sometimes
the shadows in the corner of my room
kinda look like you
i feel stupid doing a double take
a person cannot become a shadow
but bees pollinate flowers and
mother birds feed their young
and
you used to hold my hand

a person cannot become a shadow
i do a double take anyway

When red apple roses rise from my head,
Know that the earth has embraced me, now dead.
I'll rest where roots wrap my bones in the ground,
And bloom through my silence, no longer bound.

Their petals still whisper the things I once said;
In death, I will part with the cage of my heart.
So grieve in my garden, but know it’s my home,
For beauty will grow where my love ever roams.

You not only gave me purpose,
You silenced the cries from my bleeding lips,
made my eyes glisten with joy, not tears.
grew flowers from the burnt ashes in my skin.
You encased hope in my unraveled brain.

I’m sorry I grew up.
Sorry the world changed me.
Sorry I can’t be the sun anymore,
but now I know what exists beyond like the darkness; not just light.
I still want you to love me.
But you only do when I give you a stupid hug
I can’t be the same as someone I don’t know,
I can’t just change.
And pretend the pain doesn’t remake me.
I don’t know why you expect me to just lie.
So I’m sorry I grew.
I know you hate me now, I do to.
But we can’t go back.
The past has changed me; I grew.

I feel death bearing down
The transience of my life
Aging, slowly aging
The pain that living brings

My sons play video games
Keep them moving forward
My darling, darling boys
Seattle surely sings

                      Viva!

her eyes would resemble
the sea eyes
in blaze
trailing me from the harbour
emerging from all the liquid,
through the chains
braids clinging to land
in force, abundantly.
bribed me, tore sanity off my grip;
illusions i feed myself to never let go
bribed be, and i desired it
all i would ever want
will be to listen the solemn note of your voice.
serena, the harmonious
soul from beyond the terrain
how i would wait for you
to be swept of my feet by you
to be taken by and to your glory,
to your place, alien to my habitat
to be seen, perhaps missed,
to be loved by you
to be the integral part of your light

Magnetic
A ugly grin
Not of my canvas
Superman
To my kryptonite
If there’s no tomorrow
Life’s been
A hard pill
To swallow
After all I’m only human
Flesh and bone
Eventually ashes in a box
I’ve felt sick
But that doesn’t even begin to tell
The full story
Cringing in agony
Imaging an alternative universe
More times then not
Overwhelmed
Handicapped by my own mind
I’ve gone head
Too head with thee worst
This so called place has to offer
Thee violent
Mood swings can
Be so brutal
The highest of highs
Quickly become thee opposite
Where’s the middle ground at
A catatonic state leads to
Def con five moments
Straight down the rabbit hole
You begin to fall
Buckle up
Making life hard to navigate
It’s not right by any means of thee
Imagination