After you've ran for miles and miles
Chasing happiness and it's numerous joys
To quell the restlessness that reigns your insides
And you're tired of promising yourself
That something will happen tomorrow
And you'll hurtle towards a zenith
of everlasting elation and exhilaration
Stop and take a breather
A moment to realize
That this endless wait for a blissful tomorrow
Has been the reason for your distress throughout
it will be
As long as you'll continue to believe
in a delightful tomorrow
rather than an ordinary today
This ordinary today which has all that you need
Even the miracle that you've been waiting for indeed
Embrace it with  open arms
Seek content in whatever it seems to offer
No longer will you hunt for those ever elusive pleasures
For you'll realise
That they were nothing more than a fleeting entity
Lasting satisfaction you will receive
A pristine peace you will find within

The wounded isn't as weak as you perceive
The wounds are just an evidence
Of the battles fought gallantly
Of undying courage and perseverance
A brave show of resilience
When faced with crippling tragedies
The wounded knows how it feels
To push through searing pain
When bruised skin burns
And the night forgets to end
The wounded knows the agony
Of silent screams and voiceless aches
Invisible to the naked eye
A cause of further torment
But a wounded won't ever
Drown in the waves
Of treachery and deceit
His actions are marked by prudence
He's turned wary and vigilant
The wounded is a survivor
He dares to hope tirelessly
Don't mistake him as an injured minion
His scars are a testimony of his strength

This nauseating feeling
Of insignificance
Has turned my mind
Into an asylum of sorts
Where I am the only qualified doctor
Giving myself a false diagnosis
All the **** time

I'm in love with this boy
Who drinks so much at times
That he fails to recognize me
And pushes me away
Like the cold beer bottle
He just emptied
Before falling on the floor
And closing his eyes for the day
I'm in love with this boy
Who takes days to reply to my messages
But texts me whenever he is bored
He knows that I'll leave everything at once
Just to talk to him whenever he wishes to
He tastes like tobacco and kamikaze shots
Doesn't cares if I wear a **** brown shade
Or an oxblood red
It doesn't makes any difference in the dark
When my mouth he explores
like it's a diamond mine
But his hunger for me subsides
As soon as the sun rises up
I want him to ask me out
for coffee and movie dates
But he only wants to meet me
In hotel rooms and nearby bed and breakfasts
Where he can love me I guess
But I only hear him saying
Are you ready for round two
Sometimes I ask him
How often do you think about me
Do you see us together in future too
To which he tilts his head
And scratches the nape of his neck
Then says
Some questions are better left unanswered
Cause future is uncertain you know
And at that moment
I struggle to hold back my tears
And attempt to smile a bit
I don't know why I love this boy
But I do
And I hate myself for it

When the stars don't shine
I like to think
That maybe they are tired tonight
Of tirelessly flickering all the time
And chasing away the blackness
That spreads far and wide
when the radiant sun disappears down the horizon
And the shadows become stronger and sharper at the same time
Maybe they too need some time to relax
A moment to rest and unwind
So they bury themselves
Under a blanket of dusk
Yawn and sleep for some time
Ready to wake up with a renewed vigor
So tomorrow there'll be
An absolutely gorgeous
Luminous night

Let us sit
Beneath a rosy sunset
And fall like petals
Into each others arms
Let a silken breeze
Caress our skin
And carry away our resentments
To a distant land
Let the starlit sky
Dazzle us tonight
Let the flaxen beam
Of a resplendent moon
Hypnotise us
So we can see galaxies
In each others eyes
Let the music of our heart beats
Suffuse a tranquil silence
And make us smile in delight
Lay beside me
On a soft grass
Let our fingers
Touch for a while
So we can sense
That everything's alright
Before we drift into
A haven of pleasantly vivid dreams
Made up of you and I
And wake up
To find ourselves
Forgetting
To say goodbye

From the cracks in the sidewalks
of old weather beaten tracks
With gravel roads full of grime and dust
Near dilapidated walls
Where days old refuse has accumulated
And the air lacks it's unique fresh scent
You find a way to thrive and shine
And your smile grows wide
As the sun sails by
Even though you won't be able to change your spot
This forgotten decrepit place
Will be your home throughout your life
Yet you don't seem to mind at all
For you've carved your happiness here
A happiness that seems to last
Even when you're surrounded by grey crumbling life
Day in and day out
You've found a reason to breathe and boom
you're unperturbed by what's around
And that's the reason your beauty sparkles
Way more than those who grow in perfectly manicured lawns

