gorge and Mountain.

“ Isn’t relevant to the conversation at hand.” I slide my phone off the table and turn off the ringer. Continuely ignoring the message from the other men’s I’ve been seeing occasionally for the last four months, Flips open a file with a stack of documents needing Commodore’s signatures.

Business comes first, last, always. Smith family way. Any women who spends time around me knows it, these meetings with my grandfather are sacrosanct. May be the heirs apparently to a multibillion-dollar empire, Commodore still officially holds the reins, every decision
128 · Nov 2018
Indepented women
Silent as the storm
Black as the nights sky
You never know when its coming
Temperature ranging from hot to cold
Moon swings come and they go
She can make you feel like the lowest **** on earth
Or make you feel like a King

We are in a league of our own
The take no mess take charge kind of woman
Sweet as honey beautiful as the sunset
She’ll drain you and leave you begging for more
With her smooth complexion hair just right
Dress to impress and the legs smooth as silk
Her take charge attitude with sophistication
Can work the room in any situation
Wither in the boardroom, fancy restaurant
or at home with family and friends

She can cut you down without missing a beat
Leave you standing there wondering what happen
A work of art in her own right
A independent women but can make you feel
Like you are needed always treating you like you the man
A way with words that will leave no room argument
Will cut so deep leave you grasping for breath
But you can never want to hurt this woman
Cuz she can turn on you like Cain turn on Abel

We are devious creatures and with a devious mind
And a women who is scorn is a dangerous combination
A woman with so much confidence
It will make you sit up and take notice
But at the same time she knows her place
As a women by your side
While all the while bringing home the bacon, cook it and serve it to you like royalty

Watch out cause she’s on the rise
As a strong independent black woman
Never fearing of the two strikes against her
In this mans world that we live in
So watch out, take notice and pay attention because she is unstopable
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