I never want to make you cry.


Sat alone; the way it has to be.
Surely this is the only way,
For you to be free,
From the burden and hurt,
For that's all I can feel;
I'm sad that I still feel the pain,
That you must never feel.


I have to leave, I need to weep,
To find my release and let you be free,
From the pain that I feel;
Help, I need a release.
I need your sympathy and your empathy.


For the tears I weep, in my misery,
Are the things that draw you, close to me
And the pain I feel is killing me.
For this woman I see, is all that I need,
To be with me; to make me happy.


But I can't be too close, or I just might love you.
I want you to kiss away my tears
And let me just hold on to you.
I want to send you to sleep, all happy and peaceful
And let me know that I lay,
With one of the beautiful people.


For my love I am enamored,
By your deep misty eyes.
So I will wait until you fall asleep
And simply kiss you goodnight.
I gently say I love you
And hold you close the whole night through.
Looking forward to the moment,
I wake up to you.


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Q & A


Can you tell me please, how am I meant to live?
Can you answer me?  Do I need your forgiveness?
Can you tell me please, what am I meant to be?
Can you show me something in me, I have never seen?


All those nights I’ve worried about my health;
All those mis-spent moments, I could have been somewhere else.
In another world, or another reality;
If things were different, would I really be myself?


Won’t you answer me!?  God someone tell me!
Won’t you answer me!?  God can you tell me!?
Won’t you answer me?  God why can’t I be;
Something different to what I was meant to be?


And if our fate is already written, then what does that mean?
Are we living our lives on the edge of our seats?
Or are we even living at all?
Or are we just moving through our time like fools?
Who cannot see the bigger picture in which we live?
If we’re falling apart, is that our destiny?
And who has all the answers to all of the questions?
And would you like to live if all your questions were answered?


Won’t you answer me!?  God someone tell me!
Won’t you answer me!?  God can you tell me!?
Won’t you answer me?  God why can’t I be,
Something different to what I was meant to be?


All my life I’ve wondered, is this really it?
Is this all I’m ever going to turn out to be?
And I’ve always thought, I’d be much more than this;
But I guess this is just the way things have to be.


But there’s just one question I’d like to ask;
Before death comes to take me, can I have one last chance?
And please allow me to ask you this question, before it’s too late.
If I’d have changed my world would I really have been myself?


Won’t you answer me!?  God someone tell me!
Won’t you answer me!?  God can you tell me!?
Won’t you answer me?  God why can’t I be,
Something different to what I was meant to be?


Are we just changing our future dreams?
And moving them into something we can reach?
And if all that we want is always out of reach,
Is that really just the way life is?


And if all that we have is all that we need,
Would it mean that we couldn’t continue to live,
Without having it all just taken away?
Could we not be content until our dying days?


Won’t you answer me!?  God someone tell me!
Won’t you answer me!?  God can you tell me!?
Won’t you answer me?  God why can’t I be;
Something different to what I was meant to be?


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Reincarnation


I’ve lived this death a thousand times,
Each time you let me go.
My heart has always been divine,
Whilst your love has only ever left me with sorrow.


So I kiss goodbye to a dream of tomorrow.
The last time I shall now see you is in the morrow.
For you have let me go, to save your own sanity.
So I shall leave you in peace
And find some self-loathing in which I can wallow.


This contemptuous place, that replaced your womb,
Has engulfed my hope and left me to my gloom.
The darkness draws over me like the ending of a book;
There is peace.  There is silence.  I have now become entombed.


So think of me as they drag me down to The Devil;
For I know all your secrets, but shall never tell.
Because I love you forever.  My love is eternal.  
So please be there for me, when I leave this *******.


For this is my purgatory, in which I must pay;
But then once more, I shall rise to see your face;
But after this life or the next, we shall each rise to see God’s grace.
Reincarnation is finding my love again;
But I can no longer, watch you slip away.


So once and for all, we shall stand before God!
We shall tear out our hearts and throw them on the floor!
I shall tell HIM only once!
I love her…
She loves me…
We have lived this life enough!


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Lost in you


Rip it up and start again;
This is the end of let’s pretend.


Keep it real, or fake it please;
I’m on my knees in front of you.


I have died in your arms, I’m torn apart;
I am lost in you, my broken heart.


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Dead To Love


I am the heartless, empty being;
Incapable of love, incapable of feeling.
Incapable of trust, incapable of healing;
This dead black heart.


Love to me is just a distant memory.
Something I did once, at least that’s what I think;
But to me love was phenomenal,
To her it was just a word.
To me no love is possible,
After falling in love with her.


Only hurt can I now feel.
That is when I can feel anything at all.


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It’s all about you.


You are beautiful;
You are wonderful.
You are definitely one of a kind.
Because you truly are, beautiful
And you truly are, so wonderful
And with your love in your life, you feel so alive.


You’re the best of the best
And you’re all there is.
You are the narcissist.


And as the narcissist stares deeply into the pond,
Never realizing, he is already gone,
He has been lost inside his own reflection.
Casting no image, the unknown word humility, is without action.


Mirror man walking towards himself with pride.
He is going to fall through to the other side.
So self-aware, yet so see through.
His heart is invisible,
As is his wife…
Staring into the blue.


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Structure


I’ve got an old fashioned heart and my soul is still dreaming.
I’m not a wise man, but I do have wisdom.
I’ve got an immature head on bones that are slowly breaking.
My body aches, my tired eyes fail
And my memories have all been long forgotten.


If life is a clock-face, I am not yet at six,
But my heart has gone on past eleven o’clock;
I guess you can teach an old dog new tricks.
I raise my spirits up and once more venture into my destiny.
Time is a non-entity in a world of possibilities.


