Silence is a lonely dream
Meant for others, but
Never
For
Me

I want to live
Where the sun never shines
Where the stars litter the endless sky
Serene and never-changing
To live alone
Where my thoughts can never find me

Its enjoyable sometimes
You're never alone
Feeling pride in being different
But after a while you lose trust
And start to wonder how many of those colors and sounds
Are really coming from yourself

My perfect pastel way of life
Smudged by emptiness and strife
Tread on, rained on
Nonstop
Just let me
Breathe

Empty
A numbness nobody understands
Blank and unfeeling
Yet somehow feeling everything

You say I'm fine and turn a blind eye
When my rashes start to bud
Guess your glasses are so rose tinted
You can't see the blood

You say you love me
I reply just the same
An auto reply
In this dumb old game