We wish for love
We give in to lust
Hatred in our hearts
Smoke in our lungs

We wish we had made it
But sadly we weakened

Walk down the lit path and tell me what happens
Is their anyone waiting ?

Time wasted.

Became an excuse
To live , to breathe, feel and speak.
Became an excuse time back.

Vivid daydream .
No ! Angry nightmare.
Have Mercy on my soul.

What's there though?
Half empty cave carved into my flesh.
Rats and crows around my grave.
Patient , careful
Crawl out a ***** hole.

So raw, so bare.
Unconditional love.
I believe , but not proved.

Please ,
Force me.

Hissed out lies to me
A smile with a slither in between.

Now tell me ,
What's the reward ?
Pounds of guilt, wings for hell ?
What more ?
Please tell me .
Livin to ****,
How pitiful .

Endless hole , buried in thoughts.
A child so stubbornly forced ,
A child so viciously torn.
An abandoned doll,
Cracked and oh so *****.
Whines out for her own.

Oh so heavy ,
So bloodied and dead.
Through the walls ,
Through the halls
His laughter echoes .

As the seconds ticked on, the day's flew
The years slow , I prayed
My knees bloodied
And flesh began to show
I prayed and hoped

Kicked to the ground,
I'm sorry.

You take a peak at my bruised skin
The radiance is gone
The innocence is lost !
I'm so sorry ..

I failed and I died
Oh how could I have been alive ?
Last moment I had
A dream so surreal , so unearthly ,
So unreal .
It could have almost been real.

I could not explain if I tried .