Navajo Spirit


The Amazon is amazing, so why are you still destroying,
Its beauty and your integrity?  You are a monster devouring.
This natural beauty is in our way;
So we must destroy to build again.
We must cause Mother Nature incredible pain;
For she has given us all these trees and this ****** rain.
A forest stump wouldn’t complain about anything.


Oh no!  A Navajo!
We must kick them out of their homes!
We come in peace,
Shoot to ****!  Shoot to ****!  
We come in peace,
Shoot to ****!


Er; Captain.  Yes what is it?
This thievery is taking longer than expected.
What!?  Do you think I am an idiot?
No Sir; it’s just, we haven’t got enough biscuits.
What about Jaffa Cakes?  No Sir, we’re all out.
Well what about meat?  It’s all dead and cannot be eaten.
What do you mean?  It’s obviously dead. (Clout!)
Ow!  Sorry Sir, I mean it has gone rotten.


Well find some more natives and buy some more meat.
We can’t Sir; they have disappeared, since the last broken treaty.
They haven’t been seen and new supplies we just cannot get.
Doh!  Why did we have to be such ****** stupid English Men?
Now we shall all starve because we couldn’t share the land;
The winter is coming and we have no friends.


Oh hello…I am Amity.  I am a Navajo.
You look rather ill…where is your home?
England, I think; please help me I’m starving.
Oh of course, wait a second and I’ll get cooking.


Here take this, it will make you healthy.
Cough!  Sorry.  I never meant to scare you.
Oh you didn’t, don’t be silly.
I just saw you lying here in need;
So I thought I would come and see,
If there was anything I could do.


You’re too kind, after the way my people have treated you.
Oh don’t be silly, you gave us money,
To help us arm ourselves against you.
Such irony really, when we could just have been friends.
Here smoke this peace pipe, it is completely free…
I’m seeing visions…


I see us as neighbours, living beside each other in peace;
I see a time of change in the wind beneath our dreams.
Let us live in peace and never forget history;
For the Navajo Spirit has always been at home
In the Land of the Free.


(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Coincidence is the hope of a non-believer.


Living in a house, in the middle of nowhere,
No noise, no commotion, just lots of fresh air.
Oh isn't this the life? A perfect holiday;
A perfect time, to get away.


The sad dark man with no hope in his soul,
Has now finally found, what he is looking for.
You’re not looking for love, but it's jumped up and bitten you.
How do I know this?  Because it's bitten me too;
But you are the cause for me being bitten.
Once shy; now forever smitten.


Speaking is hard and thinking is harder when you are high,
But I've been thinking of you, since I said my goodbyes.
Awaiting the day I see you and your peacock feathers raised high;
Every colour of the rainbow is all I see in your eyes.


It was hard to say goodbye, because I wanted to stay with you,
But if our future is together,
It's something I'll have to get used to;
But complications, have built a wall between us.
Only together can we bring it down,
If in each other we truly trust;
But you’re not looking for love, so what’s a brother to do?
I can't simply find someone else, when all I think about is you.


If you would let me in, to open your mind
And let you embrace darkness, you wish to find;
As well as the bright white shining light, you have followed,
Then two of us then, shall shine together.


The darkness has now passed and we’re addicted to the sun.
We love this warm weather; we love to have fun.
We love unbridled passion and satisfaction.
Can this just be a coincidence?  
Or is it just an undeniable attraction?


You make my heart purr, like a cat with the cream.
I love to sleep each night and meet you in my dreams.
It's a shame you only want, some fun and a fling,
For now I must leave and go do the whole mundane love thing.


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One night stands leave you feeling empty.


Confide your secrets inside my soul,
For they shall never leave.
Feel free, to feel safe with me,
For you have my protection endlessly.


Count on me to make you happy.
Tell me you love me and be with me.
Let me kiss you for the rest of my life,
For in your eyes I see my paradise.


No longer blind to what’s inside,
We share our lives, so you can become my wife
And testify to our child, that I never lied;
But I had to die through suicide.


For it was simply my time to say goodbye.


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The Poetess


I need a Poetess to steal my heart,
In the depths of the dark night air,
That carries her cries, near and far…
I see before me,
An angel of my forever heart.


Her words shall guide me towards her heart
And in the depths of the dark,
I shall let her take my huge heart.


For I have no need of it to live, when I am with her.
She keeps me alive, with her Heavenly words.
Words of trust and promises of faithfulness;
These are the charms of The Poetess.


For she could be trusted to speak from the soul.
I could once more stupidly believe her promises to never go.
So I write you a poem from the bottom of my soul;
You words are worth loving;
My Magnanimous Noun.


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The Musician


I need a singer, to sing me a song;
Anytime of the day, I will need her love.
I need her beauty, to shine as she sings;
Or I need to hear her scream in sympathy.


My eternal sunshine, you look divine,
Beneath the light that shines, to show me your smile.
My love is yours to behold, my life.
I allow you to see through me; to see inside.


To see what is real;
Like the pain I feel without you near.
I wish this heart would pick a new career;
Because it is useless at love; it’s like me - a loser.


All I ask for, is you to sing a song I choose;
A rock song, a reggae number,
An indy tune, rap, comedy or something other;
Like a poem I wrote, after having a ****.
My poetry has rhythm, so any poem could become a song…almost.


But if you find a song of mine you like;
Take it within your soul, for the rest of your life.
For I shall always write another,
For it is my hobby, my job, my love, my career.
So I pray you hear the words I speak;
For one day I could write the words for you to sing.


If you understand me,
Then be with me.
Read all my poetry and songs…
If you want to know the real me.


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The Artist


I need a Muse.  
Do you think it could be you?
Can you pick up a paint brush
And show me what you can do?


I need a painter of portraits;
To fill in the gaps inside my head.
I need a Goddess of Love,
To notice the stuff I write in my bed.


I need an Artist, who is simply magnificent,
A breath-taking vision, who is simply Heaven sent.
I need an Angel to paint me a Picasso,
Of my poetry in pieces, before I end up like Van Gogh.


Slightly impaired by deafness, I guess.
Going grey now; thank you stress.


Hi Mona, how’s Rembrandt?
He’s been seen drinking in a bar,
With someone called Cezanne?


Call Michelangelo; Donatello will have a plan.
Leonardo’s busy with his inventions,
But here comes Raphael.
Turtle Power!  Hi Master Splinter.
Do you have your easel and paints ready,
To see you through the winter?