Dreams come and go, as do the years that fly on past.
No longer a child, I am a man; there is no turning back.
The clock is still ticking, counting sands;
My lack of ambition is a steak through the heart of all my plans.
Hopes and wishes are only ever fantasies.
Back to reality with a bump, I am still falling, but enough about me…


I hope you are simply splendid!  Anything less is not worthy.
You deserve only the best of my kindest of wishes
And I hope you find in your vocabulary,
The words to tell me what you envisage,
So I can try to move mountains for you in all of my dreams.
Let it be so; what do you need?
Ask me for anything.


This vessel is your tool to build a great wonder of your choosing.
Great literature shall be written about the future we are building.
One stepping stone at a time, there are paths beneath the waves.
We can make dreams come true here;
Together we will find a way.


Great towers shall stand, fires atop them, burning high into the night.
All people will travel to see your wonder that we will bring to life.
From small seeds great oaks shall rise
And your vision they will find,
As they walk out of the desert and marvel at your creation.
It will be a perfectly perfect personification.
Our hands are the missing link,
Your theory is a string;
Let me be the bow to your violin.


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I am temporary.


I am a fleeting illusion and one day I will be gone;
So enjoy me while you can, because I am temporary.
If you like what I do then I have been heard by someone.
I regret nothing!  I am dumb.  I am full of empathy.


Learn from your mistakes; do not keep making them.
Give up or try harder, time is of no consequence.
The light fades away and we all become grey,
In the end my friend; so savour the taste.


I am just one messenger, in a land of screaming voices.
All the choices we make only bring us more choices.
A violent heart is lonely, truly;
A loving heart is happy, inside empathy.
Any fool with a tool can try to speak,
But I shall only listen to things that interest me.


A stranger in this land, I am becoming.
Forget about me, I am heading for my day of reckoning
And I think in the end, my life will have counted for something.
I wish I could be with you, but time is not our friend;
Goodbye to the good times, I hope we have shared.


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Beautiful butterfly


Once I was inside a cocoon…now I am taking my first breath with you.
Breaking out of this shell that can no longer keep me entombed.
I have been trapped long enough to transform
And I am here to exist…see what I have become.


Beautiful butterfly hidden inside my own mind…
I am a caterpillar no more;
Now I have set myself free,
From all the thoughts that used to bind.


Perfectly, I am released;
Taking flight upon a summer’s dream.
Rainbow wishes let me see,
I am no less than everything.
I am in love with the possibility of what I could be;
I am able to become anything.


If one chance is all we get to do our best,
Then I will become a success and nothing less.
No longer an embryo, I have grown into what I should have been.
See the trail of colourful dust I leave behind me as I leave.


My future is just beginning and I am so happy.
Who knows what I will turn into eventually?


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It’s up to you


If love is all it takes to cry, then why do we need tears at all?
If love just leaves us wondering why,
Then I will once more stand to fall.
If love is forever torn from my hands,
Then I will still remember every love I ever had.


Without a love I will never be myself;
I need your love to heal my heart…please help.
Your love can give me all the wealth;
This love thing can free me from this Hell.


A secret heart is not shatterproof;
A beauty so hard to find is what I find in you.
A date with a destiny that we never knew
And now I know who to love…you are my biggest clue.


In lights I see you immortalized;
So bright you shine new sights into my eyes.
I am telling you I love you; can you send me a sign?
Could you love me too, or shall I just leave and die?


So high with love, so low without;
So happy with you, so sad inside my head.
If I can earn your love, can you tell me how?
I do not want this love to go to waste;
Let this love live and not be left for dead.


The love songs are all about how I feel.
The poet’s words say the words I want you to hear.
Let this not only be a dream and allow this love to become real.
My thoughts I can only share with you,
But only if you stay near.


Love is all about the choices we make;
Do you want my love, for each and every day?
Or shall I just watch you walk away?
Again.

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This is mine


I’m just spinning my wheels, going nowhere fast;
I could try to care, but empathy I lack.
This place has ruined the person I used to be;
There lie the remains of me.


I have no strength left to fight back;
I look out at the world and everything is painted black.
The darkness surrounds my thoughts and leaves me feeling weak;
People are so depressing to a misery like me.


In sorrow I remember those days of light;
Every hope I ever had has disappeared out of sight.
No longer can I remember what I wished for,
That is if I was ever deemed worthy of a wish at all.


I guess not, because I sink under the truth;
When life is so hard, why should I ever try anything new?
It will all be the same at the end of the day,
So keep your happiness to yourself and I will keep walking away.


Do not try to follow me; this destination is mine to seek.
You are not even a memory; an empty head sets me free.
All the love in the world cannot fix my broken mind,
So leave me be and I will stay away from your world of lies.


Heaven is a dream and life is a nightmare;
People are all the same, so I cannot care.
Another day of sadness as I head towards the grave;
You and I are not so different, but we will never feel the same pain.


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Dark Angels


It's a long way down, so grab a hold and make sure you hold on tight;
This is our time to disappear and be never found under this light.
Obscured from the all-seeing; hidden within our darkest souls,
Are the thoughts of a dark angel, his dark angel bride
And the end of all that which you call hope.


Standing in these flames, I feel no pain;
I feel ignited, united and saved from being saved.  
Let the waters fall and bury us all.
With flaming swords we go to war,
Without a shield to protect us; we want to fall.


Words ring aloud and true and break!
Our faith into pieces; we have been lured away.
Lead us into temptation and bring down a notion.
An army against your purity; this is our Heaven.


Destroy their love with a sinister growl.
Our love will die in a blaze of glory; we scowl beneath our cowls.
These walls must fall, for onward steps are forever required.
What chance do you have,
If the deceivers are the ones who will decide?


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Bleed it all away.


Bleed away the pain;
Don’t let it eat away at you, let it go.
Bleed away the pain;
Set it free, from deep within your soul.


Write it down or keep it bottled up inside;
Whatever seems to work for you and your life.
Love a lot, it is all that you have got,
But don’t lose the plot when it is gone.