Our hearts beat in perfect harmony
A beautifully orchestrated
Rhythmic melody
Of a love that never ceases
To grow
But glistens with time
Like the sparkling galaxies
So hold my hand
Sit by my side
Lets cherish this love
Our priceless gem
And sing a duet
Meant for you and me

Hand me the palette
If you can
I'm not a great artist
But I'll try my best
To colour the universe
inside your weary soul
In kaleidoscopic hues
Brighter than the rainbows
Of spring summer
And other verdant seasons
I'll try to revive
It's lustre back
Make the sun shine
As bright as I can
Scrub away
The clouds of despair
And the monsoon rains
I'll wipe with my hands
After I've accomplished my art
I'm sure I will see
your smile again
Your eyes will gleam
With boundless joy
And you won't even remember
What made you feel
So sad and desolate
In the first place

I vanquished my feelings for you
Burned my love for you
The extent of which could never be traversed by you
And buried myself under oceans of tears
The day I realized
No matter how much I crave you
My love shall always dissipate
Into the  ashes of a great sorrow known by the name of Unrequited

Within the radiance of your eyes, I eagerly got lost, so easily
Even when you rolled your eyes, I was unable to look away, so easily
/
Every word that came from your mouth, I listened carefully
Even when they weren't addressed to me, for the sound of your voice, I ached dearly
/
Through long sleepless nights, I dreamt of you sitting beside me
Even when I knew you, that you could've  been sitting with someone else, quite comfortably
/
Every day I yearned, to tell you that you meant the world to me
Every moment I suppressed this urge painfully,
/
cause I knew, my love was meant to be left, unrequited

With iridescent eyes and bewitching smile
Your vision warms these wintry nights
And though I try not to fall into the same groove
Still I sink in a bed of ambrosial dreams about you
You grace me with your ample presence
Without fear I confess that I'm drawn to your essence
These pining heartstrings strum your name
Their hopeless yearning's too strong to be maimed
Yet the jarring reality strikes me hard with daybreak
I realise the futility of coveting you as I wake
In your eyes I'll never see a longing to hold me close
But I'll keep craving you despite knowing there's no hope
Why is it so incredibly hard for you to love me
Why is it so incredibly easy for me to keep falling for you selflessly

From the edge of a highest cliff
on a dark night
all you can see
is a sable terrifying wilderness
with a few shards of warped shapes
their edges as sharp as serrated knives and razor blades
littered all over a tar black abyss
Glaring at you ferociously
Making you tremble
And drops of sweat may begin to gather above your lips
A wickedly cold wind may blow against your shivering flesh
Making it ideal for tiny goosebumps to crawl all over
And the eerie silence surrounding you
May only be broken by the incessant chattering of your teeth at regular intervals
Right then
At that moment
Life looks really scary and frightening
But then youll notice a tiny little spark of dim light flickering and glowing
Slowly coming up from behind the horizon
Before you blink for the second time
You may find your eyes struggling to adjust to a blinding light
Pouring over you
Drenching you in a shimmering radiance
As you look up
Youll find a crystal clear sky
Shining like a soft white fabric of silk
Adorned beautifully by  shafts of golden sunlight spreading far and wide
Illuminating the sodden corners of the world
While a flock of chirping birds create melodious ripples in the air
As they fly past rustling moss green leaves
With pieces of food in their beaks
To feed and nurture their young ones and see them grow
Like tender buds sprouting into supple luscious flowers
Youll no longer tremble
Every drop of fear stained sweat will evaporate from your skin
Even though your standing face to face with the vast orb of flames
On that same spot
That edge of the highest cliff
On which you were shaking with terror a few hours ago
With a wavering resolve
But now it appears a distant part of the past
You no longer think about it even once in the entire day
Would you feel surprised
If i tell you
That this sudden change of nature that left you breathless a moment ago and fearless a moment afterwards exactly mirrors this thing called life

Let me sit
Under your stoic gaze tonight
Do stroke me with your incandescence
And bestow me some peace of mind
Caress me with your warmth
So I may fall asleep in time
But try not to step inside my dreams
Cause if you do
I might not want to wake up
And watch the world
Without you in sight