Paint me a story
And I’ll write you a picture.
I think if the two of us worked together,
What I see, to you, could become much clearer.


Are you sat there looking for some inspiration?
Then read one of my poems, sing one of my songs;
Maybe then you could paint our creation.
Maybe then, I could write poetry about your art.


My vision brought to life,
With the gift of your care.
Paint a picture of us together,
So you will remember that I will always be there.


If you ever need some inspiration,
Just creep inside my mind for a little vacation;
An escape from reality, or from your personal Demon’s.
You will see we are all the same;
I have as many foibles as you do.


My heart belongs to any Woman who truly wants it;
But she hasn’t told me how she feels yet,
So I guess I can’t live without it.


But soon I will meet someone
And offer them my love;
Because an artist without inspiration,
Is like a poet who has never been in love.


Joyous tragedy! Shakespeare laughs,
As he tears apart love with just a couple of paragraphs.
Dead and gone!  Not our fair Juliet.
If Romeo had just gone home instead,
He would have turned into a moody poet.


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If only you knew


If only you knew how I feel about you,
Would it make any difference to the things that you do?
Do you always look this good, or is it only for me?
Can everybody else see what I see before me, or are they unworthy?


If they do not see your shining beauty,
Then they are losing out on the best thing they could see.
I realise they know you are beautiful,
But why are people not surrounding you to be close to you?
You are a world above, one I could love,
If I ever believed that is what you want and that you could.


If only you knew how I feel about you,
Would it make any difference to the things that you do?
I wish I could speak your mind,
So I could tell you my truth.
You could make me feel;
You could make me feel brand new.


I could fall so deep into your arms,
If you would only ask it of me.
I could stand ten feet tall, to reach up to your star heart,
If I knew that is what you wanted…
But that will never be.


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Your Love


Your love is like a pure released white dove,
So honest in its flight.
The warmth I feel with your arms wrapped around me,
Is like walking into Heavens bright light.


Happiness I find in your smile,
A kiss of tenderness.
The lightest stroke of the softest feather,
Is the feeling of your lips.


So gentle to the touch, against such rough rubies.
My love for you shall never end; it’s truly, madly, deeply.
It’s yours and yours alone to cherish;
It’s yours and yours alone to have.
It’s yours and yours alone I promise
And I shall never take it back.


For loving you is like a pure sunlit mornings glory.
Loving you is so very easy.
Loving you is all I ever wished for.
Loving you is amazing mi amor.


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So tired of being the one.


So tired of being the one…
So tired of letting go…
So tired of always, having to be the
One to let you know;
That You are the one!


The one who brings me love…
When I am all alone.
The one who has always been there for me;
Even when the rest of the world was wrong.


I’m so tired of being the one;
So tired of letting go.
I’m so tired of being the one who always,
Has to be the one to let you know.


I wish the truth I could show,
So you would truly know.
My woman I’m in love with you,
I thought that I, should try this time; so please don’t go!


I love you all the same!
I love you like I did the first time, you smiled at me.
I saw in your eyes, your love and all your pain.


I love you all the same!
I love you to the grave.
I love you for the rest of my life,
But the love of my life; I’m yet to know your name.


I’m so tired of being the one;
So tired of being alone.
So tired of being the one to tell you,
Please my love, I need you; come alone.


I need to be with you;
I need to speak the truth.
I need to tell you, I can’t live without you;
I need you more than you ever truly knew.


So let me be the one;
Don’t let me be alone.
Let me know, so I don’t have to,
Be the one to, have to let you go.


So tired of being the one,
So tired of being alone.
So tired of being the one who has to,
Tell you how I feel!


Just tell me what you want!
Your wish is my command.
I love you, do you love me too?
Be with me now
Or I shall forever be alone…


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Love, marriage, birth, death


I want a lover for life, not just a lover for tonight.
I want someone, who takes away my breath.
I want love, marriage, birth and death.


While you’re out there, looking for some excitement;
I’ll have someone, who is committed,
To making this work, whatever comes our way.
Someone who will be at my side, until I am old and grey.


For I now know what makes this work,
For I am no longer a ****.
So go ahead; come over to me and flirt,
But you’re wasting your time,
For I need woman and not a girl.


You’re a solar eclipse, that has covered my heart,
You make all other women, fade into the dark.
For the light you shine, is simply blinding.
You’re the only woman, I need to be seeing.


I have now found what I’ve been looking for.
So if you feel the same way, my love is yours;
But never say I love you, unless you’re speaking from your soul.
For I don’t need any love, that isn’t sacred and pure.


For love is not simply a word, it’s like taking an oath;
A promise to me, that I’m the only one who can have your love.
But if you’re just after, an easy lay,
Then turn around and leave me and don’t come back again.


For I have become a runaway train,
Who is speeding down the railway line,
On a collision course with you.


Angel of mine, come and bring me sunshine,
Or steal Cupid’s bow and help me find love again.
For I don’t wish to live another day,
Until I get a girlfriend and I can show the world my happy face.


I speak from my heart, to share with you my feelings;
I tell you my thoughts, to show you what I’ve been thinking.
As the sun shines down upon you
And the water glistens on your skin,
You’re watching me thinking, as I’m watching you swim
And we both share a smile, for we both think the same thing.
Oh my God, I’m in love…
And each of us knows what the other is thinking.


So you run out of the water and I get to my feet,
Then somewhere in the middle, we share an embrace
And each of us wish, to never let go;
But we will never forget today though.
For today was the day, we both fell in love;
Every loving word spoken, with a simple hug.


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The best three words.


Souls are black holes, they swallow us whole;
They take control and stay with us when we go.


Hearts are like stars; they carry love far,
Across the Milky Way into another person’s heart.


With my hand in yours, we are always together;
We have the power in our hands, to stay this way forever.


Without someone to love, our eyes are truly left unused.
Beauty never seen;
The best three words, never used.


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What am I to you?


What am I to you?  Which words do you hear?
When I speak only truth and face my fears.
What am I to do, when I don’t know what comes next?
If this is all we are, then what is left?


What am I to you, if not an impostor?
What am I to do, to become even clearer?
What doesn’t ring true, when you view my minds picture?
I follow no footsteps and I am no leader.


