It was here after the universe was created
After the creatures who walked the earth
After the water creatures swam
After everything was created
After Eve ate of the fruit of the tree

It entered the world
It made the world a place full of choices
Full of rights and wrongs
Full of rejections and acceptance
So full of choices that we can choose
Which choice to make

It was here before the first child was born
Before that innocent child
Could walk
Talk
Breathe
Or know much about what is going on

It was here before you and I were ever born
Before our parents gave birth to us
Before we made our first friend
Before all of this around us came to be

It has been here ever since the serpent in the garden
Tempted Eve and Adam stood silent
When Adam could have spoken up
But didn’t

But now that it is here we have choices
We have free will
We have the choice to choose right from wrong
Because of our sin we have nailed our Savior to the cross
To save us
To take three nails for us
To take a death that should have been our death
But no
Jesus took that death
Took our death upon himself
Even though he himself was perfect
Who committed no sin
Did nothing wrong
Was Perfect

Ever since He died on that cross for us
We now have eternal life with our Father
When one day we are able to come home
With no more pain
No more suffering
No more tears that are to be shed
But tears of Joy
We are Home and able to come home
Once we accept Jesus as our Lord and Savior
When we admit that we can’t do anything on our own
That through and only through Jesus
We are saved
And can come home

But this that caused God to send His one and only Son
To die on the cross for us is because of
Sin
Sin caused that and is what brought all this upon us
Why we have free will
And choices to make
It’s all because of sin that entered the world
Through just one eating
Of one fruit
From one tree
Sin

Sin
When the
Serpent with those sly words
Interjected himself into the world to cause trouble and deceive
Never giving up till the end of the days when he is thrown back into the eternal fire

Then when the days here are done
Sin will be no more
the eternal fire full of pain and anguish
But Heaven the place free from all sin and deceit
Sin will never be near again

As all leaves have fallen to bare empty trees
Temperatures begin to drop
Colder and colder each day
From not being able to see your breath to seeing
And all the long sleeves and pants come out
With hats and mittens and boots and all other snow gear
Its time for the delicate and soft things to fall

For how could this be so soft yet hard at the same time?
Soft when first falling from the white clouds above
To being packed into spherical shapes to become hard
That is white all year round from cloud to ground
Yet when gone number one in or stepped on many times
Turns a different color

On those nights with the lights outside seeing them flakes fall
And looking so peaceful it just seems so relaxing to sit and look at
And watch gracefully fall for hours at a time

Thinking how pure it is to have something glide to earth
Making the round land we are on so beautiful you look in awe

To be outside no longer warm
To dress cozy to enjoy the weather and play in the fluffiness
Or stickiness and build with it
Just too much fun sometimes
After to come inside and heat up with some hot chocolate
Or maybe some tea and warm fuzzy blankets

The outdoors becomes cold and sometimes like ice
We choose to stay in and play some games and have some family time
Read a book
Or even a movie with some snacks to enjoy

Before bed as it continues to fall and watching it
As you begin to fall asleep makes the night relaxing
And followed by peaceful dreams

When grown and with the significant other or married spouse
For some to be outside and kiss under the elegant shapes
Is magical and sometimes cooler than kissing in the rain

To be able to build igloos and snowman
Making snow angles and snowballs
To tunnels and riding down hills
Snowshoe and go cross country on skis
To finding a sled or tube to ride down hills
Gaining speed and once in a while crashing
Or falling off with laughter to top it off
To catching them on your tongue
Sometimes even in the eyes but that’s alright
Because it is just water after all just a different form

With water freezing and some roads turning to ice
And lakes, rivers and other bodies of water freezing over
To skate on, play games on, fish on

It’s a wonderful season
Another time to get together with
Family from both sides
Enjoy homemade foods
Cookies that get made once a year
To ending the year and beginning the year
With the snowflakes that glide and shimmer

For some who don’t like to be around it as much
Or even as long
Vacation time is around the corner
To leave the white beauty to travel to warmer weather
For a week or maybe some months
But to come back with it still here
But not always

When it begins to fade and the inches become centimeters
To seeing the grass again
It is time to say goodbye
Goodbye till the end of the year
Goodbye winter gear
Goodbye but not for good all them long sleeve and comfy clothes
To the hot chocolate we all love
But secretly still have throughout the year

Saying Hello to warmer weather
Temperatures rising
Slowly
Rain coming
Storms coming for May to bring flowers
Once again

Goodbye winter for not many will miss you
But there of us who will and
Be waiting till you come again

You are many things
Many ways to describe you
Even though you can make us cold
And yet enjoy your presence
See you again

Suicide isn't the way
Talk to me, I'm here
Allow me to help
You are worth it!

