Mission improbable


When we are given too many options,
Concentrating on a single event could become difficult.
We are truly trying, but our concentration is anywhere but here
And there is no placebo that can lift us from our slump;
So all things are half-hearted, no plans stuck to, never fully focused
And all the things that we wanted are never found by us.


Love passes us by, with no wink of the eye
And time becomes a locomotive, speeding into the twilight of life.
Our thoughts are off in the distance, places all seem so far away;
When we should be in the here and now, without delay,
We are only ever thinking of a future that has not yet arrived
And then sooner or later, it is always too late.


With one eye on the window, we will only miss our train of thought
And all those classes we take, they will all fade away.
We will have forgotten all that they taught.
Day dreaming of sleeping; too tired to be awake.
Words on the vapor,
Float away into space.


Reaching out for wisdom;
Lost words in need of someone to speak them,
Drift throughout our minds and disappear into oblivion.
You could be one in a million, but if your heart is in two places,
Then all will count for naught,
If you only, what if, or maybe.


Struggling to be here with a crystal ball kept in your pocket.
A pocket full of poesies tell tall tales of space rockets.
From all that, which came before,
We have walked through a thousand doors or more.
If we always have our eyes closed to what could be,
Then we will have learned nothing
And the things we feel will all just become a chore.


Take a second look at a second chance.
Did you succumb to the will of another’s opinion, perhaps?
Silence your lips; put your head phones on,
But do not play another song until your work is done.


Strike while the iron is hot;
Write it like it is the last thing that you have got.
Grab reality by the horns with both hands and feet,
Before it is all too soon, gone to be lost.


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Your faults are my own


We point the finger at others and know all their faults;
Yet we lack the foresight to see, that their faults are our own.
The bad things we see in them are our own negative points;
We tell them how to change their lives,
But we take help from no-one.


You do this wrong, you do that wrong.
Do we say it to them or us?
We hate the way they have no faith in us;
Yet we ourselves are unable to trust.
The things they do wrong,
Are only seen because we too are faulty;
We condemn their mistakes, yet we are equally guilty.


We should look deep in the mirror,
At the reflections of our being,
We tell them to open their eyes;
But it's us who are incapable of seeing.
We are faithless and anxious and we think we know it all;
Then we expect them to have faith, never give up and trust us.


Who are you to judge me,
When all your bad points are a hindrance?
The things that stop you being all you can be,
Will always leave you without guidance.
We are all equally trapped, asking for help, yet never listening;
So for once in your life, hear as you speak,
See what you are saying.


The advice we give them, is just what we have been told;
But because we are telling them, our warm words become cold.
Our intentions are good, but our way with words lets us down;
We expect them to heed our words, whilst we still act the clown.
Our advice falls on deaf ears,
Because we don't practice what we preach.
We have knowledge gained through experience;
But we have no God given right to teach.


So hear your own teachings, use actions not words;
Give them proof it can be done differently,
Show them only they can change their world.
To change the way that they feel
And the thoughts that they think;
Give up your own addictions first
And walk away from that drink.
You simply can't get them to change their life,
If all you do is argue and fight.
So pick up the pen and lay down the knife.


(C)2005 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

It’s in her eyes.


Sprinkle fireflies in the night sky,
To illuminate the secret path into my lover’s heart.
She could become mine if the stars were to align
And lead her towards me,
For at this moment she is still afar.


Still, I hope one day she will fall for my charms.
After a blind leap of faith, I will catch her in my arms
And I shall be rewarded with the one that I have always wanted
And no day will ever come to pass where we must be separated.


If she is for me as I would be for her,
This love will conquer all.
A blessing is yet to be heard.
Love will set you free if you just hear its call.


All I need is to see her reaction, when she is talking about me.
Some feelings you cannot hide.
So take this box of rose scented chocolates,
My heart and all of my empathy!
For far too long now, this love has been hidden.
For far too long, I have been holding it inside.


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Moving on


I’ve got a heart that is made of gold;
It’s buried deep and it’s all that I know.
I’ve followed my heart to the end of the Earth
And all I got was this lousy t-shirt.


I keep moving on to another place;
Another name, another face,
Another love that will fade one day
And when we fall out of love I will begin again.


I haven’t got enough time to throw it all away,
But their love is always searching for a brand new face.
I’m only here so they can remember feeling good;
I’m their stepping stone, from single life to true love.


No part of love will I become,
Because to me love is a stranger and it ain’t no fun.
Nobody wants to have my love,
So I guess I’ll just keep on moving on.


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I could be loved


There is a woman I like
And I think I might,
Be able to tell her how she makes me feel.
She can see it in my smile, so I can no longer hide.


She is beauty to me and who knows? Maybe,
She may feel the same way, if she is hiding her feelings deep.
We always exchange smiles and when we talk time flies by;
I see the blue lakes in her eyes and she takes me so high.