I walk in solitude, wary of facing a deceiver.
I am what I am; I am my own special creation.
Breathe into me, so I can take you into my heart
And not be left here alone feeling vacant.


Devoid of empathy and lacking understanding;
Who am I to complain to you, when I am winning!?
Who are you to judge me?  I am unworthy of a glance;
But the fire in my hands will breathe new life into your romance.


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Helpless


All I see is pointless sadness;
I want to be selfless, but all I can be is helpless.
Hold my hand and let’s pretend,
This is not the end


I pray to survive; I hide in the shadows.
Under this comfort blanket I feel at home.
All I want to do with my life is remember why I had to try;
But all the good memories are now unfortunately gone and I am alone.


I've been thinking about leaving this place,
But I cannot leave here because you are my friend.
Inside I am hopeless with no saving grace;
So it is here in this hole that I must stay, until the end.


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Phoenix


The phoenix flies throughout my life;
Fire wings send it flying so high.
As it rises up into the sky,
It disappears and reappears, back at my side.


From my hands it goes out to search the land;
The ashes of love are the only traces I have.
Once it was here, but now my phoenix has gone;
I know one day it will return and I will be reborn.


Letting go of holding it tight;
I let my phoenix fly off into the night.
In summer it died, burnt to a crisp by the golden sun,
But the phoenix’s life returns with another one.


Immortality is just a fantasy,
But the phoenix flies eternally.
The flames of love burn endlessly.
My phoenix exists inside of me.


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It’s the end of the world as we know it.


As the world falls down and begins to burn,
Everything that is moving, stops moving.
Everything that moves became a thing for the ashes to find;
All that which is living, is dying.


All the people underneath become surrounded by grief,
In the broken land that is so full of sinning.
In an unknown time there is no hope to be found…
For the living.


In the darkest hands,
There lurks a shadow of a man,
Who moves alone without wings.
The soul without a soul is still living.


Now he haunts himself,
As he walks throughout this Hell.
In a place he no longer knows;
He can never escape from himself.


At the end of the world as the fires burn alight
And the dark souls steal souls, as time comes towards an end,
We have no way out of the demons eyes,
That surround our lives, in the end times…
Still we are the living and we are without friends.


In our hour of need, we find ourselves on our knees;
Praying to the forever unseen, in a land without peace
And all that remains are the lives that we lead
And a promise of salvation, once our souls have become clean.


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The rage inside


Am I a clockwork man, or a clockwork mouse?
Would I still be the same man, if I let my rage out?


Am I a jigsaw piece of a master plan?
Or a glimpse of art in a foreign land?
Am I a way of seeing, or a way of keeping the peace?
Or a weapon of choice inside your hands?


Am I blessed by God, or cursed by The Devil?
If I have never lost my temper, how have I learned to stay so civil?


If a box of tricks is Pandora’s Box;
Then why are there no locks on Pandora’s Box?


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Your turn


It’s a crazy world, but a beautiful Zen.
I want to tear this life apart, so I can begin again.
The zeitgeist is unseen, but the words are forever heard.
There is freedom in the air; love him, love her.


I want to learn all you have to give, but this heart you want is mine.
The only thing we all do not have, is enough time.
Wings beat faster than the light that passes through an eye.
If I can’t be understood, then how can I change your mind?


In the ashes of a soul, I have a broken heart;
If this is all I have to give,
Then how will we find out who we truly are?
Love is all that it can ever be, so never ask for more.
The only way you will find you way, is if you close a door.


In a world of make believe, we have a lack of faith.
When it becomes your turn to speak…
What do you think you will say?


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A dream of a continuum


Continuous is the continuum.
The never ending story.
Oblivious to oblivion's din,
Because I cannot believe in fables about former glories.
A lack of faith in myself, has caused this Hell
And all the daisies are so far away.
Chrysanthemums smell of the earth I am told.
I would not know, I am wrapped in my box,
For living life day to day.
Locks upon my lid because there is nothing inside worth stealing.
Words are all I have…except for the dreaming.


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Me!


I need someone in Heaven to shine a light on me.
I need an angel to shower me with love continuously.
I need a Goddess to show me pure empathy.
It doesn’t matter what I want, it’s not all about me!


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Me


You have no ******* idea,
What it's like to be me.
You simply couldn't comprehend,
That this is the way things have to be.
Every day feeling more pain,
The pains getting worse, it gets no better.
Every day is now the same
And it will be this way forever.


No regrets due to no memory,
Except the things that scarred our lives.
No new life can there be for you and me.
I overdose nearly every night;
But they keep keeping me alive,
And for what?  I just don't know.
Just to continue this daily punishment;
I'm still alive, so on with the show.


I'm walking through the town,
Careful to never make eye contact.
Never being recognized by anyone
And I'm never coming back.
I hate everyone in here
And I hate every stranger I meet.
I hate everyone I left behind
And I hate anyone who knows me.


I have to make small talk,
Whilst they have nothing left to say.
Their deepest conversation is about makeup
And who they ****** last Saturday.
They’re lucky they'll never feel this;
This bitter hatred in my soul.
If they walked only one day in my shoes,
They would pack up shop and they would go;
To wherever the journey ends.
Maybe the fiery pits of Mordor
And they would jump like angelic lemmings,
Just to end this life; this bore.


You meet a beautiful girl,
But you can't go up and speak to her;
Because your heart has been torn from your chest before.
You've now become a beautiful bore.


You fancy them all, yet you don't want any of them.
You could love them all, but you can't take the risk again.
So you throw in the towel
And become a celibate monk in a monastery.
Now you can't get hurt anymore;
No ******* woman can ever harm me!


But you'll never find love,
Get married and have children;
But you’re resigned to a life of struggle,
And you wouldn't want them anyway.


What?  Have a kid grow up to be just like his father.
The guy who doesn't know his family,
Has no job, but loves his baby’s momma.
The woman he'd die for is just using him for cash;
Because the kids real father, has gone and packed his bags.


She's in the last chance saloon,
Because she can't afford a kid;
But this must be her lucky day,
Because she's going out with Stupid.


So come on now boys and girls,
Please slit my throat as I sleep;
Because tomorrow is just another day
And believe me, you don't know me.


The man you used to know,
Died a long, long time ago.
Now the heart is dead inside,
But the body still moves on.


