Don't want you to forgive me
Accept me the way I am
  Or leave me.
We are here to be,
  The way we want to be.
  Not to justify
  And be pushed to lie
  Playing the game of  forgiveness
  Makes me see
  Nothing but your selfishness.
  Learn to accept
  Or think of another concept
  To give is not to forgive

If you want to know the truth
Go back to yourself.

Maybe it's the faulty wiring of my circuits,
I don't seem to understand those around me,
I tell them don't trust me,
They say they love me,
But I will glitch, synapse misfire,
I'll become a villain in my program,
With no rhyme or reason,
I'll fail miserably to the hero,
That is my destiny,
But at least I'll know my fate,
Better than these faulty wires,
A maze of circuits that never know where to connect,
Is this what it's like to be human?..

“..And just like that,
Emotions shifted faster than the changing seasons-
Undoubtedly as the leaves did on my favorite tree,
I seemed to be falling-
Falling a little bit more in love with you during each passing day,
But unlike the trees and the seasons-
I don’t see an end to this decent...”


                                  Alysia Marie 2018 ©