She lifts my true heart, way up, to be seen within my eyes.
I could love her one day, someway, if only I knew her mind.
She makes all people feel good with her loving words.
She happily speaks of love, (not my bitter words of hurt.)
She makes me dream of possibilities;
Every time she makes me laugh, I see epiphanies.


No more doubting love, no more sad heart ache.
I must believe in love; more effort I must make.
I must throw myself into the eye of the storm,
All in the name of love; all in the hope of her touch.
She gives me confidence to once more try to trust.
Maybe we could be good together
And maybe…
I could be loved.


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Girl with the black cloud.


Everywhere the lady goes, she steals rainbows.
She seems so sad, because true love she has never known.
This beautiful lady with her own black cloud.
The cloud of doubt that always follows her around.


She has the look of pain, in her continuous rain;
Under her own black cloud, of misery and self-doubt
And I have no doubt, I could help her out,
From underneath that black cloud; if I hadn’t been such a clown.
With my own self-doubt and my own black cloud;
But maybe there could be a way, for us to work something out.


An umbrella to share,
To protect her hair; from her black cloud.
She will let me put my arm around her shoulder
And say…
Now; the rain has stopped
And I’ve removed your black cloud of self-doubt.
So let us step into the sunshine together
And be happy forever.  Let us let our true feelings out.


I was never allowed to take you as mine,
For other people decreed this lie,
To be acceptable and this is not so;
My love you could be, now the liars have been thrown out.
I could never have pictured you as my wife
And put serious thought into you wanting it too.
But now I wish I had never kissed anyone else
And made a beautiful family with you.


My muse of unending passion;
No one has ever made me feel the way you do.
You bring me satisfaction,
Attraction and a lot of distraction.


To my female, my nation, my island of dreams;
I wave my flag gladly, to get your attention.
You don’t understand what the signal means,
Until we speak and at long last embrace each other’s addiction.
This love thing…And once more we touch.


You are truly beautiful,
When you are down on the floor;
With me in the dark, showing each other our love.
We need no eyes to see each other’s heart,
My love for you is spoken in each word of lust.


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Every Colour of the Rainbow.


Yellow is your hair, like the sun that shines upon me,
Orange is the taste, of your juicy lips.


Red is the radiance, of your lipstick,
Green are the fields, in which we sit.


Blue is how I feel, when I am without you.
Purple was the colour, of the dress you wore the day…


You walked out of my world, now the Navy I must run to,
To make me try, to forget about my pain.


The Rainbow Girl, in my head will always be with me,
Whenever this Son and the dark rain shall meet.



(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Late


With fire hands I set alight,
The thoughts inside my empty mind,
All in the hope that I will find,
The word’s to make this poem become alive.


Electricity runs through my head
And ignites a stream of do not forgets.
Must create art and not just jest.
No longer say, just do.
No more chances to procrastinate;
There is no time left…
I have too much I need to show to you.


Seize opportunity before it is gone;
It knocks on my door like a dying swan song.
A cry for more, a shout for an encore;
I can no longer tell what is mine and what is yours.


We are united by words, divided in time.
You are so far ahead of the curve and I am so far behind,
But with a telescopic eye, I see a future.
Where I once was a cyclops, I must concentrate on not being blind.


But rise I shall to face this day.
A face to face, when I have the lines to say;
But I will never be perfect,
Because I am already too late.


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Sponsorship



People complain about constant sponsorship,

But continue to be a consumer.

People only tell the truth if it’s beneficial,

Or maybe that’s just a vicious rumour.



(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

A no answer machine


Our basic instincts are to find love and run through the woods.
From the tree’s we climb down to walk like a man;
No longer on all fours.
Now we do not need to give thanks, for the food we have;
We deserve to be full.
All beautiful art fades eventually,
As we all become too dull.


No more to say…
I let it all just slide away.
Nothing will be relevant on the final day.
Keeping up with the Joneses;
Mobile phones are diseases;
Conversation is dead;
Only speak if it pleases.


Couple’s councilor; I could not manage to go.
So come or go, or let me go, if you think that I would care.
Love is not amazing anymore,
I would say it is just so, so.
Why would I bother speaking to you, when you are no longer there?


Phone on silent;
She is a no answer machine.
No reply necessary;
The end of the dream.


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Our time together.


I want to be the one who makes your toes curl;
By making you feel ‘Oh!’ Girl.
By making you feel whole inside;
By asking you to bless my night,
With a touch of your delight.
Before you leave me again in the morning light.


I want my heart to speak for a while;
I want my love to make you smile.
I want my touch to drive you wild!
So I can confess my wanton lust for your arousal.


