Meandher


I haven’t got time to be wasting time;
More determined than ever to live this life right.
No more mistakes, no chance of letting up.
I am a rocket of burning gasoline;
Light me up and I will fly above.
My one way ticket proves there is no return,
To the man I used to be;
I have left him behind, with memories of her.


I have got to live faster, learn faster,
Learn how to become better;
More important now, than ever.
It could be forever.
I am no longer knocking on opportunities door,
I am running through the walls,
Like a wrecking ball; destiny calls.
I was smashed into oblivion,
Caught every single piece.
Rearranged it all before I hit the ground,
Then I offered you my peace.
I rearrange the words and put them out from me again.
I rewrote the script, going to make it my own way.
Get a better job that pays.
Find a better way of life somehow.
Find a woman as I am running up into the clouds.


Horizon calls so I leap into the sky.
Like a bullet train, I am moving faster than ever.
Going to find myself a way,
To find a better word – Zephyr.


I want to be amazing, so that is what I have to be.
Be good to me and I’ll keep it friendly.
Stand in my way or try to hold me back,
I’ll fold the edges of the universe and draw a new map.
Time to be through the stars immediately.
Time travel; space monkey.
Are you following me?  
Then hold on tight because I have got to zoom!

Go faster!  


Going to charge into the future,
With a trail of spoken words left in my wake.
Words that mattered then, matter now;
Why else would I say it?  For my sake?
No more holding back, open mind, open eyes,
Life is a one way track, like a train on rails,
With no stops en route;
I break!
Through the sound barrier with a sonic the hedgehog boom!
And I shake the room, into view,
Waking up statues.
Pick an expression and stick with it.
I ain’t coming back anytime soon.
Just passing through, from me to you,
I bid you adieu.


Step one, step two,
On through the thousandth step,
Like an ostrich running,
In a sun-bright morning,
I’ll burst into view and take your breath away,
I’ll pass right through; I’ll see you again someday,
Like a blur of a man that you think you recognize,
But that man ain’t me anymore;
I have disappeared…goodbye.


I have evolved constantly, in every way;
A new page, a fresh face, a new day.
Everything is getting better man.
Peace, love and empathy ain’t just going away.


I have no time to say it better,
Better, better change;
Improve the person you are.
A woman with class, intelligence, beauty
And one fine…laugh.  Ha, ha.
See I want the best that I can have
And if that means looking back at the history of me,
Then okay; I’ll find a way, maybe.
Adjust the car mirror,
I only know my freeway to loving you.
Stars in my head and the motor city in my heart,
My feet are spinning faster than anybody ever knew.


I leap over hurdles
And with a three step hop,
I am forever dodging curveballs,
With a dot, dot, dot.


I am running home,
Got to get there soon,
So put on Ok Go!
For the one moment and enjoy the show;
I ain’t got anything better to do.


I ain’t got time to make a video of science;
I’m writing word after word, after word…you should try it.
I know one day, this will all stop…

But I ain’t done all this writing yet,
So I will carry on;
‘til the break of dawn when I see my home
My eagle-eyes see her smiling,
Waiting for me,
With me;
She tells me “you have no need to be alone.”


I will raise my kids to know write from songs,
‘til I have no words left inside my head,
Until the day I forget.

I will find a way for them to see…
When love is a reality,
Life becomes a dream.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Girl Next Door


There’s a girl who lives next door to me;
I see her every day.
She could be a model or a beauty Queen,
But she never looks my way.


She walks up and down the same old street,
With this look upon her face,
That tells me something is not quite right;
But what it is, I just couldn’t say.


All I know is, she is popular,
Because every day she gets into a different car.
Some say she used to be a talented actress,
She came here to become a star.


I wish I could give her the compassion she lacks.
They say all she knows is how to lie on her back;
But I can see in her something so hidden.
A beauty so stunning, it’s my little secret.


They call her a *****; I call her an angel.
They use her all day; her life is in danger.
But still every day she stands on her corner;
No love in her eyes, no love from her mother.
No hope left inside, she’s dead to the world,
As I walk past her again, the girl next door.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

My soul is hurting


Looking at the world with open eyes;
There is too much to despise.
If all you see is truth in lies,
Then love will break your heart, as it did mine.


My soul is hurting, my heart is sad and depression is my darkness.
I can no longer carry on living with this.
Love is light, love brings me happiness and love is the only cure.
Love is gone, love no longer exists; I no longer go through doors.


I walk the roads alone at night,
With no hope left in sight.
I have fallen too many times for no love,
That I no longer head towards any light.


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Should I stay or should I go now?


The same old people are here again,
Selling their soul’s in the name of love.
Under the spotlight they have a beautiful face,
But as the light moves on without them,
They do not like what they have become.


The beautiful people need the light to shine upon them,
For all the world to see.
People like me we only sink into the background,
Happy to never be seen.


I cannot face another beautiful face,
So full of false smiles and a made up beauty.
I must hide behind this face; I hide away from love,
They think it is insecurity;
But I am secure in the knowledge that I am no deep thinking muse.
I am no thing of beauty;
I am nothing like you.


The beautiful people shine in any light,
While I waste my life;
I waste my time.
I fall down into my broken mind and simply turn out the light.