His girl has ripped his heart out,
After selling his soul.
He was convinced she was his girl,
But she's just another '**.


His brain is in pieces, his energy gone.
He no longer has faith
And he will no longer fight on.


He finds happiness in depression,
It's always been this way for him.
It's all ****** up, his life is chaos;
This is normal life for me.
But if everything’s alright for him
And the world and he spin as one,
He packs his bags and darts through the exit;
Heading back to the norm.


Chaos and pain and tragedy and suffering;
These are a few of my favorite things.
Peace, love, friends and family;
No longer mean anything to me.


I crave for nothing,
So there's nothing I need.
I don't require any of the products sold on T.V.
I don't need a wife and a kid, or a million pounds.
I'm happy alive in a world of nothing;
It's the other people who bring me down.


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Apathy


Don’t tell me how to feel, when I feel like this;
Don’t tell me that you’re happy, when I’m so depressed.
Don’t sit there with your girlfriend, giving her a kiss;
Because I just don’t care, about your life of bliss.


I do not care for your sympathy,
Because I live in a town called Apathy.
The town of no-hopers and the town I’m in;
The ****** little town called Apathy.


So don’t sit there with a smile upon your face.
Don’t dare utter those words:
‘The world is such an amazing place.’
Because I live in the rain and I feel like ****.
The sun never shines down on Apathy.


So I do not care for your sympathy,
Because I live in a town called Apathy.
The town of no-hopers and the town I’m in;
The ****** little town called Apathy.


If you feel the same as me;
Or you live in a town like Apathy.
A town of losers; a town of ****!
Then come with me down to Apathy.


Let’s take it over and change a few things.
Let’s welcome only rockers and eject all the trendies.
Let’s all sit down and smoke a spliff.
Let’s drink tequila and rock a few riffs.


I do not care for your sympathy,
Because I live in a town, called Apathy.
The town of no-hopers and the town I’m in;
The ****** little town called Apathy…


Yeah, I live in a town called Apathy,
And it has become like home to me,
For I never want to live outside Apathy,
Because I only care about, the cool people and me.


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Never mind


He’s a cool cat, as a matter of fact
And there ain’t no doubting how you feel about that.
Whilst I am just a pig wallowing in the mud
And I will never be good enough.


She is an ice Queen;
She ain’t no nice day dream.
She will only cause pain
And she is coming for me.


I don’t want you;
Your love is worthless.
It has lost all its meaning because you are an adulteress.
You are no Princess.


Still she is coming to ruin my life,
But I have my garlic and cross;
She screams, I cry.


What have we become when this is all we have?
You can take this love back;
It ain’t worth Jack.


Once it was overwhelming,
Now it is depressing.
Love is not what it used to be;
You have ruined everything.


This curse on my soul leaves me in the dark,
As to how to find sunlight,
When you have my heart.


Tear it apart!
Do me a flavour.
You can keep it, I mean it!
Adios!  See you later!


Still she calls and still is my hand.
She never gave a ****,
So never mind her plans.


Oblivion is calling;
Let me be gone to absentia.
Let her desire me and miss me;
Give me amnesia and dementia,
So I can just forget her.


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Gone


Drink myself into oblivion,
Let me be the forgotten son.
The forgotten one;
I will soon be forgotten and gone.


Gone from you, gone from this place;
I want to be gone from this space with no kind of grace.
I want to find out if Heaven is real or just a myth on a piece of paper.
I believe, I don’t believe, I will believe when I meet my maker.


I thought I knew how to belong,
Now all I do is wrong
And all I feel inside is, I want to be gone.


Now we are gone to become the ones,
Who disappeared, like we have become God’s.
Our skeletons shall be the only mark we leave on this planet,
My poetry my only indent on this Earth;
My existence will disappear when the electricity is gone.


Thinking about you shows me how little I knew you.
Who are you?  What did you believe?  What did you do?
Any question answered, it’s all in front of our eyes;
Still we cannot choose which question to ask.  Which question is right?


You may call it intuition, or you may call it a day,
But there is nobody left to call when they have all been sent away.
We live in but a second, we exist for an instant;
We are soon to be gone, so make a good impression.
We are here, then soon enough our time has been spent;
We never accomplish all our goals, before our death sets in.


Now I am gone;
I am higher than the sun.
I walk alongside God;
I am humble before Him/Her and all I want is to not be forgotten.


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A Long Day In Hell!


It will be a   L  O  N  G   day in Hell !
Before I get to my feet, to go toe to toe with The Devil.
A   L  O  N  G   day in Hell !
Before I ever allow myself, to do The Truffle Shuffle.


It will be a   L  O  N  G   day in Hell !
Before the clothes you are wearing, ever become fashionable.
A   L  O  N  G   day in Hell !
Before I ever feel comfortable,
With Her I’m just feel agreeable.


It will be a   L  O  N  G   day in Hell !
Before your sentence is served
And you shall get what you deserve.
A   L  O  N  G   day in Hell!
It will be a   L  O  N  G   day in H   E   L   L !!!!


It will be a   L  O  N  G   day in Hell !
Before someone like me could ever look adorable.


A   L   O   N   G   day in Hell !
Before a publisher takes notice and changes the world for…
Me.


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Your Country Needs You


Your government lies, as your Son dies.
The end is nigh, as are the cold black nights.
The vision of the Undead Knight.
The taker of your life.


Your soul was sold, your eyes are cold.
Your body still bears the scars of old.
My life is now not even an existence;
Just a head, full of mixed up memories.


Have a war and **** your soldiers,
Or just destroy your nuclear weapons and save all of us.


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Tortured soul


Only in the darkest hours can I find my soul.
Only when I am falling can I see the rope, but I cannot take a hold.
When I hit rock bottom, I kneel alone;
I am scared to death of failing to live, but I have no desire to go.


When all is dark and I am without hope,
I find myself, the tortured soul.
When all is gone and the silence becomes deafening;
Only then can I believe I have done what I need to do and so…


With the lights turned out and no light to be found,
I am able to find the way inside my soul and write it all down.
When all is lost and apathy is my only friend;
I find a way to drown.


I sink to the bottom and I can find the peace I seek;
No noise to be heard, no vision to be seen.
Only beneath the surface am I truly free;
No feeling a necessity, no compulsion to breathe.


Inside I am able to escape reality;
Outside I am forced to hear and to see.
Within my dreams I am immortal, super human and unique.
Without foolish needs, I can make myself happy.