The distance between
Your balmy zephyr like touch
And my once scarlet
Now bloodless lips
Is getting wider
The strong thick mantle of your embrace
Feels flimsy spectral and diaphanous
The dulcet sound of your voice
That swelled my heart with solace
Has receded beyond hoarse whispers
Puncturing my soul
In pitch black
Eclipse shaped bullet holes
And a smooth black silence
Has devoured every spec of possibility
That can be articulated by you or me
To stop this calamity
from reaching it's ******
But I'm still trying
Do you see
I'm stumbling and fumbling in the dark
Fervently wishing
For the sun to flare with a ferocious intensity
So I can look deep into your eyes
See If there's a splinter of feeling left
And search for the inexplicable reasons
For this abrupt loss emotions
And this unanticipated ending

The day begins with a badly burned tawny sun rearing its head up impatiently waiting for the dusk to gather and ends with a pale ashen moon casting its feeble light in vain to diminish the overwhelming darkness all around.But i'm determined to see more than this.Tell me that the sun is beaming today kissing the sky a scintillating golden revealing a most breathtaking summer afternoon and the moon's lustre is beckoning me to spend the night under its ethreal radiance and i'll believe you.
The distended day feels like a colourless ocean and i dont know how to swim.So i spend my time thrashing its vacuous waves struggling to remain just above its surface so i can almost breathe with a slight difficulty.But i intent on feeling more than this.Hold my hand,crack a few inane jokes. I'll laugh so hard you'll have to press your hands to your ears but the sound of laughter in an empty house always echoes thunderously isnt it.I feel incredibly  peaceful when the heavy night surrounds me
Its my refuge my sanctuary till dawn breaks mercilessly through my window and shatters the thick layers of brooding silence all around me.The thrumming universe outside
rarely alights my curiosity.I'm a mute spectator when i step outside,hardly discernible specially when the sudden onslaught of wind knocks me down at a desolate corner of the street.But if you try to show me that the hush of the morning is filled with serenity and is more blissful than the sulking silence of the night then i'll readily abandon my sanctuary .Tell me that my footsteps have the strength to carve fissures on this earth and the pulsating rhythm that i hear outside can be heard from inside of me too.I will be genuinely interested then in exploring the different facets of life with you.Will you just try a little bit to make me believe slowly that i'm capable of living like you and not just existing like this?i insist that you do so.

I feel ashamed
When i see the extent of damage
That you've inflicted on my heart
There are too many splits and cracks
Too many irreparable fractures and fissures
From twisting and tossing it like a ball
Too many gashes from words
With edges as sharp as an exceptionally chiseled sword
Which will take a lifetime to heal
I wish I could say that my heart has become an extremely fragile entity now
But you've actually rendered it obsolete
No longer capable of loving anyone
Nor being loved by anyone due to its pulverized condition

I think I bequeathed
More than half of what was in me to you
I willingly conceded the biggest part of my heart and my soul to you
The thought of you leaving
Made me lose my mind
Such huge portions of myself I surrendered to you
Your presence filled
Every empty corner inside me
Now that you're gone
Taking those immense parts of me with you
I've no idea who I am anymore
A half dead human maybe
I hear I'm still alive
But I find it difficult to breathe
And my heart barely beats
I fail to recognize the person who stares at me with glazed eyes
When I look in the mirror
I had absolutely no clue
That loving someone
Would bring so much pain
I guess the fault is mine
I loved you too much
Way more than you could handle
In this life

If it's not too late
Then maybe we can
gift ourselves
With another chance
To be us again
I will apologize
For my mistakes
And you can promise me
That your promises won't break
We'll assure each other
That this time around
We'll make efforts
For a smooth sail
We'll weather through the storms
And brave the downpours
But won't end up
Shipwrecked
And desolate

Spoon me
Against your heart
Grant me
Your tranquil warmth
Suture the seams
Of my weathered soul
With your loving gaze
And ardent voice
Hold me
In an eternal embrace
As long as you can

Why is it that
whenever I find
my way back
After much difficulty
From the depths
Of your eyes
My breath comes out
In heavy sighs
And a faint voice
From a distant corner
In my mind
Gently and softly
But firmly tells me
That the thousand ways
In which I smile
With you by my side
Will only turn
Into fragments
of memories
A few years
Down the line
And the emotions
they'll induce
Will drench me
To the bones
And wash away
Every color
In front of my eyes