My excuse to miss the party.
I can’t make it; I’m stuck in the bed with my lady.
You know I’d love to be there, but my lady is here.
So I’ll see you another time, but this is my time,
So get out of here!


Leave me be, let me rest in peace;
With my woman beside me, the rest comes easily.
Let me give you a hand with that;
Let me give you your release.


Such ecstasy, apparently.
I play along, wondering why she will have to leave,
This time.  
I’ll see you another time.
Goodbye, thanks for that;
Yeah, thank you too, for this end of this lie.


The following day should be completely different;
Oh it’s not; I see.  
Did you really expect anything other than what you normally get?
Yay more ***.  But no love.
This *** is so good!  This *** blah, blah, blah.


*** is nothing without feeling;
*** is only amazing when it means something.
*** is not all I need for satisfaction,
But there is no love made here,
Just something, something,
Nothing.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Nothing hurts like love


I have tried to always be there.
I have tried to help you with your stupid hair!
I have tried to care…
But I don’t.


I have tried to see our future, to see through.
I have tried to share with you all my truths.
I have tried to love you too…
But I don’t.


Down every river there flows a course.
I think I want a divorce.
We are not married, but we are us.
I think it’s time I took a better shot at love.


I just don’t see my life being with yours.
I just don’t think about the two of us.
I just don’t think I can carry on.
You have broken my heart and stolen my trust.


I no longer believe.
I can no longer be,
A part of your stupid story!
I should say sorry…

But I won’t.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Pushing love away


We accept the love we think we deserve.
I think I deserve more love.  
I have fallen so deeply into love with her,
But she didn’t notice, didn’t feel the same,
Didn’t love like the love I deserved from her.
The words I cannot speak have left me undone.


I have fallen in love too many times for you to take me seriously.
I understand why they all say, they do not believe in me.
I am incapable of being loved; that is why I remain alone.
It doesn’t matter if I ever get to share my love;
It is obviously not as good as I have always bemoaned.


I keep on saying nobody loves me as much;
But the truth is I cannot love, because I am unworthy.
I claim to want a perfect wife,
Because she does not exist.
So I remain out of it.
Come along and hurt me.


Luck or love?  To me, it’s all just a myth,
Or a thing that other people easily give.
I have never had it,
Because I never gave love,
Like everybody else does;
So cheaply.
My love is worthless when everybody,
Is so **** good and I am damaged goods,
In need of trust and unable to give it.


Read the script and play your part,
As you tear my soul and stamp on my heart.
Love me please, but stay away.
This is my every day pain,
And the face does not change,
Like my mind will…eventually.


I push you away to set myself free,
Of the chance of being hurt, or knowing misery,
Because all love has ever done to me,
Is **** my insides and stain my esteem.
I estimate I will find a mate…
I hope she can see through my barriers,
Because I have no strength to agree,
So I still hope one day she will get me.


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Only she knows


Love; it’s all the silly things.
You know what I mean?  It’s everything.
The slight lift at the edge of her mouth when she smiles,
The hidden eyes that look away so quickly;
The things she cannot hide behind lies.
Her image is imprinted in me.
I am never left to doubt the things I cannot believe,
Because only she knows how to tell me what I need.


The two second stare and then the silence;
The endless thoughts flying by like pilots,
In planes that will soon crash and burn.
Still she is here and still I yearn.


She is so much stress, but the dress it calls me endlessly.
She could release me; she could reach out and fix me.
She pulled me from my crucifix,
I had waited there so long.
I had forgotten what the Earth felt like,
Until she up-righted my wrongs.


Way up in the sky I was weightless and sightless,
But she feels right and now I am blessed.
She feels right where no other does.
What the Hell is this feeling called love?
Please explain to my brain, so that I can sustain,
Because I stupidly threw my crutches away,
When she walked into my life and all the black clouds became grey.
Now they are white and soon they will be gone,
Because she raises me up and sings the right songs,
To my instrumental heart, she pulls at my strings,
And leaves me believing in everything.
All the heart ache, it ain’t going away;
It still remains, but I am happy again.


Then she disappears, so I try to forget her,
But my God!  Without her it’s all once more a blur.
She is the only definitive object.
All else is cloudy, no more to collect.
I am floating on nothing when she is not around.
One love is in the distance and I am back on solid ground.


She loves me not, but I am trapped in suspense.
Suspended animation, two hearts of an alien nation,
Separated until she comes back again.
I am broken and vacant without her love;
Love in loves wilderness and all because,
I know she is the best I can get;
I also know without her I have nothing left.


What is there left when only she can be right?
Out of sight, out of mind?  Believe me I try,
But out of my mind leaves me crying inside.
Only she can make me happy, only she can find,
The things I need to find happiness.
Without her I am lost and all is a mess.


I could go there another time, simply to avoid her,
But then what would I do if I never again managed to find her?
All I want is splendid but she has that piece of me.
I keep myself hidden from temptation, while she misjudges me.