Never felt like I hated the idea of love before;
But then you walked through that door and love was no more.
I never hated you as much as I loved you my love;
But I have never been one to simply move on.


I need to let go of you, because no-one compares to you.
No-one has ever, or will ever, affect me like you still do.
Heaven is falling from the sky, I want to die;
I cry ****** tears; in the silence I sigh.


She is gone and I am here alone,
I want to bleed away her love and bleed away my hope.
I want to let it all go to become a nightmare for someone else,
But this is my pain to bear; my own personal Hell.


You said it was you and me until the end;
You lied again, my so-called girlfriend.
You are no friend of mine, just a curse I had to suffer,
So goodbye forever my bleeding heart, my lover.


Running into the heart of darkness;
Now my love has gone I welcome sadness.
It lets me be the man I know I am;
The condemned sufferer in silence…I am the ******.


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A new dawn.


When we all have virtual reality;
The next step in our technological evolution,
Will be to attain a sort of telepathy,
Where our mind is connected directly into the web
And then who knows what comes next?


Our brains will seek information along the information highway
And our thoughts will be uploaded directly into the internet.
We will create our own type of diary, the thoughts of us all;
Then the final connections will be made
And completely change our planet.


A new way of thinking and seeing things differently;
The olden days will fade away to become our history.
The robots will be born and humanity will grow lazy;
Spending more time in this new reality.
Our second lives will become our actuality.


We are just about to take one step forward for mankind
And our movements will be controlled, by the thoughts within our mind.
Our subconscious will be more prevalent than it ever has before
And upon us will be ****** a new dawn.


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The Unspoken Truth of Desire


A woman’s hair is as important as her cup size.

Jeans **** your beautiful legs and strangle your thighs.

I like the fact your *** looks big in that.

When you are full of lust, you find new eyes.


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Homeless.


A red sunset on a nice warm beach;
A place to call my own, to get some self-respect.
A job in an office with a decent wage;
Two point four children and a couple of pets.
A wife to lay beside me, till the day that I die;
These are the dreams I have and they help me survive.


Life on the streets isn't peaches and cream;
It's the hardest way of living, so just make a change.
You may lose all your hope, but never lose your dreams;
Because you know in your heart, things can't stay the same.


It's all downhill from here, if you don't sort things out;
You’re going to die real soon my friend, if you don't get a house.
A place to call home, a place to lay your hat;
These are the things that you dream about.
You'd make it in life, if someone helped you find home;
But you have got to help yourself and I think you know that.


Life on the streets isn't peaches and cream;
It's the hardest way of living, so just make a change.
You may lose all your hope, but never lose your dreams;
Because you know in your heart, things can't stay the same.


Hold onto your dreams, for one day they may come true;
You might make it in life and get all you deserve.
Or you could give up on life and just throw in the towel;
You must think about yourself and decide what you’re worth.


Is life worth hanging onto?  Or will you roll over and die?
You won't feel any more pain and you'll no longer cry.
But you'll never see them smile, when you make it in life;
You will never have a family and you will never have a wife.


Life on the streets isn't peaches and cream;
It's the hardest way of living, so just make a change.
You may lose all your hope, but never lose your dreams;
Because you know in your heart, things can't stay the same.


When you dreamt about that beach, with the red sunset;
Did you really want those things?  Or did you lie to yourself?
Because if you want them there they are;
Just go right ahead and get them;
Or give up on life my friend and you we can forget.


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English Weather


The rain drizzles down on another bare winter’s landscape;

Whatever happened to all the snow?

Our winter nights are the same as any other day;

No white Christmas, since before I know.

The seasons they are a changing,

But the English weather rarely does.

Constant rain throughout the year, no room for snow or sun.



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Dark thoughts


Darkness bleeds into my veins and pushes out my feelings;
All the thoughts inside my brain are thinking about leaving.
Leaving my mind or leaving this world, I haven’t decided yet.
Now I must make a choice as to whether I am going to just do it.


The suicide solution took the blame,
For a child’s thoughts and his hidden pain.
Let it rain on all the happy people, to wash away their smiles;
Let the innocence be lost in vain.
Let the prosecution begin and let our world go on trial.


Do we deserve to live on this Earth or has it been lost?
We destroy to open another Starbucks and our future is all it cost.
Summer is gone and winter is coming to remind us of our deaths.
We wish the sun would shine continuously,
But we know this is just a concept;
A notion, a thought, an idea of an ideal.
The darkness soothes my heart and mind
Because this misery feels real.


The night has come to haunt us and scare us in our beds,
The nightmares are here and they are real…there is no hope left.
Dead is this dream of Neverland;
It has been snatched from within our hands.
They took it away to destroy our passion
And left us without a promised land.


No future to look forward to without our optimism;
All we have left, we left behind,
Rotting in our mind…our personal prison.
We are entrapped by the feelings we have and no rescue is in sight;
We are doomed by a future we never chose,
Now our daylight has become our night.


A cry in the dark lets you know we are here,
But you cannot hear the words we are trying to say.
All we needed was for you to understand,
But you cannot because you live in the day.


Music soothes our thoughts,
Because it is down here with us.
Who are we to change our way of life?
When you have stolen our love and destroyed our trust.


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Dead Pigs


The big bad wolf, with the three little Piggies;

Chuckling and drinking and smoking some ciggies.

Sat in a bar, playing Russian roulette with a gun;

Two Piggies down…  Just one left to hunt.



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I don’t know


In your smile, I feel locked in love; no longer alone.
I don’t know, I don’t know;
I don’t know why I love you so.


We are him and her
And he and she;
Will we always be…you and me?


I don’t know if we will love each other forever;
I don’t know if we will drift apart.
I don’t know if this is as good as life gets,
Or if you could make it become even better.
All I know is…
I want to remain a little piece of your heart.