Two friends
Since they could remember
Anything went wrong
Who
What
Where
When and
Why
Would always be the words to say when
Upset
Angered
Depressed
Beyond excited and
Whenever they just wanted to talk
As time flew
His love grew for her
Never told her
But did things for her
She never forgot all he did
Graduation came
Summer flying by
College nearing
He went west
She chose South
She grew sick second semester
Sicker and sicker
Went home
To the doctor
The news hit harder than a first break up
She called him
He dropped out
Went to her aid
He asked her
Who
What
Where
When
Why
She told him
Who would be cancer
What is exactly what I said
Where my lung
When I called you was when I found out
Why is what I am still asking
He let out thousands of raindrops
She couldn’t say anything
But join him
Months flew and
Wasn’t getting better
He asked her
“Is there anything you want to do before?”
She stopped him right there
“Don’t say it”
“I want to marry and have a family
Kids
And grow old”
He never told her that he had a ring
He got down right there
She choked
But got out yes
Months went by
Her disease was a rollercoaster
But years went by
And one day
A chance to say goodbye
Was a one way
Not realizing months Later cleaning up
He found her letter
Broke down one last time
For her
His love never grew old

Did you know that everyone
Is in a time loop?
For everyday has 24hrs
Before repeating
Every week after seven days
Will repeat
After twelve months
And up to four seasons
Will eventually repeat
Back to the beginning of the loop

Each day
We wake up
And do our things for the day
And at the end of the day
We all fall asleep
To repeat the loop
The next day
But different tasks

Even the planet's
Will eventually rotate
Till they are back to where they started

The sun
Rising and setting
Each and every day

The clock
With their hands always moving
Eventually both restart at twleve

My Child
You're in a boat
And I am your oar
You'll make it farther in life
When you involve me in every aspect
If you choose not
You'll drift wherever the waters take you
Soon to be lost
Without even knowing

Feeling kind of ******
Asking for help
On things I should know
But was never taught
Feeling only like
A pretty face with a good heart

To my kid or kids I hope I have one day
I hope that I can be the best mother that I can be
Times change and are always changing and I may not always understand what you are going through
But talk to me like you would your best friend and I will always listen
I was your age once
I most likely been through what you are now just going through
My child
You are one I can call my own
You are precious
I will always love you
I know you may act out
But if I have to punish you
Learn from it and grow wiser
I discipline because I love you
There may be times you love me than hate me
Need me and then want nothing to do with me

I believe we all can’t be told something and expect to learn from it
Some things need to be learned at first hand
So you will truly know that when told something
your curiosity won’t get the best of you
Because some things are better left unlearned from
and left in a deep pit

To my child or children
I hope to have one day
When you are first conceived
I want to be praying for you
To grow up and know which path to take
When you don’t know yourself
Which road to take
For one day you might say
Shel Silverstein warned me of this

We all take paths we may never have wanted to take
Don’t regret those choices
For they will be lessons in your future and maybe others
Who choose that path and need some help
We can’t always choose the right path
For no lesson would be learned

Some paths may bring you
Hurt that started out as loving
Your heart I know may get broken or shattered at least once
Trust me when that happens they lost someone too precious
They will not know until its too late

My child or children I hope to have one day
This world is so big and full of beautiful wonders
Full of culture and things you never may have known of
Go and explore it with your family or friends
Just don’t sit everyday in front of those mindless screens
But take and I beg you
Don’t lose your common sense
Because it seems more like a rare gem these days

My child or children I hope to have one day
I hope and want you to live long enough to see you get
Married and have kids of your own one day
To see my grandkids and how much they resemble you and look much like you
One for you to call your own or many to call your own
One who will make you laugh and cry
Push your buttons
Or even upset you at times
But that is what happens
It’s a cycle we all go through at some point

My child or children
I will always
Love
Support
Care for
Be there for
Listen to
Talk to
You

I want you to have fun in life
But also be safe and responsible
Smile always
Be active and do not be lazy
For that is never fun except for when all you have been doing is running and need one of those days
Treat others like you would be treated
Even if they may not treat you right
Fire and fire only makes a bigger fire and does no good
Or shows them love and off balance
And show love to all always

My child or children
Friends are good in life to have
Choose your friends wisely
Because who your friends are could be your future
Some people may be fun
Some may not be so fun but more there for you when you need them
What do their futures look like?
I have no idea for my future and others we do not know until that time comes
Sometimes the fewer the friends the better
You may not understand now why that may be
But you will
For fewer close is better than many unreliable or untrustworthy  
I could be wrong though
Some have many friends who are all there for you but will all stay is the next question.