If only I was able to live a life of fantasy;
Maybe I would be able to erase this nightmare
And pretend this life is just a dream.


Somehow worth it;
Picture perfect.


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My last witness.


Let my body hit the floor;
I can’t take it anymore.
My whole life-time I have been at war;
I can’t take it anymore.


Everybody wants to fight;
What is wrong?  What is right?
All I want to do is write,
But everybody wants a piece of my life.


Sinners come and sinners go;
Everybody feels alone.
What’s so good about your phone?
Let them fall and let them go.


Burn it down and start again;
My fixation is the pain.
Nobody is all the same;
Parts come undone, then they are gone!


Punch a wall and break it down;
Fools become surrounded by clowns.
Oh my God I hate this town!
All love dies, so let it go!


Love is war and will destroy;
She’s a girl and I’m a boy.
Fools for love will feel joy,
But love will tears us apart, in the end!


Life is so hard to take;
As tears fall I feel my heart break.
Why can I alone never feel safe?
Every day is exactly the same.


I am in pieces;
Words are meaningless.
All the wrong choices,
Have become my only memories.


My last witness,
Lacks forgiveness.


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Taken


In this graveyard I sit and inhale the smoke.
As I sit, I read names, dates and quotes.
He was this and she was that.
They didn’t escape death…that is all I know.


Roses among the moss, the raindrops begin to fall down;
I stare into the dying sunlight and see images through clouds.
Then I see another mourner, praying to God;
We are both dressed in black, but she is no Goth.
She is just lost and has lost someone she loved;
I will not disturb her in her time of grief,
But I will glance at the grave stone when she is gone
And I am heading home, past all the head stones.
What is this sadness that surrounds us all in this place?
They have all been taken away.


Etchings and numbers like nineteen forty seven;
Names no longer remembered now they have all risen to Heaven.
Families reunited, never truly divided;
Always nearby if needed, inside a guiding light.
I kissed a girl and I kind of liked it;
But now her kisses are bitter to the thought,
Now she has been taken from my life.


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Violent heartbeat


Poets are sponges, we take it all inside.
We keep it for use later, safely in the back of our minds.
A memory, an image; a picture of a picture.
We are the student, the expert, the novice and the teacher.


This is all I have to give!  This and nothing more.
Nevermore shall I lead forward; stand alone and learn to crawl.
For I am but an infant, inside this land of experts;
I have nothing of importance to say,
Except, I love the way you use those words,
With a memory so clearly full of megahertz.


I am forever learning how to talk in verse;
Exaggerate the truth, some say there are lies beneath those words.
Poetry is yours to do as your own.
Someone else’s opinion shouldn't affect your writing,
So find your feet in your own time and hope to become well known.


Empty your mind of negativity, so you can become free and shapeless;
Then you can become anything you want to understand.


You can become that thing without effort ever being wasted;
Write like you mean it, with a violent heartbeat
And all you will become is a writer and a poet
And on the shoulders of giants you shall stand.


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No more


In darkest gloom we wander still.  In a midnight hour we fall.
As the light begins to fade from our eyes, we are breathing still.
In the end, in our darkest hour,
All we can do is fall…


We climb out of the hole and naturally search for the light
And the warmth that engulfs us and breathes into us.
In every dark hour we pray to see the light
And still we search for the reasons that made us become us.


Without this search, mankind would lack a true meaning;
Without a goal, we would remain less than we are.
Throughout our lives we go off in search of new meanings
And as we rise and we fall, we become all that we are.


New experiences rebuild us; our experiences define us.
Still we are searching for what it is that makes us.
What are we to you and what will we become?
What were we to you and what have we as a species become?
In hope we march onwards, wishing to make a change.
In fear we advance no more;
Their steps forward are full of the fear of change.


With age we learn to love and with age our love will grow;
With age we remember more or less and still we continue to grow.
Thoughts without feelings only hurt those we love;
Actions without thoughts will lose us their love.
Through a valley of broken hearts, onward we walk;
When you have walked all over us, will you continue to walk?


In pieces you leave us, shattered into dust;
In time we learn to repair ourselves in rooms covered with dust.
With strength we come back and live our lives once more;
Forward into the future!  Forward once more!


Forever forward into a big bad world;
Onward, forever onward!  We become one with the world.
No longer taken for granted; our lives shape us and refine us.
We morph into what we were meant to be when they gave birth to us.


Mother Earth and Mother, Mom, raise us up from the ground.
When we are lost, they will find us
And teach us how to stand our ground.
Believe in what you believe and fight for your rights;
Because in the darkest of nights, their might will either crush us,
Or make us prove to them that we are right.


With words we can change the world.
What are words without a pen?


In love we let go and give ourselves away;
But when our time has done its ticking, we all fear being taken away.
Desperately we cling to any kind of heart beat that we can keep;
It was ours once, so it shall remain ours always.
This is my life, my castle, my keep.
A man’s thoughts are his own and taken from those he has heard;
We are slow to realise what we have lost, when we let go of love,
Because of what we think we have heard.


Then this life is over and the clock ticks its last tock, one last time.
If I could do anything differently, I would change it all!
And I would still be left begging for more time.


I would remain blind to all the opportunities I had to do things better,
But I would try; I would try!
And I would try once more to make things better.


In the silence we fall, once more to the floor.
In our darkest hour we are lost
And we become no more.


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The Path


The path I have followed has many twists and turns;
I have walked alongside angels and behind me my demons still lurk.
Quick to seize upon a trip, or a slip of the tongue.
Without a vice I would be nice;
Every day I tell myself that I smoke too much.


Still I continue into the unseen ahead;
I can only keep on walking, knowing I have never tried my best.
I will not try to persuade you to join me on this journey;
For this is my path to walk alone.


So I will continue to journey onwards,
Bid you goodbye and thank you for the talk;
Because you have a path of your own, which you alone must walk.


In peace for once, I slow to a crawl;
No energy left to put up a wall.
So inside they creep, the darkest of thoughts.
This is just a part of my story;
A stepping stone on my long walk.


Careful of placing my feet and lost to the world;
I have travelled along with no guide to show me a real love.
Forever searching for warmth in a life left so cold;
But pure of heart is my choice, so my future I must endure.