Put me out of your mind,
I am not waiting in line to be loved.
I already know that I will never be good enough.
Leave me be, here in my own misery,
Or I will never be able to see the vision of love I am waiting for…
As she finds me I hear her siren song;
Love is endlessly calling out for me.
She is unique; I am obsolete,
But she is reason I have not yet walked out of that door…


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Be aware


Be careful what you wish for, for you have fire in your heart.
The cravings that have driven you on to chase after stars,
Could be the final nail that they drive through your chest.
Beware of witches selling stones that turn out to be worthless.


If all you want lands in your hands pure,
Then how can that be real?
Love is a thing worth fighting for.
Only evil ‘lovers’ are allowed to steal.


When great perfection takes a life time to find
And must be fought for like woman or man,
Will you stand up tall and never mind,
Or will you crumble into the sand?


Find love before it is too late,
Or walk away and live your days thinking of the grave.
Money comes and goes and life is never great,
But with your heart on your sleeve and her heart in your mind,
You can live to see the better days.


(C)2020 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Bee my guest


This is where you will nest Humble.  Your own bedroom.
Can I move the furniture?  Bee my guest.  This is your room.
And you can do whatever you want to make it feel like home.
Welcome to the family Humble; I have to go and bee a drone.


I will leave you in peace to get used to the place.
Thank you both for all you have done for me in such a way.
You are one of us now Humble.
You will never need to feel as if you are all alone.
You have a family now Humble and this will always bee your home.


Humble was quiet happy to bee alone sometimes,
With so many people always buzzing around outside,
But as he awoke the following day,
He was glad to bee in good company
And as his new mother approached his door,
She heard him say…

I guess it will bee ok…


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

It’s good to bee home.


Home at last; how I have missed you all.
It has been so long since I was here.
Many days have passed;
Has it really been a year,
Since we last set eyes upon each other?
Oh wonderful home…
Oh!  Hello Queen Mother.


The Prince has returned to tell you of a future,
Where we leave this land and head to another.
I have found us a place to which we can migrate,
Where the sugar is plentiful…our new home awaits.


We must inform the others of our decision to depart.
Winter is approaching; it is time for our mission to start.
The scouts must bee sent to gather information about the destination.
There is a universe of wonders out there just waiting for us;
I have seen it on my vacation.


I have met many kind and wonderful folks,
On my journey around this world
And I have stood where our ancestors spoke.
I do believe I have discovered a place where we can finally rebuild.


There are other hives there;
Other communities to trade with
And in this land of sugar and honey,
We can all raise your brood of kids,
To become bees of great stature and substantial presence.
We will never go hungry.
Start the celebrations; we can all begin to dance
And sing our songs until we are ready to go.
The hive must start packing; we must head to our new home.


This hive is beginning to crumble;
This is no longer a place of bumble.
There is a new home waiting for us,
Beyond the edge of what we thought we knew.
Have faith in me, the time of change is here
And if you still do not believe in me,
Then send others to confirm my truth.


Our friends and family are waiting for us to arrive;
Please give the order to prepare to leave the hive.
Will we all wait until we are nearly all gone?
Or will we move as one…?
I think it is time for us all…
To fly to our new home.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Maturity will set you free


Where I once was blind, I now can see
And maybe you should pity me.
For a youth I am no longer,
For a man I have become.


Now I am much wiser and stronger than you could realize;
For I am now deafened,
To the distractions which keep you blind.
For my eyes have been opened
And fulfillment I can now find.


I was once like you, at the end of my childhood,
But now I have matured into adulthood
And no longer like a child, can I act.
I must act my age and become a wise man.


For the things a child craves,
Are merely trinkets dangled before us.
Now I see your gold and diamonds,
Are simply copper underneath.


And the things you lust after,
Are merely the first stepping stone;
Whilst I seek the waters edge and a release I have chosen.
For the choices I have made, have lead me to the other side,
Whilst you’re splashing in the water,
Desperately clinging onto your stone.


But there I have been and through time found my feet;
Now I walk through the darkness, with no need of light to see.
I no longer fear slipping and falling into the water;
For I have been here before, so seek a new path to follow.


I seek a better tomorrow to truly begin to live free.
For now I have escaped these childhood manacles,
That have entrapped me
And blinded me, but now I can see,
That I am now free,
To disagree
And maybe to teach.


In an effort to give you enlightenment;
So one day you too will be set free.



(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Pretty liar


Set my heart on fire;
Make me burn with desire.
So beautiful, others need not apply.
I try so hard to find comfort in your lies.


I need passionate to match my passion.
I want to get you undressed, so wear a red dress.
Use your seduction;
Leave me helpless.


Entice me into your open arms,
With promises of love.
Forever calling to me, but never seen so far;
I am still so far away from ‘loved’.


Link us together with golden bands.
I cross my heart that I will love you more and more.
I have so much love but nobody who understands;
Be my parachute to catch me when I fall.


You leave me spinning three sixty;
Evaporate me.
Let me become a vital part of your totality.
Hold me closer so that I can ooze into you.
You and I are one and the same; let us become ‘Us two’.


Speak a truth never before mentioned.
Confess your love so I can tell you my truth.
Be my pretty liar, my addiction.
You have my lust and all of my love… now what am I to do?


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Magic Stardust Nymphomaniac


This is simply my way of telling you,
My love for drugs has left me lost; but now I see through.
Deep into your soul I see in you,
All of the things I need for a love so true.
Unhappy not to have been here sooner; to aid you.