So much attraction, but she is leaving.
No more to say, she can see me grieving.
Today has become a bad day now.
This morning it shone, but now all is clouds,
And I am left standing staring like a stalker.
That is not what I wanted, but she is not my caller.
I cannot call her and she does not call me;
Is this the way things have to be?


I just want love, but she does not,
So why can I not just walk on?
What to do, what to think.
Forward no more…love is killing me.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Never Satisfied.


Why do we always want the women we can’t have?
Why are our choices of lover, so appallingly bad?
For the ones we want the most, usually only let us down
And the ones we don’t really want,
Are the only ones who want us right now.


Even though we know the one who lies,
Next to us in bed isn’t good enough
And they’re only here for tonight, to feed our lust for lust.
There are so many out there, that we lust after;
Even though, we already have a lover.


So we become paranoid, that we can’t satisfy our partner
And they will go look for another.
For they, like us, think the grass would be greener
And somehow forget the contentment,
We feel, when alone with each other.


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Headlights


I’m heading home now to see my Wife;
I’m gonna kiss her and hold her tight;
Because I think she is so wonderful;
My love I love you.
You are so beautiful.


Driving home on a winter’s night.
All I’m seeing are those **** headlights.
Those blinding lights, those bright, bright lights.
Those killer lights, have taken my life.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

People these days.


People these days, their words don’t mean a thing
And that will never change;
Because they will always put themselves first.
Self-gratification, no matter what the price.


Beautiful people?  Not on the inside.
Only ugly to look at, are the ones in which you should confide.
Because vanity and self-interest,
Mean no-one can be your confidant.


Everything is for sale!  In fact we’re giving it away!
Gossip amongst friends, is today’s cheapest sale.
They told me not to tell, but I can’t keep this a secret.
When I tell you two this, you’re never going to believe it!


Well why would we want to tell anyone something so juicy?
Ok, but if they ask, you never heard it from me.
Hey, you’ll never believe what I just heard.
Yeah and she said that.  She heard it from her.


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The remains of what could have been.


I’ve got a fragile heart that is scared of breaking.
I would give you my world gladly,
If I could believe you were not just faking.
I look so confident to those who do not know;
My titanium bones cannot stop from shaking.


I am cold to the thought of falling in love.
I want to be, but still I cannot;
I am unable to feel touched.


Keep them at a distance;
Real love takes patience.
I will wait for love to find me;
I still believe in a romance,
So bright it lights up my darkest of skies.
First chance to find love,
I let it pass on by.
The beauty was there, but so much more was still missing.
So still I remain alone;
No kissing.
Just wishing she could have been more than she was,
But that love is gone…
Angel to dust.


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All I have to give.


If you need a reminder, I will donate my brain to you.
I will present my love all wrapped up nicely,
If you need to feel like you are loved.
If you need money, I will sell my soul for you;
Whatever fate brings down upon me, at least you will feel good.


I will reach through my rib cage to give you my heart.
If the sun gets in your eyes, I will blow it up to soothe your head.
If you need me to show you that I am passionate about you,
Then I will create a rocket ship and I will go fetch you a star.
The only thing I will not do is waste my last breath.
I will save it to give you the kiss of life,
Or use it to say “remember me”;
Because I will never forget you, even after I am deceased.


I will give you my mouth to bring a smile to your face;
I give you my life to lay in peace at your side.
I will become my own clone, when I am in need of being replaced.
I will let a vampire bite me, when I am just about to die.
I want to live forever, or until the day that you do not live.
I will sell my every possession,
Just to show I have nothing more to give.


You can win all the arguments,
Because I have already won your love.
You can always choose what we do,
If you can be bothered to
And you will decide when we have had enough.


We are going forward in time, beyond the end, hand in hand.
So let me hold you close to me, so I can take your pain away.
Let it become my pain, as I let you take all that which is not bad.
My devotion will never shake, or bend,
Because all I have to give,
I will allow you to have.


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For you I would


So beautiful to see you here.  
I find myself when I am lost inside of you.
Thoughts lost to never seeing you again,
Were proven to not be true.
So beautiful to see you here.
I wish I could stay here too.
  

Watching beautiful women walk past my window.  
Only ever watch them go and I stay inside my hole.
I am a gold fish in this room and I am losing my colour.
Forgotten how to love and forgotten all my lovers.


My heart is a thousand sun’s;
They were ignited by your smile for me.
Each of the stars that made me, died,
Now I am now left in peace.


Life is only torment and I am not alone.
I have humans all around me and names upon my phone,
But still I wish it would all disappear,
And I was allowed to stay in my own zone.


Lust is not a friend of mine,
It makes me want for more.
I wish I could be celibate,
And have nothing to do with your world.