When i begin to wilt
Do sprinkle some words
Of hope upon my skin
Let a slender ray of kindness
Caress the lids
Of my downcast eyes
And try to spend some time
By my side
Making me realize
How im getting stronger
With every passing moment
In time
With such precious
and tender caring
Soon you'll see me
Bloom into a
Breathtakingly beautiful flower
That'll sway with the melodic wind
Shining with glee

You went away
To an unknown place
And I awaited you
Seeking you in an unlimited space
My efforts to reach you
Went only in vain
For I could never fathom
Why you never wanted to see me again
We were so happy
Singing love songs dancing in the rain
Until you announced
That we should take a much needed break
A break which you never meant to renew
As it turns out you were just looking for an escape
Another adventure and another chase
And In her arms you were seeking solace
Forgotten in a breath
Turned to a haze
Oh how naive was i
Thinking I could never be replaced
Living in an illusion
That we could be soul mates
Like the petals of moon
Your love for me waxed and waned
As I walk this road
Where we first kissed and held hands
The memories come raining down
Stabbing me mercilessly as I wince in pain
With no one to hear my cries
and wipe these tears
Itching and burning my face

I can dream without you
And I do not wake up in the morning
Thinking about you
I do not wish anymore
How we could have been together
Just me and you
Our love is burned beyond repair
It's ashes have dissipated into the thin air
The reality is mine to endure
I no longer walk with eyes half closed
I have ceased to believe
That what i see is what it actually is
Nothing is as it appears to be
So tread carefully
Even if you are a seasoned warrior
Love can induce cracks
Even in a hardened skin
No, I still believe in wishing upon shooting stars
And swimming in constellations
In someone's eyes like before
As a glimmer of hope refuses to fade
It's undying and fathomless
As the forget me not skies above
Although it hurts a little bit
In the depths of my being
Where I welcomed you
With open arms
and took you in
But the pain is a lot less
And not how it used to be
My heart still beats perfectly
See I'm fine
I can survive
Its not as difficult
As I thought it would be

If many people knew
That words
Once out of our mouths
Can either pierce
A perfectly beating heart
Or caress
A woe-stricken soul
They can either be a balm
And soothe the aching burns and scars
Or lodge as bullets
Inside a mind
Bestowing wounds
To be nursed for a lifetime
They can either make
A skin shimmer with hope
Or strip it of its lustre
Like dull ancient sculptures
If only many people knew
That their words are endowed
With a power so surreal
Which can either save
Or wreak havoc
Then perhaps
Less tears would be shed
More smiles would be exchanged
And this world
Would indeed become
A better place

Lately you've turned into a source of distress rather than delight
The way you act is confusing the **** out of me
Its getting difficult for me to stretch my patience further each day
I hope you wear a stable demeanor soon
Cause sometimes I can foresee myself
Breaking apart with exasperation
I wish I could yell at your face
Tell you to stop being so pathetic
I'm not that ****** job that you took for granted till you were expelled
I'm not one of those cheap rubber squeeze ***** that you twist and toss to relieve your stress
I won't keep smiling like them
You need to stop kicking me like I'm your punching bag
Whenever you need to release your pent up frustrations
I'm a human with feelings and emotions
At the core of her being
I'm just quiet because I don't want to ruin
Whatever's between us
I don't want to watch you leave
Without giving me a second glance
I'm quiet because I believe that this turmoil between us would end somehow
I just hope that it ends soon
I hope you become someone
Whom I once knew

I was awestruck by the sublime heat of our love which filled every jagged and rugged crevice of my soul.
But it only took a lightening bolt and soon we were dusting its ashes from our clothes
It burned swiftly like the scorching indian summer when we first met
Your hazel eyes glued to mine
The sultry southern wind could do nothing to calm your untamed passion that i innately knew would perfectly rival mine
The swooping birds whistled your lovesong
Tickling me tainting my dreams with specs of reality
Everything felt so inevitable
Maybe i was naive or
Stupid enough
I coudnt smell any warning
Maybe i was inebriated by your smouldering scent
Or did i deliberately turned a blind eye
Or a deaf ear when the placid waters of the tranquil lake began to roar
Impelling me
Trying to save me from going astray
But my heart knew you would save me
If only i knew
That you never ever felt the same
Cause you were never the one to stay