Give me love and take all of mine;
It belongs only to you, love of time.
Love of now and forever?  This is not my,
Future to know; maybe my destiny to behold.  I pray.


For in your eyes I see only love;
In your words I hear only trust.
Tempting, but scary; paranoia caused by drugs.
Temporary insanity, fades away to say goodbye to us.


If I lose you before I hold you, then I cannot just smile
And say she was just another girl, for I know myself to be a liar.
Set my soul on fire and burn all my hopes and dreams;
Sacrifice my trust to you I shall, if you would only beg it of me.


Complete devotion?  Are you ready?
Showing every possible emotion?  This is not easy.
But in you I see Heaven, so please tell me I belong to you;
Tell me your love belongs only to me and I shall always stay true.


I shall never need to leave, if you give me all I need;
I shall always need only you and a joint of ****.
My need for ****, is a part of me;
Like the funky *** beat,
My heart dances to when you are here to give me release.


It’s happy, it’s ecstatic, it’s jumping back flips in the sea;
Like a dolphin, swimming circles of celebration, or feeling ****.
My heart wants to be with yours, entwined in love and magic;
It has already been bruised and broken, its story is tragic.
But in you I see something, unlike any other;
You shine so bright and blind this brother.
All I see is you, all else fades away;
To be cast away or saved for another day.


Talk to me in a minute, I have found Heaven and I need it within;
To see me through this life of mine, because I can’t live without.
So inside out, I believe, I doubt,
I wish, I lust, I could maybe love;
If she could only ever speak the truth to me and truly love…
Me.  That’s all I ask.
Stay faithful and love me;
Then I shall always love you, my Magic Stardust Nymphomaniac.


(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Naturally Evil


I have given up on love, I’m done.
I have seen enough.
I watch people claiming to be in love,
Living ordinary lies.
I see people pass each other and genuinely fake a smile,
As they tear apart each other’s lives.


I’ve seen the mighty heart fall to the weak,
In the hands of the cruelest defeat.
The hand of the person they are holding hands with,
Is the hand that will strangle them with a kiss.


I’ve seen mountain’s moved as living proof.
I’ve seen the worthlessness of this cause.
I have been a man with truth absolute.
Love is a nice idea, for you and yours.


The reality is, it is yet to exist.
I have seen ‘true’ love disappear.
The oceans of tears that have been cried,
Couldn’t stop the break-up of the year.


I have sunken beneath the waves,
And seconds later been replaced.
A rendezvous was so easily arranged…
I saw it on your face.


Left hand waving goodbye, right hand dialing.
Left hand blowing a kiss, right hand lying.
Beckoning and greeting as you are leaving.
I have seen them come and go, believe me.


The buttons on the dress,
The fall of Adonis.
The Fairy Princess,
And now gone is,
All the pointless love!


Earthquakes roar, there is nothing more.
No rise, no fall, just dust.


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The love plan


You can’t plan for love; you don’t decide who you get.
You can want someone and keep their picture in your head
And you can know that the two of you would be good together,
And maybe they could be the one you need to be with;
But you cannot plan for love, marriage and kids.
The spark is either gone or it is lit.


If they ignite your passion and then your heart,
Then there is a chance it will never fall apart;
But if they are your other half in decades to come,
Or if they are someone that you once loved,
Only destiny can decide what is meant for you.
Love is a pin stuck in a globe;
A place you are yet to view.


Maybe it will be better than it looked in the brochures,
That drew you together in the first place.
Maybe it won’t work, or be replaced with an unfamiliar, or familiar face.
A person you may have imagined may suddenly appear out of the blue.
Anything is possible when two hearts attach
And there is no turning back once love is within you.


Love will burn so hard, that you are left feeling starved,
Of a desire to be anywhere other than in their arms.
It will change the person you are; alone no more.
Have you been thunderstruck by love?


Colliding stars which explode together to create a new system.
Hearts begin to beat a new rhythm.
A new way of thinking.
Be sure not to miss them.
The light that appears around the one;
The two stars are far away from being together,
Until they become a sun.


Then forever more they will shine a vision of happiness.
The best version yet.
The best version there is…
A lovers kiss.
And when they shine together, others shine,
Stars alight and align.
The original big bang,
Brought to you anew.
Love changes your view.


We were all dust and bones until we find home.
Built from particles and atoms.
Molecules gathered together and now we are together in this moment;
No longer alone.
You are Eve.
Let me be you Adam.
I wish you were love,
Because love is all I know.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

A tear for your love


Love will end, as it begins.
If the passion of arguing is what originally drew you in,
Then so it will be, as love explodes…in the end.
You will lose your will, to keep on trying…to pretend.


If the lure of adultery,
Was your first thought, so wrong for me,
Then an affair is how your love will end;
All that which could have been, never to be again.


If you were friends at first and eventually love bloomed,
Then you will part with such sweet sorrow;
You will not be consumed,
With jealousy, or hateful words.
You will each realise you have reached the stop sign
And you will each go your own way with true feelings heard.


What will be, will be and what feels wrong will go wrong.
Have you never listened to the billions of love songs?
We are all beginners, until we become winners
And when you see the checkered shirt flag waving,
You will either have found your way,
Or you will be left lost for words,
As you each sit in silence, eating your dinner.