As years pass on by, the scenery changes day by day;
The thorns in my life will be replaced with milk and honey.
So I will continue, because I know this is the course I must take
And one day all this rain will transform and become sunny.


True north is the only way I know I am heading;
All the painful memories, I am slowly forgetting.
Forwards I march, into the distance,
Leaving no crumbs behind me as I walk.
I have no intention of turning my back on what is ahead of me;
I intend to embrace and feel it all.


The good, bad and the ugly;
The happiness and the tears.
I have followed this path for a lifetime
And my journey does not end here.


This path stretches out ahead of me,
Until the time my feet cease to move.
I have walked barefoot through the fires of Hell
And I have walked many miles in your shoes.
I have carried the weight of the world upon my shoulders sometimes;
I have put my thoughts down to rest, among the lines that I write.


I have let go of everything and what I miss the most;

Is the thing I never had…

…the knowledge of where it is I am going
And when it is I will know, where to go.


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Collector of souls.


On the blackest of nights, as the winter sets in,
There is a shadow moving in the distance
And I can see it is approaching.
Through blood-stained memories, I am nervous again;
The haunter is coming once more to be born inside my brain.


Without reason he is here and he is without reasoning;
I can lie all I want to, but I cannot lie in peace.
He is becoming every fear and he is cast in sin;
He is a future buried beneath a stone and I have no release.


I am eternally trapped and forever living in fear;
No salvation to be found in this unlit night, for he has reappeared.
The reaper is here with his scythe in hand;
He is the collector of souls, he is the taker and he is ******.


Time is of no consequence and we are all without defence,
When he comes to take us, along the River Styx.
You can plead to a Godless being, you can promise him anything;
But there is nothing you can say,
To make him stop what he is doing.


He has been here since long before you were ever born
And he will still be here long after you have come and gone.
He took the soul of the man underneath the crown of thorns
And he doesn’t answer to anyone; he has no God.


He is immortal and not living;
He is the coldest being to have ever walked upon this world.
He is Death; he is The Grim Reaper;
He is The Collector of Souls.


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I had a life.


I used to walk down there, in the days of old;
From way up here, I still hear their words.
I lived that life, in a world I no longer share;
Now I’m lucky enough to be flying up here, higher than the birds.


I have walked on the land where Mahatma Gandhi had walked;
I have talked with the people, with whom Nelson Mandela had talked.
I went to war, to secure peace, in the name of love;
I lost it all to the writers, the fighters and the children of God.
I spent my free time living with the men,
Women and children of our lives.
Now I spend my time up here with those same people;
I am dancing with the angels, way above the sky.


Humans touched my soul; I am, was and could still be loved.
I was kneeling at Jesus’ feet when they hung him on a cross.
I have seen the worst of humanity
And I have sat and broken bread with the best of the good.
I have forever been at peace with the hippies
And I have spoken with philosophers,
The stranger, the dead and the lost.


I evolved with the Neanderthals and ran free with the Gazelle’s.
I lived, I loved, I died; I saw Heaven and I feared Hell.
I became immortal and became consecrate in God’s eyes…
I was there;
I was human;
I had a life.


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Dragon


Dragon is my future cat.  I haven’t got her yet.
She is an idea, a hope and a dream,
But that which is written has now been said,
And I am not one to break my word.
My words are my bond, bound truth, without which I am nothing.
One day, I promise, I will find her.
One day I will no longer be missing.


A dragon with a tortoise shell,
Like her predecessor and her son.
Those which were, have never been forgotten,
But I have lost the son and the mom,
To a former love; once upon a time she was mine.
It is time to walk a different line.


Dragon shall be the beginning of a dynasty in the making;
This is no place for fakers to be faking.
Step 1 is Dragon;
Step 2 is a cat called Dog.
Step 3 is a small dog called Cat,
And with that, the trinity shall be done.
These are my wishes,
They contain no fishes,
I may only keep pieces,
But these are my wishes.
Cats are better than dogs or fishes.


If dragons do exist,
Then place one beside me
And I will be something I have never been.
My dream is simple and I need these three,
To become the person you should see.
My wife will present one,
I shall discover the rest,
And one day our children’s names,
Will be added to the list.


My tale began a long time ago,
Where a pet was lost to sorrow.
Another one disappeared,
For she was no longer in our home.
The third began her family,
As did the first,
And a giant was born,
With thunder paws.


I hope they all know,
I will love them ‘til the end.
I hope they are all still at home,
And only I have been condemned.
I hope she still takes care of her,
Though she no longer cares for me.
I hope they multiply.
I love my animal family.


I will care for Dragon, like I cared for the others.
Mother, daughter, mother, son;
Dragon will need a brother.
A panther was lost,
It’s mother long gone.
A monkey stole my heart,
So now I am impatiently waiting for a dragon to become.


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Remember that


I love you; remember that.
Whenever you are feeling down,
Remember that I have got your back.
If you need me, then I will help if I can.
I am sorry I could not do more;
I am just a man.


Remember that, if you expect everything,
When I have nothing to give.
Remember the times we shared together, when I tried to live.
Remember that when I let you down.
Remember that when I leave this town,
And all I have been through; remember that,
I passed on through here once.
Once upon a time I was with you;
Only once, for once was enough.


I know you saw me.
Remember I just wanted to tell stories.
Fact or fiction.
Poetry is my addiction.
Remember what I wrote.
Remember all I tried to say to you.
Remember I love you;
Know that I know.
Once upon a time you loved me too.
Remember that?


Remember that I made mistakes.
A wedding cake is all I wanted.
I never found the best I ever had.
Remember something; forget nothing.
Remember the plans we made?
We disagreed, so I gave you what you needed,
And still you walked away;
When I needed you to stay.
Remember to visit my grave.
Remember you are always welcome,
No matter what anybody else may have to say.


Remember when you are having a drink,
That I do not drink, but I understand.
Remember that I will not judge you,
For I too am in the wrong,
For I am just another man.


Remember to be yourself.
That is all I have ever been.
Remember that.
Remember me.
Remember our time together
And all the love we had.
Remember I love you, now and forever;
Don’t forget,
To remember that.


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Raindrop


From the sky I fall forever;
Warp speed, light years, I can fly!
Further down I plummet towards you,
Through the wings of a butterfly.
Forever falling, sweat is pouring;
Silence is golden to the eagle at my side.