You knew I would be yours
the moment you laid eyes on me
                                        Looking at you I wanted something more
                                        but I clearly didn't see
You asked me out one night in my car
hoping to hear a yes
                                        my thoughts lingered far
                                        till a day or two later you got a yes
we set a date to go to the mall
playing mini golf and eating at Bubba Gump Shrimp
                                       I had put up a small wall
                                      dressing in jeans and a sweatshirt feeling a bit
                                      wimpy                
You seemed as if you wanted to hold my hand
but couldn't get to it
                                   I admit I was nervous but wouldn't let you land
                                   even though I would have been lit
We left and I dropped you off at home
Hoping to be another day
                                        I felt a bit alone
                                        but I know I had more to say
I managed to be like glue and stick
you wanted to see me more but not over tea
                                       One day, for two months I got sick
                                       that wasn't my plan you see
you came and stayed
holding me in your arms
                                      I felt so weak all I could do was pray
                                      You had me under your spell of charms
Months later here we are
stuck tighter than glue and more like tar
                                     I'm glad you asked me
                                    giving you a change was the best thing
                                    I almost didn't see

True beauty lies within
True beauty doesn't involve a mask
no matter how small or big
True beauty isn't fake but authentic
True beauty is loving who you are
just as you are
True beauty loves her flaws and mistakes
and isn't afraid to show others her scars
because her scars have a story
and those stories show us how strong we have gotten
how strong we have become
True beauty isn't a specific size or shape it all sizes and all shapes
True beauty isn't defined by color because one color isn't one Beauty all colors are all Beauty and most of all unique
True beauty is pure at its original core

What if I told you
that the truest form of love
doesn't come from anything
or anyone, even your special someone

What if I told you
that the truest love
is loving yourself
without wanting to change a thing
and to just accept who you are

What if I told you
that once you accept yourself
then you can truly love others
and those dearest you

When your words speak yes
but
your actions show me no

One of the most
Painful and
Heartbreaking
Things to hear
But most relieving

An astounding soul
So unique
Holding every precious moment close

A promise
Thought would be kept
Three days later
Made empty
Left a broken heart
Sitting on the couch

Why do we run
When a hard challenge comes to face?

Why do give up
After we failed the first 5 times?

Why do we quit
If we dont understand or get it right away

Why do we choose to quit living
Because others are jerks and don't know you or your potential and what you can do?

Why?

Why can't we
Face our challenges without fear but courage

Why can't we persevere
And believe that we can accomplish it even if it takes 50 tries or days

Why can't we keep going
Take the time to practice and understand what we don't even if it means looking from or learning from another angle

Why don't we stand up even if it means getting a beat down or made fun of. Even if they do you are brave and strong and have courage to stand up for yourself and that they can't tear you down anymore

Why?

Why do we do what we want to do and yet fail to continue because of a wall or rock that stops us or makes us fall?

Why do we think that we have failed after we think we can no longer accomplish our task?

We fail when we choose to no longer try and believe we cannot when one day we can when the effort is put forth

Why don't we stop asking ourselves the what if's and start asking the why not's?

For why not prove others that you can
But not just others but yourself
For completing your task shows
You ain't no quitter
But a persevering human
Who can do things when you try and get back up at all cost
To show yourself that you are stronger than you think
Even if asking help was all you needed.
Some tasks are not meant to be done alone but with help.

Boyfriends come and
Boyfriends go
Lessons are learned
Many tears are shed
Will you be the one to stay till death with me?
Will you be the one to build my heart together and keep it in one piece?

You only lose
When you don't get back up
And continue to cruise

My daughter
Why are you crying
I Am always with you

Sometimes the only way to know yourself truly
Is to find yourself completely broken