We all ask for direction in our search for love,
But nobody can tell you, which love will guarantee you feel good.
Only you can decide which love feels right…
I will still believe in true love,
No matter how many times,
Love leaves me to cry.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Forever and ever


The best of me isn’t worthy of the worst of you.
It’s clear to see I will never be what you need me to.
If all you are is in my dreams, then I need to leave to find my reality.


When you sing high, I mumble so low,
For I am still waiting down here for wings to arrive,
Whilst you have a history with the sky.
And me?  This mere mortal condemned to walk alone,
Will never have a place inside you heart or your home.


You want me to visit, but be gone by the morning,
While I want to hear the wedding bells ringing.
Singing my song for your ears only, leaves you snoring
And your temporary leaves me to all my sinking.


And so I will go and build a home;
A place where I must live alone.
Until the time comes that I have all that which I need,
Except the heart of my true loved one; where is she?


When she arrives I will be ready.
Done with waiting and dating; ready to go steady
And a bond will be made that can never be severed;
Loves hand tied to love forever and ever.


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Living in Hell


I’ve never been one to believe in myself;
I’ve never tried to seek any help.
I’ve just sat around and lived in Hell;
Now it’s time I made it matter and did something else.


I’ve lived too long in sin;
The fire rains down on your Heaven in flames.
I am not, or never will be, all I could have been,
Because I have apathy for everything and I embrace the pain.


She is deep inside of me; I cannot be set free.
She eats away at me; I need myself to be,
Gone and long forgotten.
Left for dead, going rotten.


Hell is all I have ever known and all I feel with you;
Break my mind to pass the time, because I have become unglued.
Rip my heart from out of my chest and leave me here to rot;
Loving you cost me my soul and your lies are all it took.


Now I know I’ve got to get away;
I’ve got to escape, to get out of this Hell you have made.
Because I have become somehow, the sacrificial cow.
We are nothing when we are us, so leave here now.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Brighter than the stars at night


Nature is colour, the vastness of space,
The roll of the thunder, the streams gentle waves.
Goodbye fellow being, be gone to the lost.
Cut down by life, we are still counting the cost,
And we may never know what we could have had together,
But as I stare into the Heaven’s, all I can think about is the weather
And the seas that rise and the ice bergs that fall.
Goodbye fellow being; goodbye to you all.


Man has been here and left his footprint forever.
Forever changed is this land, crushed beneath tire like a feather,
That no longer flies on the wings of a dove.
Goodbye fellow being.
Goodbye to the love.
Goodbye to this place that we like to call ours.
Goodbye to the planet and hello to the stars.


I am waving a little early, but there is no past.
It is all gone.  This little light is lost, to being out last.
Along pavements and roads to nowhere, I have walked with them all;
That is why I can only stare at the floor
And hope to see through, but this city gives me no view.
Just architecture, nature, Circle of Life has a puncture.
And we are at a junction…Do we choose right?  
I can no longer see the stars through the city lights...


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Love is my religion


Love is my religion;
It asks for no more.
It is what it is;
Nothing is for sure.


It may not exist,
But imagine if it did!
You could be my Queen and I your King
And in a different dimension,
This joke could become serious thinking.


Thinking about love;
Ah the delusions.
Another delirious fool painting illusions.
Surely there is no such a thing as love at first sight?  
That would not be right.
It’s right where you stand, where you are, what you see.
I am here, all yours, if you want me.


Is it love at first sight,
Or love on twelfth night?
Or is it twenty, maybe fifty, or maybe the thousandth time?
Is it a year or more and who are you to tell me how to worship?
Get out of here and go back to your version of it.


It does not exist inside my head… yet.
There is no chance of conversion.
Try your best to convert me, you are preaching to the converted,
But our ideas are very different,
Because I’m worth it and you are a lesser version.


My soul already sold in exchange for hope.
Pandora has awoken; I’m a cloud of smoke,
A conjuror's trick, this love thing stinks!
Until you have it
And then it is magic!


(C)2019 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Waiting to be found


It breaks my heart to see and feel love,
It’s so overwhelming to cope with.
I try to feel nothing then I see how much,
I need to believe in love and hope to believe.


We need to have something to believe in,
Be it religion or love or destiny.
Whatever you believe or hope for in life,
Love is real and will not be doubted by me.


Love is the reason I wake up every day,
It is my lifelong search for happiness that drives me forward in hope.
It doesn’t matter if you believe in true love,
Just heed the words I say because nobody knows,
What will happen tomorrow.


Our destiny is already written
And when you love it cannot be denied.
You know it is the truth to you and they can see it in your smile.


Love is all you need to make the world go around.
I love love; love loves me.
I am waiting to be found.

(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Survival of the fittest


A bird on a branch, reflecting on existence;
Realizing everything it thought it knew about mortality,
Was really just how to show its own ignorance.
No possibility of death as it rides upon the wind so free;
Flying so high above the land,
That nothing could bring this day to an end
And there is still so much more to see.


An idea of creation so profound that it seemed the only truth,
But all it knew has come apart
And it has lost faith in all that which it views.
Everything has changed in the blink of an eye
And a stitch in time is not saving; it is slipping and sliding,
As the bird falls down from way up on high.


The friend it saw only yesterday has disappeared from its mind’s eye.
Gone in a second of time, its wings no longer flap
And the rotting flesh is more or less a piece of magpie pie.
Gone from its sight; no conversation in the morning light.
No dawn chorus, no warning; no more soaring.
Just a ghost of a life that has passed it by.


