queen of hearts

queen of hearts May 2018

maybe
it wasn't supposed to end

or start

maybe I'm hopeful when I shouldn't be
and I don't leave when I should
so maybe
it's me
.
maybe I'm too friendly
maybe I drink too much
maybe I go out too often
and maybe I don't care enough
maybe I move too fast
and maybe I'm confused
but I swear
maybe
it's just me
.
maybe I'm weak
maybe I'm just lonely
maybe I know what I need
but maybe
I don't want it
maybe I'm just rambling
and maybe I'm naive

but I swear

I meant to write this about you
but maybe it's just me
.

this one hurt a little

#me #feelings #depression #mood #lonely

queen of hearts May 2018

if I knock, please don’t let me in

I don’t want your pity
and I don’t want your love
leave me here to rot
so I can live with all I’ve done

leave me here to wonder
leave me here alone
don’t trust me with your heart
cause I don’t trust me with my own

I’m not the one you asked for
I promise that you’ll see
I don’t break promises
promises break me

temptations get the best of me
and I’ll never choose you
keep your ******* distance
or you’ll end up a victim too

queen of hearts Apr 2018

you really did it this time

rock bottom's a scary place
but i feel at home here
all the neighbors know my name
i'm not alone here
i forget all of my feelings
when i come here
but i wish there was a way
to forget to run here
cause i hate to admit
to you i live here
and it ***** so bad
i know the way
to get here
and i love the way it feels
when i'm alone here

and if it wasn't for you
i wouldn't know

queen of hearts Jan 2018

the words mean nothing

yeah. i’ve written a lot of things about you. i’ve written a lot of things about a lot of people. and i’ll never let you read them cause they’ll make you think you’re special

#love #lonely #you #nothing

queen of hearts Jan 2018

It’s better that way

let me destroy you
let me let you down
let me let the water run
then let me watch you drown
in my love
I never gave you
all the times I never tried
just let me let you forgive me
for all the times I lied
let me live in silence
let me let you know
that the only thing that’s good for you
is to let me
*******
go

#leave #feeings #lonely #love

queen of hearts Oct 2017

this one was easy

so many
things
i wanna write down
but
i swear
i'm not going to
truth is
i already
hate this poem
cause
the entire thing's
about
You

#you #hate #love #confused #lonely #feelings