there once was a dream
            i had set out for me


            of the                            and fall                  pen or
        waves   ocean              rise   constantly     my       the
      the             would      fall             with      of               swoosh
where                  rise and                    the flick                    of my brush

i made words into art
or art into words
for everyone to see

now i only make it for me

                                     see        but
                                 world               i
                                    the              will
     ­                                        let
how i can create pictures
without touching a brush
and how i can
truly go from
                         f                                                 up
                         a                                                  g
            ­             l                                                   n
                         l                                                   i        
                         i                                                   s            
                         n                                                  i             ­     
                         g                                                  r
            ­        down                     to

Today
I'm running out of words
Unable
to write my grievous thought
Caught
in ugly situation of fate
pinned
by the cruelty of time
defeated
by own ones
betrayed
by familiar faces
cheated
by fake promises
despite
of any companion
in spite
of my failed attempts
tired
from self given scars
inspiring
again to hope
elating
myself to write
imposing
again to breath

Again
My trust is broken
I got scattered.

Again
My faith has drowned
I got scared.

Again
My tears are falling
I cried over pillow.

Again
My perceptions won
I got defeated.

Again
My dreams have broken
I got nightmares.

Again
My hatred increased
I got stabbed.

Again
My pieces will integrate
I will live.

Again
My intentions will firm
I will grow with trust issues.

I can't say...
That I hate you
I can't say...
That I love you
Cause
I'm in between both.