Eaten alive by the cat in the night;
The bird that no longer sings is no longer spotted flying high.
For that is that; it has no goodbyes,
So the bird rises from its branch and flies,
Up into in the great blue sky.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Question.


Do we like rock music because we are depressed?
Or are we depressed because we listen to rock?

Do we smoke **** because we are depressed?
Or are we depressed because we smoke ****?

Do we smoke **** to feed our need
Or do we simply have a need to smoke ****?

Do we shoot guns, because we like to destroy?
Or do we destroy, because guns are easy to shoot?

Are we bullied, because we are weak?
Or are we weak, because we allow ourselves to be bullied?


(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I can’t get no.


Cure my boredom; give me freedom.
Release me from this demonic kingdom.
For far too long I have been stuck in a rut;
Going nowhere fast and all because I was in love.
Now I have found another and lost my romantic voice.
She took my confidence by kissing other boys.
I hope you are not bound to your independence,
Because if you fall in love, you will be sentenced,
To truly believe in a thing called love.
Then one day it will explode in a silent phone…good luck.


I confess my desire to see her undressed
And if she doesn’t reject me, she does what naturally comes next.
She says she loves me and then she cheats like the others.
Why is everybody the same, why do I only find pathetic lovers?
So unworthy in intelligence and integrity.
I wish I could die so I could escape the monotony.


She is the reason for my self-hatred.
Who allows her to be happy, when I am so ill-fated?
If I could love just a single person,
I could release a billion inner-demons
And I could find a way to be free,
Instead of being trapped with the same old misery.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Just another day.


Another day of hurt;
Another day of pain;
Another day of sorrow;
Just another day.


Another day of heartache;
Another day of love walking away;
Another day of tears;
Just another day.


Another day in Hell;
Another day of feeling the same;
Another sad tale of woe;
Just another day.


Another pathetic poem;
Another day of going insane;
Another day of feeling jealous;
Just another day.


Another day to end it all;
Another suicidal thought;
Another day of rain;
Just another day.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Zombie mind


In the middle of this night, zombie mind.
I struggle to complete a line that rhym…
Pegasus; horses for courses.
Run a pantomime race using daisies for shoelaces.


A world apart, after being thrown out of a bar.
Fields afar; I sleep under the stars.
Saturday through Sunday;
These…are…the…good times!
Monday to Friday,
I am oh so tired of this poetic production line.
This process must be worth it…


Country music?  I prefer to leave it
And find a better drum kit, with a louder hi-hat hit!
Prince became a symbol of our time.
Cinderella’s thimble, sewing needle;
Cotton on a reel…a dress made by mice.


Eyes are closing, no more movies showing.
Find your own way to see.  
Only you know where you are going…


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Pit of Deceit


There is a pit of deceit, full of lines you speak

And if I try to escape, you drag me back in.

With unbroken promises, at the present time;

But history shall repeat itself once more, as shall the fact you lie.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Something


I want you to be something you can never be;
Something you could never feel, deep inside of me.
I want you to see something; something you could never see.
Something you could never dream,
That’s always been inside of me.


Something someone said,
Stuck in my mind and affected my head.
Something someone should have been,
Fades away with apathy.
Something you will never be,
Is truly into me.


Now all I can do is learn to hate something.
Something or anything; nothing with integrity.
No dislike of apathy, for it has no reaction;
All I hate is all I love, for all it has is what I need.
Passion, reaction, satisfaction;
You used to give me all of these.


But you will never be anything,
When we could have been everything!
We chose to be nothing real.
We could still chose to be something,
If only we could remember how to feel.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

What I love


Your soul is within your eyes.
The colour, the pupil, the lens to focus the light.  
Your visions are put together like a family photograph.
Click!  You stole my soul through your camera lens.
Give it back!  


I’m no Demon;
I am Human-e, that is for certain,
Because if I had the power to change the world for the better,
We would all live in paradise, forever and ever.


I would make every Human marry their equal
And a self-destruction button would be activated,
If they were ever unfaithful.
Spontaneous combustions like stars falling to the ground.
Everyone is guilty; everybody cheats love if they are fooling around.
So I would be the last man standing,
Before you my love, speaking the truth; being genuine.


Please accept that you are all that I need.
If at the moment you feel differently,
It doesn’t mean you should just ignore my true feelings.


Yes it is possible someone loves more than you do.
No it is impossible for me to cheat on you.


Leave you I will, if I think you have strayed.
Wait for proof?  Never again.
Drove me insane, it did for sure;
So I cannot be your *****.
Use another body; anybody.
Just please do not use mine.
My broken heart stares up sadly, at my broken mind.


My soul is shattered!
I…
I love…
I love y…

It doesn’t matter…

…what I love.


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Heart-Shaped Needle


The female form is perfect,
So why get a tattoo on your heart?
If you need to cover it up with art,
Then that is your wrong choice;
But now I am so far away from using my voice,
When in all other circumstances,
You and I would be dancers.


Waist could have been in arm, both totally naked,
Looking into each other’s eyes, never wanting to look away.
Now your eyes only see me walking away, I’m saying “**** it!”
‘tis such a shame that I cannot stay
And ask you out, because without doubt,
I could fall in love with you in all other realities,
But not in this one,
Because you want to get a new tattoo done.
So I am gone, lost in your painted sun.
I wish I could see past it,
But you and I are not the right fit.