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I am He, as He is Me


As I was falling in love with you,
Your heart began to break.
Such disappointment in your eyes;
As I allowed you my heart to take.


Now forever entwined with you inside,
I stay in pain, to leave you standing alone in the light.
For life it seems, looks down on me
And laughs, not smiles; this is my purgatory.


Punishment, for being so ****** stupid!
Why the Hell, couldn’t I just go through with it?
Instead of just running away with misery…
I live a life of regrets; it is all I am left with.


For years now, I’ve wasted my time;
When all along, I had already met my Wife.
We just didn’t know it, until we touched
And now that night shall be remembered forever by each of us.


I couldn’t believe how good we could become;
But now it feels like we have always been in love.


This is for you, you beautiful lady:


I am in love with you…
Head spinning, loco, loon;
Crazy, e-love for only you.


You know of my love for Her;
It is minute compared to the love I will always feel for you.
For I knew with Her it would never work;
But with you I knew it couldn’t work,
Because back then I was a ****.


Now I hope after all this time,
You too still feel the same.
Because I see your soul in your eyes
And your eyes speak of someone who has already loved…
Only to be shown loves grave.
But you are my angel;
You simply make all my problems and my history go away.


Imagine your brain has just been born
And it can believe me with no cynicism.
I look deep into your eyes and you naturally smile,
As I speak to you the words of ‘Within’.


I flied!  I flied!  No, you falled.
She loves me!  She loves me!  No, she isn’t interested at all.


I am in love with You!!!
I love You, yes I do!!!
Yep, yep, yep.
Me and You.
All I ask for, is for you to truly believe me, when I tell you…


Goo, goo, ga, choo!


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How do you write a love song?


How am I meant to write a love song,
When I cannot find love?  
Surely this situation is wrong.
I need a bird to give me a buzz.


Can you help me to find the love that I am always looking for?
How can I begin to woo you,
When you leave me speechless, so I can’t even talk?


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Girl with the black cloud.


Everywhere the lady goes, she steals rainbows.
She seems so sad, because true love she has never known.
This beautiful lady with her own black cloud.
The cloud of doubt that always follows her around.


She has the look of pain, in her continuous rain;
Under her own black cloud, of misery and self-doubt
And I have no doubt, I could help her out,
From underneath that black cloud; if I hadn’t been such a clown.
With my own self-doubt and my own black cloud;
But maybe there could be a way, for us to work something out.


An umbrella to share,
To protect her hair; from her black cloud.
She will let me put my arm around her shoulder
And say…
Now; the rain has stopped
And I’ve removed your black cloud of self-doubt.
So let us step into the sunshine together
And be happy forever.  Let us let our true feelings out.


I was never allowed to take you as mine,
For other people decreed this lie,
To be acceptable and this is not so;
My love you could be, now the liars have been thrown out.
I could never have pictured you as my wife
And put serious thought into you wanting it too.
But now I wish I had never kissed anyone else
And made a beautiful family with you.


My muse of unending passion;
No one has ever made me feel the way you do.
You bring me satisfaction,
Attraction and a lot of distraction.


To my female, my nation, my island of dreams;
I wave my flag gladly, to get your attention.
You don’t understand what the signal means,
Until we speak and at long last embrace each other’s addiction.
This love thing…And once more we touch.


You are truly beautiful,
When you are down on the floor;
With me in the dark, showing each other our love.
We need no eyes to see each other’s heart,
My love for you is spoken in each word of lust.


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Full time dreamer


You must want for nothing,
To get all you wished for.
You must have lost everything,
To appreciate it all.


For once it has gone,
You see why it was so good.
You begin to see the bad points,
Weren’t as bad as they seemed.


But all that glitters, really isn’t gold,
And many lies have been told,
To ease your suffering and let you live again;
But no lies can erase the memories of the pain.


So wish for amnesia, or for someone to be true.
Wish for a better life, for me and for you.
Wish for a change and it may come.
I simply wish you to be faithful
And I wish I could fall in love.


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Food for thought


Our hearts are linked by an umbilical-chord;
We feed each other, food for thought.
I lay down my jacket so you can walk upon it,
To save your painted toes from getting wet.


For unbelievable beauty do I see in you my Queen;
I think your daughter sees the Devil in my beard.
I need you to fall in love at third sight.
I’ve only met you twice in this phoenix afterlife.


For as relationships die, new relationships are sought;
My aphrodisiac, you give me food for thought.
For I am lost in lust, just begging for your touch;
So soft upon this metaphor love.


Her I could love with ease, my Liege.
For in her desires I see me.
No I am not being arrogant;
I am simply saying she is Heaven sent.


After a life time of Hell, I now see my past,
Present and future tense.
She is relaxing in a bath, as I go to see if the dinner is ready yet.
The kids are asleep, or watching T.V.,
As my empathetic angel, sings so succinctly.


A song of love, inspired by me,
She tells me later as our family eats.
My love you give me food for thought.
My love for you is eternal.  Please become my woman, my girl.


Your parents will always see you as their daughter, (alas)
No matter what happens, they will love you forever,
But I will always see you as a woman first and foremost
And this eternal bond between us should never be severed.


You need a Man to remind you who you are.
You shining star, you are truly inspirational.
You may feel that you are solely a Mothercare;
But I am here to show you, that you are so much more.


You are the sexiest woman on the planet,
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again.
You my dear are simply J-Lo speaking Spanish;
If my tears are your nourishment, then let it rain.


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Evermore


I am yours forever more, I am yours my evermore.
I am yours to use as a *****, I am yours my evermore.
I am here to offer you my love, I am yours my evermore.
I am here to tell you a story of us, I am yours my evermore.


I am yours, please give me your love, I am yours my evermore.
I am yours.  Who do you love?  I am yours my evermore.
I am yours for as long as you wish, I am yours my evermore.
I am yours to hurt or to please, I am yours my evermore.


