**** I hate commentary's
They ruin every show
That **** in real life too
They just make me want to be alone

I'm messy
My hair
My room
My mind
My writing goes where it wants
And takes me deep inside

Dreams are my escape
Writing is my death wish
My walls are always listening
I scream when they leave
And get lost in my head
I don't wish I was dead
I wish I was away
The background knows me best

Overwhelmed by silence
I'll fall asleep soon
Until then I will think
About why I feel blue

I think its beautiful how
the things that push us the furthest away
can bring us the closest together

It rains inside
When you lie
My body fills
Pass the lungs
And pass the heart
I start to drown and attempt to cry
But tears do not form
They stay inside
Maybe I will drown tonight
Not for real
But just inside
And I will ask myself tommorow
If I am still alive

Your heart was never made for two
I thought as I stared at the autumn blue

And when your brain starts to falter
Just sit by your altar
I like to alternate between something missing and
My heart seeps through
No blood is enough to do
What should I do
Im so confused
I hear words that were never used
I see thoughts that I wish I could not view
What is life
If life is always blue

I think so much
But I have dreams too
Of beautiful romance
And skies made of infinite blue
Times unknown become gradually new
The clustered thoughts fade
Until they are just about you
I can be the words to your smile
Together we can make our dreams come true

Where did the colour go
The words on this paper just show black and white

All I see is outlines on this path that I walk
Without you
The colour has faded
It feels endless
Until it is no longer
The beauty of life
Is that nothing can stay
One day I will be breathing
And the next my body will decay

Long ago my teacher said
'You a daydreamer'
My mind would leave this land
However, not long after my mind found it all too much

For many years
I would pretend
As if it was all okay
As If I never cared
But hatred grew
And love fell apart
A shallow mindset
Made an empty heart
I'd wish that life would come to an end
It would hurt too much to think again
Overtime my mind started to change
I started to smile
I cried again

When I look back at what my teacher said
I think maybe that's not so bad
To travel through time
To be famous
And loved
To never have to leave

My ink will tell you stories you would never believe

I hate how nothing makes sense
I put words together
My mind fears the past tense
My heart is so livid
I can't deal with this ****
I travel through time

The words do not always come
Sometimes they can not be wrote
They are just thoughts stuck in the mind
Burred in all that is lost

If we had wings would we fly away?
Would we leave the bed where we once lay
Into the light, if it has not yet faded away
I am tired of this darkness
It keeps me inside
It holds me, hostage
As if I was not alive
Calm it may be
It won’t let me dream
Only showing me nightmares and horrors that I wish I would not see

The coldness of your shallow eyes
Only light up when the tears have dried
And when the thoughts are burred so very deep
Your mind takes you where you want to be
Away from anger
Far away from fear
So far from reality
That you would have no need to care

Take me where your eyes desire
Your heart stopped beating long ago