(C)2020 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Still


I have nothing written, but still I can read between the lines.
I have nothing to do, but to continue.
I have nothing, whilst you have gained everything you have through lies.
I have nothing more to say,
Because all you have to say contains no truth.


Lacking empathy to every thought inside your head.
Lacking any kind of pity; I’ll leave you behind for dead.
Lacking compassion to all you need to get from me.
Lacking indecision; my mind is made…you I will forget.


Losing all my faith, I could never believe in you;
Losing all those things you took, now I have nothing left to take.
Losing friends and family, still people push on through.
Losing hope in people, now there is no smile I need to fake.


With or without feeling, I tell you how I really feel.
With you or without you, time will never heal.
Without your love, I am better off;
With you those good times have disappeared and time is all it cost.


Still I continue living in the dark;
Still is my time, my life has come apart.
Still is the hand of the clock I do not hear at night.
Still is the heart inside my chest…
Still I am alive and still is my life.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Fade to grey


Take my hand and let me set fire to your mind.
I want to see, what you are hiding inside.
I’m blinded by the light of your eyes
And I just called to say, I never lied.


Wishing upon a shooting star.
I would shoot it down to give it to you;
If that is your wish,
Then let me, become your Prince.
For I am the one who has travelled far,
To prove I deserve a chance at a kiss.


I followed a rainbow and it led me to you.
You are sun, I am rain;
We are evenly matched and love is in bloom.


The world is our theatre;
Our script is unwritten.
With you I have become totally smitten;
You are a kitten.


Beauty pours out of you;
You are my poetry soup.
I drink you in to taste you.
You give meaning to my view.


This is what I see;
A Queen, I must kneel.
My love I shall worship you,
For I am humble and you are unbelievable!


Give me your hand in marriage
And you shall soothe the damaged,
Voice inside my heart,
That only knows of the lies I hear, in yet another adage.


Embrace me once again;
Be the moth to my flame
And I shall be grateful,
To be no longer hateful…
Goodbye to yesterday.


Cure my disease with a simple kiss.
You are my nurse,
You are my anesthetic;
My medicine and my A and E.


Sound the alarm!
Ring the chapel bells,
Before all Hell breaks loose;
Let us wed so I can heal myself.


Paranoia over cheating;
Banish this memory,
Let me be who I used to be…

Fade to grey with me.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

To Never…


To never kiss your lips again,
To never make you smile.
To only know abandoned tears,
To never I leave my sorrow.


I beg you please, take this from me,
My heart, it is dead without you near.
My tears are an ocean of pain,
That I cannot drown in, I fear.


Oh love, why must you be so hard?
So soft to the touch, the soul bound lover.
Oh love, why must you leave us scarred?
We hurt, we ache, we cry forever.


My love is real, inside I can feel,
An empty hole, that leaves me drained.
For I feel nothing and everything at once,
I feel your hurt; I feel your pain.


I say I’m ok, I know I’m lying,
For this is worse than death.
For if you were dead and gone, to become a memory,
Then I know my life, I would no longer live.


But one day I know, fate will **** me again,
As my lover tells me she loves me no more,
But I will never feel that way.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

BeeTV


What is that Dude?  That’s the TV Son.
What does it do?  Oh it lots of fun!
There are these bees, you see, they act and stuff.
It really is quite good!  Shall we have a look?


Ok, I guess.  Humble didn’t know what to expect
And as BeeTV came to life, there were little bees inside.
Humble was surprised and ran to the screen.
He tried to reach inside, but nothing was happening.
There was something in the way, but he could not see.
Dude said they are not in there Humble,
They are far away bees.
They are in the studio in another part of the Hive;
They send pictures through waves, the collective Hive Mind
And the pictures appear; come sit over here.
We can watch them together…
And they did for many years.


As Humble grew up to become the bee he became,
There was always a place for BeeTV in his heart
And every bee in the hive felt the same.
In every home throughout the hive, BeeTV was available day and night And as people went about living their lives,
BeeTV always remained a part of their life.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Love will win…in the end.


We are meteors on a collision course with love.
We have seen the hard times and we have had enough.
Golden band promises do not seem to mean a thing,
To those who claim to be in love, whilst in secret they cheat.


We fall apart in each other’s arms;
All in the name of love.
We hope and dream and scream and shout!
All because of love.


I wish it could work out for you, I really do,
But I am exercising my right to say nothing.
I would tell you how to, if only I knew,
But I do not know what it takes to hold onto this love thing.


My radiohead is full of love songs.
They all tell their tale of how love will win…in the end.
Every heart I choose to follow always turns out to be wrong,
But I will keep trying to walk hand in hand,
Even if we are only ever going to be friends.


Love has its hooks in my heart and I cannot resist.
I am constantly tripping over plastic charms, but still I persist.
I am (never) going to fall in love,
Until I do…that time sure does look good.