I am yours, your one true love; I am yours my evermore.
I am the one you will be able to trust, I am yours my evermore.
I am the one you should stand beside, I am yours my evermore.
I will love you even after I die, I am yours my evermore.


I am yours until the end of time, I am yours my evermore.
I am yours unless you want another guy, I am yours my evermore.
I am anything you ask me to be, I am yours my evermore.
I will do anything you ask of me, I am yours my evermore.


I am here to make you happy, I am yours my evermore.
I am here to help you raise our family, I am yours my evermore.
I am yours for as long as you want me, I am yours my evermore.
I want you to welcome me into your family,
I am yours my evermore.


I want you to see my real love, I am yours my evermore.
I want to show you, nobody will ever love this much,
I am yours my evermore.


I am yours forever more, I am yours my evermore.
I am yours if you want me, give me a call…
I am yours my evermore.


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Do’s and Don’ts


Do not judge me, lest thee be judged by somebody not worthy;
Don’t shoot the messenger…Don’t stand on ceremony.
Do not think we are equals, we will never be;
Don’t kneel before me, get up, you are better than me.


Do smoke **** with me, for you have shown me true empathy;
Do fall in love with me because I believe I need you to live.
Do become my girlfriend, do become Wife; my honey.
Because without you, do you really think that I can be happy?


I don’t think without you I can ever be truly satisfied;
I don’t think I can ever be enough to convince you to be my Wife.
I don’t think I am good enough, but I will still strive to be,
Good enough to earn your love;
Even though I don’t think I will ever be worthy.


Do believe my truths when I tell you I love you.
If you do believe in me, then all I ask is that you say “I do.”
Do become my Wife and I will drown you in roses and wine.
If you do become the love of my life,
I do believe everything will be alright.


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Back in the fight.


Once you have tasted Heaven, can Earth ever satisfy you?
Or shall you forever be searching, for your paradise?
Surely after the sweetest nectar, has been found and lost by you,
You have no God given right, to once again that nectar taste.


One Love, that’s what Bob Marley said,
One lifetime it will surely take, to mourn loves death.
But surely with just a single, sure-footed step,
Love will be able, to breathe again.


So I shall once again try, to give birth to this whole love notion,
I will open myself fully, to this heartache called devotion.
For I can no longer stand to weep, without a comforting shoulder,
Maybe I have found enough strength, to fight for a new lover.


To find a new mother, for my unborn child,
To find a new wife, to show off with pride.
To wash away, the tears I have cried,
To either rest in peace forever,
Or with a little luck, once again feel alive.


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Biblical Blues


Jesus Christ!  Are you my wife?
Or are you a single woman?
Surely you’re meant to be at my side,
Not off in search of another?


We used to hold each others hands, with such pride,
Now I wonder:  Do you even like me?
Are you Peter, or are you Judas the liar?
Would you deny my existence for your own benefit?


Or would you trade me in for 5 silver coins?
A new handbag, or a box of jewels.
Or would you say, with joy in your words,
I’m sorry but I’m married, so goodbye Sir.


Do you remember the wine I gave you, for our first anniversary?
I sacrificed my own simple pleasures, so I could save enough money.
And buy you the finest things I could afford,
All I could give you; still didn’t seem enough.


So here I hang on my cross awaiting my death,
I’d tell you I still love you, but I’d be wasting my breath.
My sacrifice, my ******* life!
Given up for you, the faithless type.


So goodbye now, I’m off to see God;
My father, my creator, my judge, my condemner.
The one to blame, for all I’ve had and lost,
The one who has punished me forever and ever.


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Ang-el


Your eyes have become a mirror for me,
I look into your eyes and you allow me to be;
The man I thought I would always become.
The happy, loving, man who can be loved.


The blue of your eyes; stays still like the lake,
We stare at each other with nothing to hide.
Yet somehow we both know there is more to be discovered,
About our new lover; about our new life.


You see my beauty, you have my heart,
I always think of you, whenever we are apart.
For I adore the kindness of your soul,
You open your love to me, so I can let myself go.


You let me have no fear of being hurt,
I can think of a future with you at my side.
Some of the words I say will be lost if not heard
But my love for you will never be hidden from your eyes.


To hug you and to hold you; is Heavenly to me,
To kiss your soft lips allows me to be free.
From any pain or hurt causing feeling,
You make my mind wander as I begin to daydream.


My eyes awaken and there you stand before me,
A vision of lust who lets me be,
Open to show you my true desires,
Who allows my passion to burn like a raging fire.


Nothing must come between us,
All I need is us to be in lust,
In love and hand in hand together,
My love you have my love from now until never.


Simply put, you drive me nuts,
All I think is: all that really matters is us.
If we are happy and madly in love,
Then nothing but nothing can do damage to us.


Other people we are able to aid,
Our love for each other does not need to be saved.
When I am alone I feel the severed limb syndrome,
Part of me is missing, until you come home.


And home has now been shifted,
My heart has now been lifted.
My mood has changed from despair to here,
In love with you, needing you near.
Holding you, kissing you,
Loving you, missing you.
Doing nothing by your side,
I thank you for pleasure and changing my life.


All I have is all I need,
Well maybe another jay or two of ****.
But you make my heart complete,
You make my nightmare life a dream.


I love you, I love you,
I love you, I do.
I only wish for you to truly love me,
As much as I love you.


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Always I will love you.


Something inside me makes me remember you;
All that I thought I knew, I never knew.
Without you in my arms I’m still lost and blue.
I think I love you…no, I know I do.


Always I will love you, now and forever;
Always I will wish we could be together.
But if forever is too long for our love to last,
Know you were something special to me…more than just lust.


I’ve been dreaming about, you dreaming about me
And in our dreams I see us smiling because our love is real.
Love is a dream that comes true for some, if it is their destiny;
But all the love I have to give you,
Is not enough to show you how I truly feel.