If only I liked it, then we could unite,
But I have my own life and I live my own mind
And it tells me “no.”, keep on walking;
Go and watch the next show,
For she is in need of a pin cushion, jigsaw man, painted blue,
So you will never greet her ****
And say how do?
Even though she is so **** cute!


You only meet eighty percent of what you wanted,
So all is lost to nearly,
When she could have been the perfect fit.
Kama Sutra,
It sure was nice to meet ya.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Worthwhile


Your smile is a sonic boom, it blows me away.
I didn’t have a wow moment,
There is no word that can say,
How amazed I was,
I was lost,
I was gone.
I ceased to exist and I was reborn eternally,
In a picture book image of our first encounter;
The second I realised your beautiful smile.
You stopped me being a doubter.
I hope I have found my divinity.
You are an angel for sure,
Because no other could shine so bright;
Try as they might.


If you blew a kiss a thousand ships would be launched
And I would be found on each of them,
Pining beneath every sail
And waiting to return to your beauty,
As soon as possible,
Without fail.
For I would break as you faded away,
But my heart you would keep with you.
It would remain beating,
For hope,
For the truth,
For love,
For you,
For one more chance to see your beautiful smile.
Mona has got nothing on you.


And if I never return to the land on which you walk,
Then I will only ever pass through endless doors,
So empty of desire, so full of second choices,
Extravagance useless,
Gone will be the memories.
For if I cannot love one hundred percent,
Then I am surely dead.
Such love is never truly worthy,
Of roses that float like ghosts in the centre of a cemetery,
Never falling or fading, just staying afloat like a life jacket,
Washed away on the waves of goodbye.
You are the air I need to breathe, I am a discarded crisp packet
And I will float wherever your words send me.
Whether that be stuck in thorny branches or flying high.
Up or down,
You set me free.


Within your centre, am I welcome to venture?
May I be so bold before I am in need of dentures?
You must invite me in if I am ever to enter.
Inside your heart I would be sure to find only diamonds,
Built to protect and last, in your voice I hear violins
And so you must keep yourself safe until you can truly be seen,
As I see you now in my dreams.
Holding me,
Kissing me,
Loving me,
Missing me.


And if it never becomes,
Then tear away the sun!
Pull the mountains asunder like thunder and bury me six feet under!
For life without beauty is not worth living.
A life without love is no life at all.
Life without you would only be worth keeping,
If there was a speck, of a morsel, of a chance at revival.
All things fall…

But then they rise once more…

And if sight-seers and seers became transfixed in your eyes,
They would surely elide all the lies, for they are the never-truths,
That could never be spoken to you.
Only love is welcome inside my heart.
I am surreal; you are a work of art.


All onlookers would not want to miss,
Something they could never have seen before!
Such a smile!
So beautiful!
So enamored am I with the lines that you draw;
I am all yours…
I am…
So yours…


All dreamers,
Would use all their effort,
To try and become kings;
Just to be rich enough to see your smile.  
I hope you leave them dreaming.
For if they saw you, as I see now my Yen,
Then you would make all the broken hearts believe again.
You make life seem worthwhile.
The biggest secret you hide is your smile.


When the gone are once more at one with this place we call Earth,
They will find you, hopefully with me
And they will thank you,
For helping them to once more believe
And allowing them to find their own Her.


A pretender to the throne upon which you sit,
So they are welcome to take away all the fugazi,
For I would only sell my soul for an original print.
I’d rather be with you,
Than be lost to the empty vessels of those who just want me…


I think you need me, I know I need you.
I think we could be; I hope you do too.
I know if you could just speak, we could make it through.
I know, if you and I became happy,
We could be whatever you want us to be.


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We are the lovers


We are the lovers; we are a dying breed.
We trust in love and we truly believe.
We are the lovers and we know what we need;
We need romance to be real, so we can set our hearts free.


Go have your affairs; we will stick to one love.
One heart for one heart, ‘til death do us part.
You are the parasites with poisoned tongues;
Leave love to the lovers, because worthless is all the love you have
And we pity what you are.


Leave the cheaters to be cheated out of an honest kind of love;
Their love is empty of feeling and they deserve nothing less.
We want true love and a relationship that is forward;
They want *** with anyone that they can get.


Their bitter love has a sour taste;
The idea of love has been left disgraced.
Love is pure and adultery is infected,
When wrapped around a ring-finger…

What a waste.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

A designer life


We need food, drink, shelter,
Warmth and comfort.
This is the end of the list.
I am done with it.


The medicine is free.
The hospital’s a delight.
The bills are paid; I have a light.
Nicotine is optional; as are gifts.
Money is a concept, we use to live;
But when you do not want or need anything,
You are only holding onto empty pieces of paper.
I did not vote for this.


You buy things you do not need,
With money you do not have,
To impress the people you do not like.
Music is free.
I do not watch TV.
Love is free…
A design for life.


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Groan (up)


Age is a shame when it comes to love.
It reaches a point where you just give up,
But the heart’s desire keeps setting on fire,
Every time you meet someone who lifts you higher.


I’m feeling too old to love her or flirt.
She desires another and I am left to hurt.
My heart wants to love whilst she just wants fun.
I wish I could, once more be young.


I want marriage.  She wants to party.
I’ve had enough, while she’s just getting started.
I could be right for her as she is wrong for me.
She is so beautiful.  She is my need.