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The way we were


The way we were,
So simple to say,
But it was always so hard to keep your love.
You are my Her.
You were my way.
Now I must find myself again and once more become loved.


You were my summertime lover indoors.
I could never hide from you all my endless flaws.
So grateful to you for all that you have done,
My shining sun; it always rains now as my tears pour.


Every part of me is dedicated to love;
Every thought I think is concerning you.
Even today I still desire your touch,
Because my love for you will never end…
Love will always feel like it is brand new.


The start of love is a summer’s day;
The end of love is so cold and grey.
The centre of love is happiness in a glass;
The saddest time of love is when you turn your back.


So leave me here to never wipe away these tears,
Because if you cannot hear, then why am I even crying?
It is because of you I am oh so clear,
So certain of my fate;
This feeling must be what it feels like when I am dying.


Inside I am a snow globe without a pretty picture;
Outside I am an insect surrounded by dinosaurs.
Everybody is so sure they know how to make me not miss her,
But the truth is nobody has a cure to all that which came before.

The way we were…


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How do you feel about me?


Your eyes, your smile, the way you move,
The way you glide through all my thoughts,
Returning to thoughts of you and I ****;
But I am not being ******,
I am simply wanting and needing an answer,
Because I think I think about you too much,
Before we even mention the love stuff,
Because I am very much in love,
But I cannot say that yet, until we touch,
But you have a grip on my soul,
I’ve got nowhere else I need to go;
Being stuck here with you is all that I need,
So please tell me please,
How do you feel about me?


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Feeling


Feelings.  Ain’t they a funny thing?
Wondering, feeling, thinking, sinking.


Why?  Oh why?  Oh, I see you are wrong.
Oh yes that’s right, like the words of a song,
Of hope and joy; what a wonderful world.
Reality ***** when a boy meets a girl.


Who will be first to give up on love?
Who will be first to unlearn how to trust?
God only knows!  Good heavens above!
Humans know Earth; we know it’s no good.


Death and despair, we have it by the truckload.
Come get it for free; everything must go!
We’ve already sold love, trust, deception and honesty;
Everything is just a word.
There is no such thing, as a true honest feeling.


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Fight Injustice Against You


Fight all those who stand in your way,
Fight all those who stop us being free.
Charge at them with a clenched fist raised
And watch them cower beneath our feet.


We have the power to let them hurt us,
But we will not let you stop us now.
We shall fight you tooth and nail,
We shall rebel, to show how much we care.


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No regrets


Broken again.
Pain.
Something should teach us to change our ways.
My sanity is insane, again;
But life is on the way.


A **** starts the race for the future.
Impatience won’t let us just sit back and relax, I’ll wager.
For experience teaches those who are not blind or deaf,
To the words that are wasted on most students.
Or so you think, until you pass the test,
Or leave the class,
Then suddenly you remember something,
From your sub-conscience.


So use your conscience to guide you through the slime,
You will have to swim through, throughout your lifetime,
Because happiness is worth all the stress,
So live your life with no regrets.


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Watch T.V., so you don't have to think.


I could be dead tomorrow, but today I'm alive,
So right now, I truly am willing to strive,
To get all I want, before death comes to take me;
So show me Heaven on Earth, you beautiful lady.


But don't give me a baby, or a headache.
Don’t waste our precious time together,
Watching repeats of Ricki Lake,
Or Jerry Springer, or even Oprah.
No I don't want to watch another soap!
Or something so soulless and devoid of inspiration.
Could you put on some tunes and turn off the television?


Just play me some music, by someone who has something to say
And let me fall in love, with a single lyric today;
By an intelligent lyricist, with a funky beat,
That makes us tap our feet and shake our thing.
Do you get me?  Capiche?  Do you understand what I'm saying?


Or are you too drunk, to care anymore?
I'm sorry, I'll shut up; I'm obviously a bore,
That you have to ignore, so here's the remote.
I think I'll just leave and go write a book.

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The id, the ego and the super-ego.


You and I, we have a connection.
Let us be joined at the hip; my hearts resurrection.
I rise once more to beg, to implore!
For a chance to be loved by a woman I adore.


I am infatuated and this desire cannot be sated.
No going away, until I know how you feel.
Are you currently dating?  
Are you loved and is it real?
Have I already waited too long,
Longing for your love, for me to become;
To ever be considered as ‘He could be the one’?


Is your heart repairing?
Am I being awfully daring,
By confessing my desire to be forever yours?
Do you think you could become my true lover and so much more?
I can be truly caring, or I can leave without sparing,
A second thought,
For what might have been…


If this is the case, then just place a full stop.