You are everything I wanted and the only woman I can see myself with;
If your love is as true as mine, then we can always be happy.
Always I will love you because you are all that I need.
If you feel the same way about me, then tell me
And I will give you my heart gladly.


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All I ask


I saw you flinch, when I said her name;
Is this normal behaviour, from someone who is just a friend?
I hope not for I want us to be much more than just good friends.
I want you and I to be good until the end.


I honestly stand here offering you love for life.
All I ask is you stay faithful and tell me no lies.
Then you shall see, I mean what I say.
I’m older now and people change.


So let’s rearrange the past and the present
And make the future ours.
Let’s love each other for a lifetime
And maybe eternal happiness could be ours.


All I ask for is your endless love and
Complete devotion to only me and
Do not cheat…

That is all I ask.


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Our lives


Our lives are simply stories that are waiting to be told.
Our minds are endless wells with all kinds of knowledge to behold.
Our souls are the invisible guide leading us to where we need to go.
Our hearts are only ever a half until we find our Juliet or Romeo.


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Born to die


Born to die with no time on our side,
I need to learn everything before I die.
But time is running out, one life at a time;
I don’t want to die before crossing the line.


I need to learn more but my fate hangs over me;
I need to see something so special it sets my mind free.
I need something amazing before I die;
Because I don’t believe I ever had enough time.


We are born to die so live life quickly;
Because it goes in a second and becomes a tragedy.
Twenty something; killed so easily.
Life is short and life is a lie.


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Words


Consider the lily...  Nah, only kidding Gee;

Consider me for an honours degree.

I hope you like my poetry,

For it’s simply me just doing my thing.



So on we shall go, to see what he says next…

Ok, er, alright then…

We shall call this the end.


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Once upon a mind.


A lonely soul sleeps inside my heart.
It has given up on trying to be my star.
The light has dimmed; the finish has begun to become duller.
I have never been anything other than sullen
And now my soul is no watercolour.


Scatter no seeds, for nothing will grow,
Inside this black hole that I call my soul.
I cannot take hold of a direction in which to go,
Because I am unable to see ahead, when I am without hope.


No more, no less;
The same phrase repeats again.
What more can I say when all is gone so far away?
Out of reach, but never out of mind;
Still it lingers at the fore front of a head without design.
Clutter, splutter, mix me with resent;
No chance to repent,
No choice to have left.


Just left behind, by a love life that has moved on to be happy
And found itself a new home, as I lie inside my cemetery.
Gone from this diseased soul, formed from insecurities.
It has escaped and taken my heart with it and from me.
Now I am soulless and never free to dream without regret.
Continuously delirious,
So easy to detest.
Once upon a mind, love has exploded
And now there is no trace left.


No Jessica Rabbit to find,
No saving emo.
No happy me;
Just where ego, I go.


My body moves of its own accord.
I am too bored to give it orders,
When I am busy crawling up the wall,
In search of just one thing that even matters!
Life is no adventure and I am the mad hatter.


Lost in a wonderland of my own mind’s creations.
I fall down (a rabbit hole) and break an ankle.
I am no longer in contention,
To be a contender for the title of most loved.
Just stuck in the mud with no tears left to wash it all off;
Gone is my chosen destiny…I have given up.


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I could be loved


There is a woman I like
And I think I might,
Be able to tell her how she makes me feel.
She can see it in my smile, so I can no longer hide.


She is beauty to me and who knows? Maybe,
She may feel the same way, if she is hiding her feelings deep.
We always exchange smiles and when we talk time flies by;
I see the blue lakes in her eyes and she takes me so high.


She lifts my true heart, way up, to be seen within my eyes.
I could love her one day, someway, if only I knew her mind.
She makes all people feel good with her loving words.
She happily speaks of love, (not my bitter words of hurt.)
She makes me dream of possibilities;
Every time she makes me laugh, I see epiphanies.


No more doubting love, no more sad heart ache.
I must believe in love; more effort I must make.
I must throw myself into the eye of the storm,
All in the name of love; all in the hope of her touch.
She gives me confidence to once more try to trust.
Maybe we could be good together
And maybe…
I could be loved.


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Wasting words


I want to be electronic;
I can only be more robotic.
Please try to fix my empathy;
I have lost it.  I am not hypnotic.
I cannot make you feel this,
Without giving away my secrets.


We need to join and become one mind,
So you can truly feel the words that I write.
I want to know what you feel inside,
So I can absorb your words, I will not lie; tell me how to write.


I cannot change without your thoughts screaming at me.
I need to know what you think; show me everything.
Do not hold back, I need true feelings;
Then maybe I can improve my understanding.


I create words for fun; I’m building string theories to pull you in
And when I think I am done, I will force myself to continue writing.
I take a piece of your mind and it extends my thoughts.
I give away my art; you help me rearrange it all.
As I grow, my books, they continue expanding
And as my words evolve, I am becoming more demanding.
If it’s not good enough, then it is nothing.
Nothing is ever good enough, but I am still going.


When I have made a change,
I hope that it works,
Because I need to age with age;
No more wasting words.


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Speak to me.


Your accent brings a smile to my face.
You make the words more beautiful.
I could happily listen to you talk about anything
And I would be amazed at the language you speak,
As it appears to be tangible.


I want to pluck your words from the air before they drift away.
I want to lift you up from any despair;
No harm should ever be sent your way.
I want to save you.
I will try to amaze you by telling you my truth;
I dream about you.
Well, not exactly you; just the image I have formed,
Of the ideal woman.  She stands out from the norm,
For she is rather extraordinary.
I hope you are her; I have been waiting patiently,
For love to find me; I’m oh so ready to embrace love.
Are you made for me?  Because I am love in human form.