Faster, faster I travel along;
The new born sun shows rainbow blood.
It’s cold up here; I am going for a free falling song!
But the words do not mention what I have become
And what I will become.


Inside a sunbeam I disappeared.  
They dropped me off a cloud
And now my destiny is beckoning me to come down here.
And then with a crash, I splish! I splash!
I change into a vast ocean mass.


Now I am surrounded by H2O;
I have a place I can feel at home.
Through endless currents, I float along.


I cannot swim, but I can adapt.
I am a raindrop no more; I have become an ocean.
I told you I would be back.


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Eclipse


Be gone!  Be gone!  Foul evil beast;
This is not my place of reckoning.
The guardians of light stand at my side
And death is not yet beckoning.


In foulest stench, I see you drenched,
In blood; I see you dripping.
But I am not for the taking yet;
I am still for the living.


Come back in time, of a dying future.
The time is not now; we are alive in this state.
In time you can take me to meet your master;
But now is my time to live, so leave this place!


Do not hover nearby hoping for easy pickings;
This body still stands and is not for the giving.
You are misguided, mistimed and mislead;
Off with your head, if you expect to take me away from this blessing.


The darkness does not haunt me, as you would wish;
So be gone foul beast!  Back to your bottomless pit.
My soul is still mine and you are out of your mind,
If you think I will stop suddenly;
Sooner than my time.


You are not my eclipse.


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Messages written on paper planes.


I've been sat here thinking;
Thinking about drinking.  
I've been sat here drinking;
Drinking my life to the stars.  


I think that I have fallen.
I feel like I have fallen to the ground.
The people they are all calling,
But I cannot answer right now.  


My head's in pieces;
No memories.
My hair’s receding;
I guess that's just the way it is.
My heart has been aching for a million years!
I'm through with waiting;
Waiting for true love to cure all my tears.  


These pictures I show you,
They just ain't what they used to be.
These stories I am creating,
I hope they allow you to see the real me,
But until that time I will carry my torch.
Until that time I will be searching for love.
Until that time,
I will crawl on all fours to kneel at your door;
Until you find me and I see your hands raising me up.  


The books that I am writing, the lies I have told;
The truth I've been hiding, to protect my soul.
The visions I had, before I grew old.
The memories I made…where did they all go?  


If love is out there somewhere, send her running to me.
If there's nothing out there for me,
Then I'll say goodbye and leave.
If all there is to find, is yet another lie,
Then let them all begone.
Put Lauryn’s Miseducation on and just leave me alone with her songs.


It's written down on paper, but it's a paper plane.
It's carved into the stone face, but it's hidden away.
It's written in the stars!  But the time is midday.
If all I need is really out there…
Then please send your message my way.


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Cool beans.


You shine for me when I am in despair.
I will be your light when you are in darkness.
You are still with me even when I am not there.
I have chosen to invest in your interests.


If you are in need, then count on me,
To do all I can to see you through.
I will always be a man of peace.
Try to shout at me if you want to
And I will remain the same, cool beans.
The swinging sixties are in my dreams.
The hippie in me is looking for love,
So if you are the one I have been thinking of,
Then please give me a free hug.


I will not give up until I make your day
And make your smile;
Have a nice stay,
For the rest of my life,
By being on my side.
If you are, I will always remain,
Only a heartbeat away.


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Essential


Do you remember when we used to meet at our own special place?
I would wait there impatiently, just wanting to see your face.
All day I would think about you, the only face in the crowd
And then you would appear through the unknown faces,
Like a gift from the clouds.


Down you would float and I would kneel and offer you my love,
Because I could not stand to see you with another.
There are times when we would be alone together sharing a hug
And I could picture the two of us growing older together.


And when I am old, to me you would still be as beautiful,
Because I would still see you as the woman I met so long ago.
I imagined telling you that at last I can be hopeful,
Because you gave me hope that day, for always,
Because you are my hope.


I waited for you like the summer in winter;
I longed for you like a man dying of thirst in a desert.
You are the nectar to the bee and the wedding ring for the finger.
You are all I could aspire to attain, my poetic verse.


You inspire me to love like Casanova on his wedding day;
I need to change my very essence to bend to your will.
Let all who hear of me know of your name,
Because you are the only cure I have when our love life becomes ill.


No argument must end all the love we share with each other.
No man can come between what the two of us have.
No woman can lure me away from you, my perfect lover,
Because your love makes me happy and I wish to never again be sad.


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Rainbow in a hurricane.


Living life like a, hurricane and I,
Can’t explain why I chase loves holy grail and I;
I’ve got to try harder, to get myself higher,
Because I could love you, the way I used to love her.


There’s a rainbow in my hurricane;
A million colours, between my sun and rain.
Love is here and love is all around;
It’s so easy to lose and so hard to be found.


But I don’t know how to cross through a rainbow,
I can’t tell you how to swim through snow.
I can’t understand how to make my karma flow;
All I know is; you make my heart glow.


Seasons come and seasons pass on by,
But I’m still here with you wanting to get high.
Clouds above still paint, pictures in the sky;
I want you to help me pass the time.


Love is real and sometimes broken in two;
It’s too hard to find and so easy to lose.
Promise me your love and you can have my heart;
Love me forever and I will never depart.


But I don’t know how to cross through a rainbow,
I can’t tell you how to swim through snow.
I can’t understand how to make my karma flow;
All I know is; you make my heart glow.


Kiss my lips and I will hold you close;
Say you love me and I’ll tell you all I know,
About love and how to feel so good;
Promise your heart to me and you can have my love.


Living life like a hurricane and I,
Can’t explain why I chase loves holy grail.
There’s a rainbow in my hurricane;
A million colours in the sun and rain.


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The Words Are Wrong


The words are wrong, in this Radiohead song;
The words are wrong, in this Radiohead song.
The words are wrong; she wears me out.
The words are wrong, in this Radiohead song.


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Milk a cow of all its milk


Milk a cow of all its milk.
Silk feels like a Dairy Milk Silk.
Fire your conscience and burn in Hell’s eternal fire.
Hire yourself a team of lawyers, if you decide to get any higher.


Mean what you say, but don’t be too mean.
Leave a puddle of tears in a tantrum,
When you have had enough of smoking your leaves.


Times they are a changing.  I think it’s a sign of the times.
March to war to administer peace,
Before the funeral march in March.