Leave my heart to just drop.
I will fall down on this spot;
But then I will move on…


…for I have no time for silly daydreams to be wasted.
No wishes thrown away on a love that is ill-fated.
I am searching for love in all the wrong places,
But if you want me, then you have got me
And I will be ‘last seen back-flipping’; so elated!


I will never stop smiling,
As long as I know we are both trying,
To make this love last,
Like it could be our last.
If it never existed, then why do I feel like this?
Devotion to you, words unspoken leave me mute,
So turn up the volume by embracing me soon,
Before this romance is gone and I am left licking my wounds.


You are out of my league, but if you really want me,
Then guess what, I am all yours, three sheets to the wind.
In love I would be your faithful steed
And I would lead you to safety, beneath giant redwood trees.
Even if that meant taking you over-sea’s,
Then off we would go; choose your good ship, please.


Which heart do you want and am I placed at number one,
On your list of contenders?
You are seeing my true being, no pretender,
With suave one-liners non-existent
And no lies for promises, that are gone in an instant.
I am genuinely attracted to you my gorgeous beauty;
My jaw drops, my heart stops
And then it beats at double the speed that it should be.


And all of this I do,
Because I want you,
To love me the way that I could love you
And if you know that will never be,
Then please, kindly, tell me;
Because you are a sunbeam
And I am in need of photosynthesis energy.


I need your love, so pick me up,
Or whisper goodbye and I will retort the thought,
What might have been, if I could only have been,
Allowed to fall for you…

What a life!

And imagine what could have happened,
If you had fallen for the ‘id’, the ‘ego’ and the ‘super-ego’ of ‘I’.


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Starfire.


Flying through space with a smile on my face,
With no need to replace memories of forgotten days.
Crawling along the edges of a song, newly born;
With the innocence gone, I burn like the sun.


Starlight burns through the blood in the veins;
Pumping waste through the bitterness and unforgotten pain.
Calmness is too loud to the ears of the torn,
Ripped up on the ground; unfaithfully a star is reborn.


Starfire flaming on the stage;
Starfire creates a burning rage.
Starfire turns night to day,
Because the star keeps burning in a star light blaze.


Sing a song from the bottom of the heart;
Love lost leads us to a whole new start.
Chasing dreams and screaming like Starfire stars.
Electronic, neurotic; I’ve gone too far!


All that I want is to die like a star;
An explosion in space that could light up the world.
All that I want is to burn like a star;
Raising fires, burning in the darkest of words.


Starfire flaming on the stage;
Starfire creates a burning rage.
Starfire turns night to day,
Because the star keeps burning in a star light blaze.


Aliens on vacation spot a superstar;
Sing a song of your creation.  It’s a brave new world.
It’s a search for Spok, sing from the heart.
Sunlight dies in space; Starfire is never killed.


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Without end


In the haunted castle where all is quiet,
There walks a man with a ghostly face.
It is forever changing, a million images;
The nightmares staring back at him in the mirror;
The memories, the dreams never spoken and the wishes never made.


Dressed from head to toe in a cloak of black,
He is a blast from the past
And he is lost to the thoughts that have never been had.


No sound to be heard on the castle grounds,
Except for the wind blowing the cries of all the lost souls.
The ghosts are outside walking from the beyond into the now.
Time has been turned upon its head; a history of bones.


The graveyard is empty, for the bodies have arisen.
This land is his home, but he is without a reason inside his prison.
He does not ask for salvation, because no redemption will be given.
He is without a desire to be loved; he is lost without feelings.
He can never leave the castle grounds,
Because at the edge there exists an invisible barrier
And no exit to be found.


A hundred years have passed on by, since the time of his death.
Some say this was his darkest time,
But they are those still with breath.
With all his might he stands against,
The tide of what was and what still is,
But still he died, still he is here and still he does not live.


Now he haunts his castle alone,
He is without a soulmate; he is without a friend.
He has no hold of his own ill-fated soul,
For he is trapped in the never seen and his life has no end.


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Love gives


Love evokes memories long since forgotten.
Love lifts us up when life leaves us rock bottom.
Love gives us strength when we feel we have none.
Love shows us how we feel in a new or old song.


Love is just a word, but it means so much to all.
Love is my reason to rise when I fall.
Love gives so much and asks so little of us.
Love survives when two people truly trust.


Love can be gone in a second or a word.
Love cannot be lost without regret.
Love is the greatest thing on this world.
Love is lying next to you in our bed.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

When I grow up, I want to be...


As the sun shines down, on this old grey town,
It shows me the exit, to lead me down south.
To start a new life and to find me a wife;
To buy a new house and to raise a child.


As I lounge in the sun, with my new born son,
And my wife by my side, simply enjoying my new life.
I'm sat by the beach, enjoying the peace,
Whilst smoking my green and living out my dreams.