If I were to become yours, would you want to be adored?
And cherished and kissed and merry and picked
Ahead of all others?
My chosen, let’s watch Frozen,
So I can hear the voice of an angel.
I have no need to change the channel.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Left behind to sigh?


Six days and twenty three hours
And fifty eight minutes; waiting for two.
It’s been six days and twenty three hours
And fifty eight minutes that I have been waiting to talk to you.


If one day I get the chance to tell you how I feel,
Then I hope you will take the time,
To see my love for you is the real deal.
I wish I could convince you that my feelings will not change;
For two minutes, I will wait for fifty eight,
Plus twenty three and six more days.


My stop watch tells me stop day dreaming,
About a love that can never be;
But my watch it doesn’t know anything,
Except that the time is twelve-o-three.
You see last night has come and gone and by now I should be asleep,
But still here I lie thinking about you and six days and twenty three.


If tomorrow I see a sign that leads me away,
I will be sure to pay it no mind, because I have words I have to say.
If you are loved by the person that you love,
Then I will disappear into history;
But if you too are waiting,
For something good to walk into your life,
Then maybe I should try, to show you a piece of me.


This heart is all at odds, because it thinks it is time it became a pair.
Do I carry on with only you in my sight?
Or do I sigh like you were never there?
Zombie walking hand in hand,
With the nothingness of single life.
Fix me; let me try to be your man
And maybe you could find somebody that you really like.


This is no time to be wasting time;
All or nothing, not a one night stand.
I want you, now it’s your turn to decide
And tell me how I can make you understand?


A question mark has appeared on your lips.
We have so much to learn in two minutes of time;
But for fifty eight minutes and twenty three hours
And six long days, I have been waiting for you,
To tell me if you like me, or to just walk away.
Are you really going to just leave me behind to sigh?


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I love you, but…


I love you, but you’re driving me crazy.
You’re such a cry baby; I’m driving Miss Daisy.
Can you even hear me?


I love you, but I don’t get your jokes.
I hate the fact that you make me feel so alone.
I want you to stay, but I can’t wait for you to go.
I love being with you, but I am beginning to tire of your ego.


I love you, but I wish you would do something different with your hair.
I wish you knew how to show me that you really care.
I wish you missed me when I am not there,
But still, I love you, whenever I am anywhere.


I love you, but I don’t know what our future holds.
I don’t know if you love me when you leave me feeling so cold.
I don’t know exactly where it is we are going.
All I know is I can’t imagine being without you;
But you are never around when I need consoling.


Been with you so long I don’t know what is wrong.
It’s just the way things have always been;
I thought you were my swan song.
I love you, but is this all going to go away?
I love you, but I wish you would change.


I love you, but I don’t know if I always will.
So I will love you for now,
But one day I will no longer,
Be willing to run up that hill.


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Music


Music is today’s poetry.  This is still our hour.
Music lets us become free from all the grind of power.
Music makes us fall in love with a moment in time.
Music is a memory; words are made to rhyme.


People need to dance and at the end, clap their hands.
Music helps us say those words,
When we are without a way to make you understand.
Beneath balconies we stand, with a ghetto blaster in our hands.
It’s raining, it’s pouring, so come on down and dance.


The modern day poet is a wannabee lyricist.
The modern day artisan produces music.
Music creates muses, because that’s what music truly is;
An collective event where nobody loses.


The sound of a song will be loved by someone
And the classics never miss; they reach out to everyone.
If it hits, then it’s a hit.
If it misses, then just forget it.
If you can’t, then it starts to become a repetitive, repetitive.
You hear it so many times, you still don’t like it, but you sing it
And in the end, you don’t mind anymore…
Sure; go ahead and play it on repeated.


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Zero heroes


Whatever happened to the heroes?
Those that we used to adore.
I need somebody to tell me,
Where do they go when they’re about to fall?


Whatever happened to the heroes?
Where are they now?  Nobody knows.
Where did they all choose to go?
I guess I lost all my heroes.
They all seem to fade away in the end.
Whatever happens to the ego’s?
When we decide they have let us down.
I guess things will never be the same again; oh no.


We were surrounded by infamy,
But now they’re all so sweet; no-one is angry.
They’re all so nice it makes me want to scream!
Get back on your star and let us once more dream.
Why does this happen to our heroes?
We want to love them like we did all those years ago.
But something happens to our heroes;
No more shouting loud, they’re all so mellow.
Whatever happened to our heroes?
They change with time; they all fall or die.
Our heroes change in our life time;
I wish I could go back and see them in their prime…
I want to go back in time.


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The moment I knew.


As I turned the corner to climb those steps,
I looked up and saw you and I lost my breath;
You took it away, as I was stunned by your stunning beauty.
I heard my heart speak, as it spoke to me…


It simply said “Wow!” and at that moment, I fell;
So the time has come for me to tell.
You were dressed in white, next to a window of light
And as I looked deep into your eyes, I saw sun shine.


I was looking for someone with fire in their eyes
And yours held the sun itself, so diamonds came to mind.
I was left speechless as you softly spoke
And as I arrived at your feet, my voice and I rose,
To speak unto you, while I was falling for you
And from that moment in time…I knew.


If I had the chance to tell you of my feelings,
I had to tell you, I have been day-dreaming,
About possibilities
And reasons why not (times infinity)…


But a single thought still remains.
What if she said “Ok Babe”…to me?
Just think of what could happen;
Just think of what could be.
Here’s to risking everything.


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Pretty liar


Set my heart on fire;
Make me burn with desire.
So beautiful, others need not apply.
I try so hard to find comfort in your lies.


I need passionate to match my passion.
I want to get you undressed, so wear a red dress.
Use your seduction;
Leave me helpless.


Entice me into your open arms,
With promises of love.
Forever calling to me, but never seen so far;
I am still so far away from ‘loved’.


Link us together with golden bands.
I cross my heart that I will love you more and more.
I have so much love but nobody who understands;
Be my parachute to catch me when I fall.