I have to move on, be gone!  I’m no fun.
A setting sun remembers being young.
My thoughts haven’t changed,
Still wanting the same.
Marriage is the way,
But not today.


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Welcome to Far Town


On what forsaken endless shore,
Is grief a friend where Devil’s crawl?
Does all we have seen have no worth at all?
What end of time disaster is fate asking for?
Did you not know the signs all align
And all is lost to banshee’s cries?


When all hope is gone, you hold tight the cross,
You wore around your neck, which now you hold aloft.
Trying to ward off any evil spirits.
Do you think Jesus would really want to see it?


All your enchantments are meaningless.
Your self-defence lacks being blessed.
A whispered prayer, no faithful dead.
When Death approaches you begin the test.
The end is here, there is no sanctuary.
Deeds written on parchment, treated as sanctity.


Agony shall surely rip a mind apart.
No safe-way found in a billion stars.
No guiding light coming from near or far,
Can save a soul so below par.
Your purity was bargained for;
Tempted away in days of being poor.
Faithless messages lost to your,
Choices made in days of yore.


When all was taken and ambition was gone,
You signed your name, your kingdom come.
Your kingdom gone, life ebbs and flows.
Did you choose to stay the course, or did you take the gold?
Take a hold of your consequences.
Life is not about happy endings.


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Evolve to control.


When I have written my thousandth poem,
My work will be done.
Things will change after that
And I will make every poem I write after that, better than this one.


I will strive for perfection
And dedicate more time to each poem I write,
Because I cannot accept being just good enough;
I want to be the best I can be.
I want my poetry to become the meaning of my life.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Warmer than the last time


I need a warm blooded woman,
Not another snake in the grass.
I need a loving woman,
Not a pain in the ***.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

In My Opinion


You’re the latest trend, in this one track mind;
You’re the thing, I hoped and prayed I'd find.
You’re my first, my last, my everything;
You're my latest wish and all my wet dreams.


In my opinion, yeah, yeah,
In my opinion, yeah, yeah.
In my opinion, yeah, yeah,
In my opinion, yeah, yeah.


Your beauty shines, from beneath your skin;
You’re a looking glass and I'm looking in.
You showed me things, I should never have seen;
You’re my first class bride, my beauty queen.


In my opinion, yeah, yeah,
In my opinion, yeah, yeah.
In my opinion, yeah, yeah,
In my opinion, yeah, yeah.


If I speak my mind, would you listen in?
To my deepest thoughts and fantasies;
To the truth I speak, which you don't believe.
The lyrics aren't hard, they’re just my feelings.


In my opinion, yeah, yeah,
In my opinion, yeah, yeah.
In my opinion, yeah, yeah,
In my opinion, yeah, yeah.


If I buy you a drink, could you fill me in?
To your thoughts of me, tell me what you think.
What image do you see, when you look at me?
Do you want my love, or can I go free?


(C)2005 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Writers Block


Silent, blank, empty mind.
Devoid of inspiration; a big waste of time.
For all I wish to do, is begin to write,
But all the words I cannot think of have eluded my mind.


So here I sit, in front of the computer screen,
Just waiting for a divine intervention,
Or maybe some divine inspiration;
But all I have on my mind is a woman named Divine Brown.


I’m supposed to be a writer, but I can’t even write;
I can’t think of anything, original tonight.
All I can think of is what other people have already said.
Maybe I shouldn’t be doing this, maybe I should just go to bed.


Come on brain think, of a single sentence.
Maybe that will lead me, to write the rest;
Or maybe I should, just take a rest,
But I have so many words I wish to get off my chest.


But where to begin?  I’ll see what I’ve written so far;
Well I’ve written the title, I guess that’s a start
And I know what the plot is, but where do I begin?
With who?  What?  When?  Or Where?  
Why is it so hard to think?


Ok, so He’s here and they’ve just done that,
So all I have to think about, is what happens next.
Ok, yeah that’s good; I’ll just type it before I forget.
No, wait that’s not good enough, maybe a drink will help.


Now I’m on my third bottle of wine and I still cannot write.
I guess I’ll go back to bed and try again tomorrow.
But wait, here it is!  My thoughts are all falling into line.
Yes!  That sounds good. They can do that;
****!  There goes my phone.


Now where was I, oh yeah, that’s right.
I had it just; come on what was I going to write?
If I sit here long enough, it’s bound to come back to me;
But I’m feeling so tired, I can no longer think.


I’ll try again in the morning;
I’m too tired to care anymore.
Maybe I shouldn’t be writing this book.
Maybe there’s something else that will be easier to do.
This whole writing thing is too hard;
I guess I’ll just do a job that requires no words.


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The stupidity of id.


I only dream of what I cannot have.
Wish for this, wish for that,
But if I give you my true opinion,
You will only give it back.


I stand alone amongst the crowd;
I have no way of standing out.
So if you do see me somehow,
Know that soon I will disappear and become invisible,
Like I feel now.


You cannot have my love, because you do not want a nerd.
You can never read my words, because they would not interest you.
You could have said the things I would like to have heard,
But now those lines are through.


Thank you for the inspiration;
I am sorry that I never mentioned,
The truth to you, but it would only ever have caused tension,
Where none ever needed to exist.
Wasted wishes, dreams of fruition,
I am just the stupidity of id.


