I've always known
That I'd die in a car accident
Someway
Somehow,

And beneath the
Silent flicks of lightning
Stretching across
A plaster sealed sky,

The world stood still,
Molded out of clay
And gasping for air
Like a drizzled flower petal
Suspended in time,

For a moment so fleeting
It nearly escaped me,
I hoped some drunken
Speeding car
Would smash right into me,

For once not because of the
Complexity and dismemberment of it all,

But because I was okay with dying
In some moment where it all made sense.

i just want to feel good
i want to be positive about my body
but go ahead
say i look like a ******* when i wear something that makes me feel good
go ahead
tell me that smart, nice girls don’t dress like that
go ahead
degrade me, make me feel ugly and fat
go ahead
make me feel like all the work i’ve gone through to loose weight the past five months was for nothing
go ahead
just know i won’t stay around
i won’t be here forever
when i’m 17, i’m out
i don’t care where i go but anywhere is better than here, in this small room, in this small house, in this small town that is known **** and sociopaths.
so go ahead.
make me leave
go ahead
keep pushing me away
go
ahead

Can i still believe in a happy ending story?
That someday my prince will come
And save me from a cruel reality
Altough i'm not pretty
Also don't have money

Can i still believe in fairytale?
That someday my wish come true
After all the mess i have
i will have my own castle
With my beloved inside