I finally let go.
Thank God.
I just hope I can stay strong
I
Don't
Need
You.

I finally feel free.

How many times will I be stung by the same bee, pricked by the same thorn. How many times will I ride the high to only crash and burn, how many times will I cry and vow to be better, be stronger, independent. How many times before I leave you?

I'm jealous
I feel it festering inside me
A rotting stench
That excuses

Lateness
Forgetfulness
Tiredness
Madness

I'm jealous
And bitter
Really **** bitter

***** it all up
Because, can I admit

I'm pretty ****** jealous.

He's gone.
That's it.
You loved too hard,
Cared too much,
Rambled too long.

He's gone.
And that's it.

Heavy handed return
Bitter and selfish
Butter and shellfish

No reason in rhyme
No meaning in time

Let it all burn.

Just when I thought things were getting better
You snap.
A twist in words
Or slip in tone

And snap.

A word misheard,
Or left unsaid
Or said
Because either could make you

Snap

I never knew what to say
Or not,
And when or where

Dancing to the tune of your voice
Slower here,
Gentler there.
Always cautious,
Hovering over the faint line of
Pain or love.

How do people decide to
Stop loving

When do they decide
No, that's enough
I'm picking up my feelings
These strings so intricately woven
Threaded into your life
My love, in your words, habits, time

I'm picking up and leaving

When do they decide that
Time can be rewritten
The past, that was the present
Loved, that was love and loving
is nothing

How can emotional investment,
the greatest expense,
dissolve

How do you go from loving to
nothing?

How do you go from loving to
Hate?

It's inhumane.