But now I have regained my senses;
No longer fixated, no words must be wasted,
If I am to head into the future, patiently.
Waiting for the one for whom I have been waiting.


One day she will come and find me, I hope.
Somehow, someway, she will let me know.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Our gun.


Something bad, trying to be good;
Inside of us lies our own gun.


Seeking peace within my dreams,
But there is no sleeping for me.


Looking to love; to have love we must love.
Inside of us lies our own gun.


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Scared to be loved.


In your mirror I cannot see a place for me.
Inside your aura, I do not feel safe.
At your side I only feel that I need to leave,
Because I know one day you will go away.


Beneath your wings I am still getting burned.
I am suffocating in your arms, let me breathe.
With you at my side I should have been able to turn,
But my life is heading straight into a catastrophe.


As the buildings collapse and crash down all around us,
I am left to reflect on the end of our love.
As the hope disappears, I am only left alone with my empty wishes.
I cannot give you what you need;
I can only be a plaster when you are in need of stitches.
Something permanent to heal what we are losing.
No Obamacare can save us from us;
I think it is time for us to say…who are we truly fooling?


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I have seen it all.


All that, which is now
And all that, which will be
And all that, which has come before…
I have seen it all.


With fortune eyes, inside a crystal ball mind;
I found my destination, as I heard the call,
While the others remained blind.
Tell us no lies, to make the truth memorable.
When will be the day that our love will end?
Or when will we see that we are inseparable?


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One last time.


Stop the world from spinning; I want to get off.
This life of mine is moving way too fast and I have had enough.
I’ve done all I could and what have I got?
A broken heart, a broken mind and I never did finish writing that book.


Love is a stain on an otherwise ordinary life;
My life is a stain on an extraordinary planet.
Greatness falls and shame and pity will not apologise;
I could have done it all, but now I have been left damaged.


I'm sat here in my favourite chair, smoking my life away;
I’m stood here looking out a window, wondering where it all went.
I’m torn asunder; it rains, it thunders,
But still I cannot find a reason to stay.
Out into the blue, I drown in sorrow and there is nothing left.


One last time, I write one last line;
I write one last line, one more time.
One last line, just once again in time;
Just one more time I will write my last line.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The empty hand


Life is a black hole and I am forever falling deeper.
Down I go into a light-less hole, no sign of my keeper.
I would say it is nice to see you, but all is mist inside the deep.
When there is no vision to guide my hands, for you I cannot reach.


I reach out into the nothingness and I return not a man.
I cannot give thanx for this cryptic master plan.
I become part of the space between reality and this place.
Forever ****** into the next realm where time has been misplaced.
If I ever return, I will only be love’s skeleton;
No nourishment can sustain my soul when I exist inside oblivion.


As the memories of me fade, in this wide open space;
I cannot recall what a smile is when I see it appear on your face.
It has been so long since I last saw a miracle,
That I do not recall how to make my smile actual.
I must have imagined it when I was a kid;
A head of fantasy creations, like happiness and bliss.


Sure you people talk of love and it sure does sounds nice,
But I can only speak of the love that doesn’t exist in my life
And good things don’t happen in front of my eyes.
I never got to feel what marriage was meant to really be,
Because I am surrounded by my apathy in this reality.


There are dreams, of course, like that dream where I was loved,
But dreams are not real; people are not enough.
They are separate entities; none will ever join me hand in hand.
I will never be standing matrimonially;
Love does not have me in its plans.


I make up words that do not exist,
Like truth and trust, this twaddle is twixt.
The meaning is lost on the journey between foolishness and death.
All this nonsense is irrelevant to a dreamer head.


This bed has no place for another to fit,
For I have never ever been seen to be fit;
So all I do is sleep in it.
Boy am I tired of living this life.
Can I not just grow up and become someone who shines?
It’s been so cold without a woman in my heart.
I have kept her spot warm; waiting in the dark.


I am a single particle in the great mass of the universe.
What chance do I have of meeting my equal; my poetic verse?
What chance do I have of communicating with her,
On a chemical level,
On an intellectual level,
Or any level at all?


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Mothers shouldn’t cry.


Hello Nan, I’m sorry I wasn’t there enough.
I miss you; God how I miss your love.
I try and try, but I just mess things up;
My heads becoming unglued, how do I carry on?


It’s all over the place, what’s forward or back?
Confusion falls all around us, what’s up with my head?
This can’t be real, come on your having a laugh;
I must be dreaming, am I still in bed?


It’s no dream, it’s the truth.  She’s dead and she’s gone;
She’s floating up above, to Heaven; her new home.
She’s been there all your life, from the moment you were born;
But she won’t be there to comfort you,
Through the grieving my Son.


Remember her best moments,
Like her cooking when you came home;
Remember the good times, not just this bad moment.
Remember the things, she taught us about life;
Remember her loving you, when you were just a child.


Always wanting the best for you,
But disappointed when we failed.
She could get angry sometimes,
But she could also make us smile.
You were like the Godfather, or Godmother of the family.
Without your guidance, where will we be?


Lost and confused, not really believing this is real;
Being forced to accept that you are not here; this is surreal.
I thought you’d live forever.  Not you; you can’t go;
Seeing all my life in an instant,
Wishing you were here for your Grandson.
Like you always have been, the permanent star.
Guiding us, leading the way for us;
Shining brightest for us all.


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