I'm delighted
To welcome you
Into my world
Follow me
As i stumble my way
Through the
splendid tapestry
Of vastly intricate labyrinths
In my mind
Walk tenderly
Holding my hand
through the
Melodically creaking corridors
In my heart
And feel the
Cooling atlantic currents
That may slightly dishevel
Your well groomed countenance
Standing within the
silent chambers
Of my soul
But before you
Turn to leave
Please don't forget
To tell me
If you'd like to
Visit again someday
Perhaps stay
For an extended period
Of time
Can i conjure
A blissful possibility
This time

Just write
When goodbyes hurt more than before
When the most beautiful summer afternoon
Fails to lure you out of your room
When you ache to go back and relive that moment just one more time
When you feel forlorn and hopeless
even amid a thousand loving eyes
When you feel exhausted and tired to the bone
But no matter how much you sleep
That tiredness doesn't recedes
But increases fourfold
When your breath comes out in heavy sighs
And sometimes you even wonder
What's the point of breathing at all
Is it useful for me anymore
Don't hold back
The words that you pen are a source of solace
They'll heal you when all else fails
Soon you will be writing
About affectionate greetings and cheerful hellos
About promising new beginnings
And the excitement of crossing new thresholds
The clutches of winter would melt like snow
And you'll write about the day spent playing soccer in your muddy sneakers
Soon you'll count stars in someone's eyes
And write it down with a shy smile
Hope filled words will fill your mind
You'll sparkle with an energy so profound
And sleep like an innocent baby at night
Eager to breathe the fresh air of dawn
Eager to live once again
To realize that you're so precious
You just had to believe in your hidden strength
And keep writing and fighting through it all

I'll write to you
I'll write for you
That's the only thing
That soothes my soul
When your thoughts become overwhelming
And start trickling from every corner of my mind
When the ripples of your voice
Bounce back  from the deepest recesses of my being
When the flickering stars at night
Remind me of that glimmer that used to dance  in your eyes
When the crescent moon nestled between the clouds
Reminds me of your smile
When the dense dark sky stretching above
Reminds me of your thick ebony locks
And the spiral waves kissing a moonlit shore
Reminds me of those beautiful curls
With which you were naturally blessed
The rosy blooms of spring
Reminds me of your scarlet lips
And  the rising sun each day
Fills me with a renewed hope and strength to find you again
When the languishing sun each evening
Casts a feeble light upon my empty bed
My tears glisten in the dying embers of sunset
And the cradle of my heart begins to yearn for you again
Before an ashen moon rears it's pale head
And another vacant day comes to an end

The sky looks marvelously serene
Like a bejeweled birthday gift
Laced with bright ribbons
Of a sparkling sunlit peace
Perhaps it's an evidence of
Our invisible yet invincible
strength and synergy
To continue living or existing
In a clear direction which
Renders us worthy of
A gracious life as well as
Shelters our faith in ourselves
Even when the vicious wintry haze
Makes us shiver and quiver
With ceaseless doubts and mysteries
Let us all bask in the pleasing warmth
Of this heavenly gift
Let's celebrate together
Our mindful victory against
Our very own weaknesses
Today

Sometimes I dream about you
And I can see your bright eyes
Twinkling and beckoning me to come home
The cool breeze playing with your hair
Wisps of caramel brown curls caressing your forehead
And the blazing sun beating down upon your tanned shoulders
As I steal multiple glances to admire
The outline of those round rippling muscles
But something doesn't feels real
And when i try to touch you
You disappear without a whisper
That's when I feel the sharp sun piercing my skin
The reality set in as Im forced to open up my eyes
How desperately I cling on to the hope of 'us' again
Under the same sky
Breathing the same air
Just to sooth the ceaseless ache in my chest
A neverending anticipation
Deliberately ignoring the fact that you're obscured under a new wind
And blissfully painted a place anew for yourself
In a horizon
Far away

You are a velvety soft feather
Swirling gracefully
in a scented breeze
That I yearn to catch
And tickle my tender skin with
Rejuvenating my weary senses
With a long forgotten sound
of a crackling laugh
You are a zephyr kissed breath
That slips and slides
In an ambrosial wind
Too far away
From the realms of my lips
Which my trembling hands
Will never be able
To successfully catch

I no longer wilt
In your absence
I bloom like a cactus
In a desert

Your smile still gives
wings to my hopes
And they soar high
Like an eagle
Into an infinitely beautiful
Limitless sky above
But your words
Never fail
To clip their wings
And impair their flight
Till they fall down
Like a corpse
And turn nebulous
With doubts
Only to rise again
Like a Phoenix
From oblivion
The moment your smile
Greets my eyes  
Yet again