Water down your bottled water,
Before you get a problem like before.
Mother Nature is trying to tell you,
It’s time for you to become a Mother.


Dance a dance of lust and romance,
With anyone who loves you to dance.
Build up your hopes and fill up their lives;
Be happy together in the restaurant, before you get the bill.


Daughters don’t trust anyone;
For even a saint can bring the slaughter to your daughter.
Dress a Queen in a wedding dress.
An ant is still just an ant, even if you have named it Anne.


Break a promise to yourself of independence.
Fix it up with make believe and find a new romance;
A new way to dance the horizontal mambo.
Work for free, to find release,
Of money causing problems…Oh!
And don’t forget to quadruple,
Your first and last by-pass.
Sell your soul to Santa Claus;
Mom’s gone to Iceland to buy some Reindeers in packs.


Phone home E.T., there is no-one home.
Speak a little louder, use a megaphone.
Space – The Final Frontier.  
If you need to find some space;
Face the music, sing an encore,
Replace your hate with a smiley face.


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Wallowing in mud


The soul, the soul, my life, my soul!
If all I have left is my soul, my life, my grail,
Then take it all away from me; take it all and go!
I can no longer hold on to something I no longer believe in…so,
With words of blood I spit at you; the nerve you have to call me nice!
I have never been nice in my entire life to someone who did not deserve it
And you my friend…you never did.
So walk away from all you cause and leave me in your wreckage;
I can no longer wait on you to finish your sentence; I have never been festive
And the season is over, look over my shoulder
And you will see the past behind me.
That is where I have left you and all your lies.
Go wallow in your own misery.


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Because you wanted to


You could imagine a thousand perfect excuses,
But in the end you still cheated.
You could find fault with every single thing I ever did
And blame me,
But in the end, you still cheated.
You could accuse me as much as you would like to of cheating,
But in the end it was you who was cheating.
You can say what you want,
I’m past giving a ****.
Make war, not love,
Because you cheated.


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On my knees.


I have lived a lonely life with no-one beside me.
I keep on climbing mountains, but nobody can see.
The person I hide inside, he holds me back,
From the demons; my own.  Riding the rails, one way, sad.


I have told the same old story a million times before.
I’ve fallen to my knees a million times or more,
But still I rise up to take another punch.
They never knock me out, but I have had enough.


I think I want to go, but this is where I am.
I am just a loser losing all the love I will ever have.
The love that no-one sees,
The words of poetry,
The hidden pieces of me,
Will never be seen.


Nobody gets close enough to let them in.
Nobody cares enough to notice the one they all call him.
I’m just a face upon a carton or telegraph pole.
I’m missing a woman to love and to hold.


I keep on struggling and doubling up in pain.
I keep on worrying and wondering, will it always be this way?
When will it all just go away?
When is my brighter day?


Words unanswered only leave me on my knees again.
I say a prayer, I wish for her, but she has not been written yet.
I cut my hair, become a word,
So she can say the thoughts inside her head.


Still unknown,
Still she has never shown the slightest interest.
She has never shown me that she cares,
But I still believe she is out there, whilst I remain hopeless.


I stare into the deep,
Continually wiping away the tears I weep.
She holds my key, but I am so weak.


I’m fading out,
So full of doubt.
I only want to live again,
But here and now I am without.


This, I think, is how it is going to be.
If only she could find her way to loving me.
If only.
If she did, I would be found;
I would be lifted up from the down.


Red Bull gives you wings;
She wants the *****,
How I need her.
I’m tea-totally weak.
Too quick to pass,
Upon this chance of romance.

I am on my knees.  Find me…


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Hugging loneliness


It’s not what I said that is keeping me awake;
It's all those words that I just could never say.
I have waited too long to find myself a place
And now time is all out of luck and I am at my grave.  


Here I stand looking backwards;
Empty spaces, empty Tracey’s…lost for words.  
The words I never said are all I regret.
The love I never found; the love that I left…
Behind my eyes there hides a smile,
But it is deep down inside my soul.
All you hear are the lies,
When I truly confide,
But the truth is all I ever said and now I am too old.
Too old to change, too late to make you believe;
If you cannot see, then please leave.  


If by now you do not know,
Then go.
Leave me alone,
With my sorrow.  


I have tried so hard to convince you this is no lie,
But by your side I do not lie.
Through your tears of goodbye,
You cannot see the rivers that I cry.  


The trail you leave already fades,
With each and every painful day
And all those words I never had the chance to say,
Are lost with me…

And I am left alone with my pain.  


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Be yourself


She paints a picture of the real me.
I know in my heart that she truly believes.
She tells me stories that I always forget,
But neither of us mind that fact,
Because it means she gets to tell them all over again, I guess.


She tells my story to those who care.
She sings my praises, even when I am not there.
I would tell her story, but it is not mine to speak, or write.
She has always been there for me, so I will respect her copyright.


She is not a writer, nor does she have a poet mind.
She works to pay the bills and she leads a completely different life.
She held my hand and I felt safe,
As we walked on stepping stones over the stream;
She still watches over me, always, as I dash her hopeful dreams.
They all went up in smoke;
But I’m no gambler or criminal.
I’m just a humane being and my glass is never half full,
So I can only ever let you down;
I try to be a star, but I am still underground.


I have lived my story; it is mine to tell,
But I have no need to explain why I never seem to help myself;
Because she truly knows me and still she keeps the faith.
I hope and believe that she knows one day,
I’m going to change my ways.


This is my story; this is the tale I tell.
I have no diary musings, except the poetry; oh well.
With understanding, you will see my soul
And when I leave you all behind without me,
I hope that you know that I could only ever ‘Be yourself.’


If I write things that make you think,
I hope you know your love has only ever helped me to be.
She is at the window, the kitchen sink.
She can see me walking towards her house
And she can’t help but be welcoming.


That’s what I love about her;
For all she does,
Because without her I could never believe one day I will find true love.
She said be faithful and love will come.
I’m getting older now and I am still here unloved,
But I will promise, to maybe, one day,
Show her the love which I have found;
The love that takes my pain away.


Your understanding; it is your own,
But this is my story and its meaning has no need to be told.
I hope you forgive me, but this is mine.
I would give it all away,
But then how would I justify?


You see this is worthless, but priceless to me,
Because when I find myself in love one day,
I will, at last, find…my…peace…


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