I'm getting a tan, from the blazing sun,
Whilst my son’s having fun, playing in the sand with his mum;
Building sandcastles and swimming in the sea.
I wonder what he will grow up to be.
My wife and I, are simply enjoying growing old together
And watching our son grow
And talking of the good old days…long ago.


The day we first met, at our local nightclub,
After 7 tequilas and a night of smoking bud
And making love and feeling good.
I knew when I saw her, my wife she would become.


The two young romantics, became infatuated
And never parted, after exchanging hearts
And a year later, exchanging rings
And sharing one feeling
And sharing one dream
And sharing one thing called our destiny.


Now we shall never live apart.
She'll be at my side, until the day I depart
And float up to Heaven, to wait for my wife
And my first born child,
To make the hopefully long wait worthwhile.


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Ash


Existence has turned into ash.

The day has become night;
There are no stars in the sky
And the chapel rings no sound at all.
Everything is sad in my world.


The haunting voice of the man with the scythe;
There is no light in these darkest of times.
No butterflies; only flies.
The train slowly rolls along the lines.


No people to be seen;
Is this all a bad dream?
Or a place where I have nowhere else to go?
I am left hopeless without my hope.


There is smoke in the air;
The smell sinks into my lungs.
No radio message; no song to be sung.
Just a requiem written on a wall;
Graffiti art spells out ‘A lifetime is so short.’


When I think of my time, just a second in creation;
Another second of life, a final second and then an ocean,
Where all is sinking away.
Everything is lost to never be seen again.


At the bottom of this ocean there are only bones,
Of those who sailed; they never made it home.
Princes and pirates;
Novices and navigators.
None know the answers;
Nobody to say see you later.

In the end all things they must go…


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Saudade


Your eyes tell a story of a beautiful sadness.
The passing of time will never lessen your beauty.
In a world with so much pain, you carry shoulders of the first blessed.
The anointed has held you next to her *****
And I can see a cutey.


Behind the clouds you peerlessly peer through.
No other ray of light could ever compare to you.
Divinity weeps as the mold is cast and then dashed
And smashed into pieces beyond all recognition.
Starting ignition…
Setting fire to the stone upon which my faith is rebuilt;
Occasionally I carry a heart with me up this hill.


I have been released from a night light prison
And through the prism from a raincloud I saw a star,
Taking a chance to take a shot in the dark,
Now forever I am with the wisdom of what you are.
A glistening ball of energetic love inside,
Bursting with electricity, thawing a heart of ice.


You would risk it all for the thrill of the fall,
So once more my amore,
We must to bed!  At once!
And then again for days without end…
Thank God it’s a bank holiday weekend.


And beneath the eruptions of mount Zeus in the winter,
The sound of the creaking and squeaking are linear,
Moving forwards and backwards along the timeline in time.
You have never been on the standard routine.
Take me on your magical mystery ride.


You are radiance.
You are beauty.
You are hidden.
Please open your heart just for me.


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Still going


Before the end I will find a way.
Of this I am sure, no need to pray.
Never been a believer, except when I was told.
The story is getting very…old.


If wishes are real, then why am I here?
I cannot believe love is still not near,
When all I do is desire the fire.
My life in the ice is oh so dire.


But still on I go, through all the snow sorrow,
Not knowing where it is I will end up.
All I know is I am destined to be loves woe.
Still going forward; still distracted by lust.


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The beginning of the end


This is the end of the beginning
And the beginning of the end...


I have no control over what comes out of my soul
And this poem was desperate to escape.
I try to keep my pain inside, but it hurts so I must let it go.
If only I could still feel something other than the pain;
Then maybe I could passionately write about hate…


I'm trying to build my own future, using my own hands;
But it isn't working without someone else,
To help me become all I can.
I need a divine muse and a Mr. Miyagi;
So this dream of fruition,
Can allow me to become all the things that I could be.


But this is the end of my hopes and dreams.
The dream is over; it has come to an end.
I try to break from the chains of a mind full of ghosts,
But they are real and not just make pretend.


I begin to tell you of my desire to be;
But eventually you will see, that all I can become, is the same old me.
Now is the time, the beginning of the end;
The end is just beginning and continuous…
And there is no release, from this descent.


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Ain’t that a kick in the head?


Ain’t got nobody to ‘love you lots.’
So what?
Ain’t got nobody to call.
That’s cool.
Ain’t got nobody to call me good.
Good.


Ain’t got enough time to tell you the truth.
Whether I am good or bad is not up to you.
I decide to be real or lie.
So what if I don’t care if you begin to cry.


As they set you a task;
It’s all a-tisket, a-tasket, a-yakety-yak.
It’s all the same to me; don’t play your game.
You have to work or laugh.


Complete the level;
Move onto another.
One courageous deed needed indeed,
To find a perfect lover.


Stale-mates.
Just you wait.
Set your head free of need,
Or bite me.


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