My tears have grown tired.
My spirit has grown weary.
Lord, if you're there,
Please hear me.
Why have you brought me here ?
I suffer endlessly and tiredlessly.
If you've no further purpose for me and my life,
Please set me free.
You've left me here all by myself.
No one to love me,
Nor care for me.
I don't feel your presence.
I don't experience your love.
You don't hear my prayers.
You have forsaken me.
In this cold world.
Are you so cruel?
I've neither learnt nor gained anything,
From my suffering.
It's only made me doubt your existence more and more each day.
Release me.
I beg you.
For I don't know peace.
I don't know ease.
Save me, please.
Your mysterious ways,
Seem to lead only to misery.
Where is my savior?
Why does he not favor me,
And my family?
We are all doomed.
Sworn into poverty.
It breaks my heart to see my mother suffering.
Yet she continues to believe in you.
She thinks you're coming to save her.
But to me it seems like she will die poor.
Just as her mother did.
Who also believed,
And waited upon you faithfully.
Same as her mother before her.
Where are you really?
Tell me truthfully.
Why you leave us wandering in this ruse?
Your light shines upon the wicked.
You show them mercy.
You allow them to feast upon the weak and needy.
Exploit the vulnerable and profit.
And praise you, just as we do.
Does it amuse you?
Is this all a trick?
You bless the evil,
And curse the righteous.
All for a promise of a kingdom,
No one living has seen.
Why have you brought us here?
Was it to brush your holy ego?
Many will say this is blasphemy.
Blasphemy is the injustice of this world we were brought into.
With no consent.
I envy the atheist.
For no one created him,
Only to torment him.
I envy the dead.
For they have seen the truth of our fate.
I envy God.
For he cares for no one.

Good day, Rock bottom.
Not very pleased to meet you.
It seems,
I've hit you.
My apologies.
It was not intentional.
Please excuse me,
Kind sir.
Would you be so kind as to,
Show me the way out of here?

Did God really bring us all here to suffer and endure?
What on earth was He thinking?

Make two fists.
Slit my wrists.
Feeling lost in a wreck.
Slash my neck.
Free me from suffering.
My life, I give as offering.
End me.
Free me.
For life has no meaning.
Light has ceased beaming.
Where is God?
I am null and void.
I don't belong.
I sing this sad song.
So I make two fists,
Slit my wrists.
Into the darkness I drift.
With my heart at a rift.
Should I live?
Or should I die?
So, I make two fists.
Imagine I've slit my wrists.
Nothing makes any sense.
The world is dense.
I wish someone would slit my wrists.
While I make two fists.
It's not death I fear.
It's living, constantly in fear.

I can't wait to die
No one will care
Neither will I
Greetings, death, my dear

I yearn for your cold embrace
I wish to quietly disappear
And gaze upon your void face
Pull me in, draw me near

For I have no one
Free me from forsakeness and fear
I am all alone
Release me, death, my dear

I can't wait to die
No one will care
Neither will I
Greetings, death, my dear

Things I can never tell you in person:
1. I love you. I always have.
2. I find you goldly gorgeous.
3. I am awfully attracted to you.
4. I miss you all the time.
5. I think of you all the time.
6. I dream of you every single night.
7. I fantasize of your smile every time I feel anxious, lonely , sad or happy.
8. I wish you loved me.
9. I would do anything for you.
10. I want to have your children.
11. I manifest you every time I see 11:11 the clock.
12. I wish you were mine and I was yours.
13. I whisper your name in my sleep.

I love you.
I will always love you.
I hope that one day, I can tell you.
If I was on my way to be with death, you would be my last stop.
I would finally tell you, with nothing to lose.
No fear of the aftermath of being rejected by you.
But for now, this will do.
I will continue to love you from a distance.
Until my heart can't bear to love you any longer.
And all the butterflies you give me have evacuated my stomach.
And I am dead.
Or, until I meet someone who will love me the same.
And even then, I am not certain I would let you go.
I love you.