You leave me spinning three sixty;
Evaporate me.
Let me become a vital part of your totality.
Hold me closer so that I can ooze into you.
You and I are one and the same; let us become ‘Us two’.


Speak a truth never before mentioned.
Confess your love so I can tell you my truth.
Be my pretty liar, my addiction.
You have my lust and all of my love… now what am I to do?


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I am left speechless by her beauty.


My heart is in two pieces, torn apart by love.
Art leaves me sleepless; where is my good?
An empty orchestra plays only violins.
I need her love, to silence my own screams
And bring an end to all my tears.


I can no longer, wish upon a,
Star that has never even shone for me.
I am no stronger, with or without her.
I am weakness, down on my knees.
All my words are only empty speech bubbles,
None of my dreams ever reach for the sky.
She has no double…I have no lies.
I must be true if I remain mute,
Because if I have never spoken,
Then how could I ever have deceived the truth?


All I am is another man.
I have fallen,
I have stopped.
I have no plans to ever give any thanx,
For all the hope that I have lost.


All the love that could have been,
All the dreams…
They don’t mean a thing.


All these butterflies flying inside of me,
Only leave my feelings in knots, I need to breathe.
Hand on my heart,
It feels as if there is a hand around my heart
And I am tight in its grip.
I am forever stopping me…from breathing.


I cannot even help myself,
So I will never be able to show her my true self.
She will never hear about my inner demons screams.
I beg to just be loved by her; she will not see my own agony.
She will not know about the pain I constantly feel,
Because she will never know my feelings for her are real.


I am a broken, broken being.
I have not spoken, spoken of my needs.
She does not know she is what I desire,
Because I am trapped inside this scared of love liar.


All these feelings that I have to keep;
I hold inside my ruined soul.
All these things I wish I could be,
Are only ever love stories that are never actually told.


I remain in silence, my own choice for her freedom.
She is now free because I never mentioned,
The love that exists inside the heart of this man.
She is now gone and I am alone once more;
A stone, so stuck, in quick sand.
I am dressed in black, because of my life as a stage hand.


Last chance to give it a shot and win her love…
Going…
Going…
Gone.


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Ain’t that a kick in the head?


Ain’t got nobody to ‘love you lots.’
So what?
Ain’t got nobody to call.
That’s cool.
Ain’t got nobody to call me good.
Good.


Ain’t got enough time to tell you the truth.
Whether I am good or bad is not up to you.
I decide to be real or lie.
So what if I don’t care if you begin to cry.


As they set you a task;
It’s all a-tisket, a-tasket, a-yakety-yak.
It’s all the same to me; don’t play your game.
You have to work or laugh.


Complete the level;
Move onto another.
One courageous deed needed indeed,
To find a perfect lover.


Stale-mates.
Just you wait.
Set your head free of need,
Or bite me.


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Standing at the precipice


So here I am.
Is this it?
All I have to give,
To live,
For this?
Decision time.
Write a rhyme,
Or right a wrong.
Find a song.
Speak a line.
Sign goodbye on the dotted line…


Do not say why if you do not understand.
By now I guess you never will.
I have spent a life-time running up that hill
And for what?
My lot is broken pieces;
Memories of people’s speeches.
The lies they told,
I am already cold,
To the ways of humanity.
Long time been a ghost.
I save today for a better time.
I find a way to write a rhyme,
Instead of finding some paper to sign.


Life is just a blur to the illusion of love.
Just because you know why,
Doesn’t mean you should.
If not you should,
But the truth is you do not care anything like I could.


Bullet-proof is the opposite of my blind-love-scholar view.
No thought to think of without an end.
Just going to pretend, that I’ll be around.
I have been gone for most of my life.
I exist in this pretense; in this moment I can pretend;
But give it time.


It’s time to say or sign;
Good hi…
Or
Goodbye.


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How to say goodbye.


Days pass by with no love in sight,
But throughout the sighs, I see a Wife.
My Wife, not yours;
You are safe from my charisma.
I believe in a true love;
You can keep your amoeba.


Through the spirits of time,
I have had conversations with past lives,
And all day long, I write the same lines.
Every page contains love or death,
Truth or lie, but still I cannot hide.


In days of yore, I spared a thought,
To what she would think, if she read my ink,
But now I hold no remorse; no love; no more,
For she has disappeared away from my world.


This day is at an ending;
I am through with all pretending.
Sarah speaks through her verses…never lending.


I ask nothing of you,
For I am no longer your true.
There is only time for one last sigh;
No time for a final line to say goodbye.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Good woman


Looking for a good woman;
Been looking for her my whole life through.
Searching for some good lovin’;
This is my search and it leaves me feeling so blue.


Tryin’ to find her, looking everywhere I go.
I’m just looking for a good woman.
Won’t you give me directions to her, if you know?
I’m just looking at the women as they all pass on by.
Waiting on a good woman.
I’ve been waiting my whole life.


I’ve met the most beautiful roses,
And they all wilted away.
I’ve seen the brightest moonbeams,
And they all faded with the passing days.
I’ve woken up next to Goddesses,
And I’ve slept next to ugly hearts.
I’ve wasted too much time on empty dresses.
I’ve broken pieces of me that can’t be cured with stars.


I’m singing songs of lovin’,
But I’m lonely as a bee.
I’m writing poems about love,
But love is a thing I ain’t ever seen.
I’ve seen a thousand imitators,
And I’ve wined and dined a million fakes.
I’ve listened to other people’s stories;
All the lovers and all those I hate.
I could never believe their souls were good for me,
Because all I have ever known is misery.


Still time to find a good woman, they say.
I’ve still got time on my hands, so I pray.
I’ve been sitting on my hands forever.
I hope opposites truly do attract,
Because I am such a stupid man,
And I am still left here waiting for my love-life to get better.


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